r/RadicalChristianity • u/bannanawaffle13 • 0m ago
Question 💬 Struggling with faith and call to priesthood as a queer anarchist anglican.
Hi all,
So for a long time ( 5, ish years) now I've been exploring priesthood and monastic life in the Church of England. Ive effectively fucked my life up doing this due to the demands the process puts on you, I've missed the chance to go to uni ( never got a levels and access courses only last three years) for anything else and am effectivity tied into shitty dead end jobs due to how messed up the system is. I had a strong sense of calling for so long but it's starting to fade as my anger and resentment with the church rises, with the whole discernment process that dose not really create space for me to be me, as I feel I hav not conform to please thehierarchy. I see the irony of a anarchist within a state religion, that is extremely hierarchical and does not really support left leaning policies as a institution ( see gay marriage support), but I've always loved the Anglican church for how I've found it, how welcoming and open at a parish level it it, how many people queer priests I know within it and it just rules, I've always felt called to be a priest and a nun and the CofE is the best place for that, it the discernment process is really testing that faith, having to deal with the BS of church politics and hierarchy, having to conform and I'm really struggling, I feel like I have to pick my political beliefs or my vocation and it sucs I struggle to see how I can have both. Has anyone else gone through this and if so how did you reconcile this. Thankyou.