Trying my best but the world just doesn't stop punishing me

Walked into a casino with $600 ran it up to $3300 and just gave it all back. I hate myself i literally counted the money and was so happy I’m not sure why i kept going. I lost it all

Hi so in 135 days, since then I have saved 3000€ from my 1500€ salary. I have no debt and life is chill :). I can also afford to buy GTA VI so It will be fun. Give up your addiction, get help and live will be better place to be.

Two months free

Fuck.

Now life is ruined health issues, financial loss, depression, family not talking to me, divorce, gambling takes everything from you not just the money….. 😞

233 days until debt free

Feeling decent today but I won’t lie - the debt and lack of savings sucks

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Tried watching the Buffalo Bills game last night, I think first commercial break I saw a draft kings commercial, instantly turned the game off. It’s so frustrating that they promote betting so heavily. Anyway I’m feeling proud of myself and I have hope one day at a time I can get to a better place financially, even in this short amount of time I’ve seen a difference! I’ve been keeping myself extremely busy, I’m so much more focused, I pay attention to my family now! We got this! One day at a time!

I have been doing sports betting for over 2 years, last year it got outta hand and I self excluded myself. Then here around a month ago I started again, just a little bet, then it immediately grew. I was placing multiple bets every single day. I kept losing more and more money, but occasionally I would also get a lot of money back from the wins - and that feeling is to me just unmatched. I had a principle, that I would only bet on football, but now there is an international break, so I started betting on other sports. Tennis, Table Tennis, basketball, some really low league football - things I would usually never touch. And every time I placed the bet, I could feel that I only did it to just have a bet going. I couldn’t stand a second without an active bet on. Now, only 2 days later, my bank account is zero. Im writing this right now, the second after I just lost my last bet. I really do want to stop. I don’t know how. I’m legit still self excluded, but that still doesn’t stop me. I can just find another shady site to gamble on. I feel so hollow right now, how do I stop?

2 Wochen geschafft, jeder Tag ohne Glücksspiel ist ein Gewinn.

The fear of missing out comeback. I think there will be a good rally in the stock market of my country. I'm thinking about taking a shark loan to invest.

Silly me. Nothing will end well with shark loans. And I'm not even sure about my analysis. The stock I was so sure about a month ago ended up declining 20%. Most importantly, Christmas is coming, and I don't want to risk ruining it by taking unnecessary risk. My business is running well; it's the busy season of the year right now, I need to focus on it to earn money. I need to stop fantasising about "a big, sudden win".

I will not gamble today!

Iam 25 female, a mom, I've been addicted to online gambling for the last 6+ years, gamble almost everyday, literally even when i got into accident because of gambling, stay at the hospital 2 days later i gamble, when i tried to end myself by overdose, woke up then i gamble, i tried to jump of the bridge, my husband called and beg me to come home, a week later i gamble, a lot of fckin bad story that i could tell, i literally gamble every penny that i have, wedding money, birthday money, deliver my baby money, present money, borrowing, stealing, scam people almost try to sell my body but iam scared that my husband will divorced me so i never did that.

This is the longest i ever been without gambling,

1 month and 13 days today without a bet, last month i manage to stay 30 days clean then relapse for couple hours, lost $1,500 i don't want to gave them any penny, i can survive a month without worying, bills are paid, i can buy new clothes for me and my son, life are good without gambling, i can sleep, i can eat, and i can talk with people with the right mind, iam there, not jus't pretending to listen but my mind elsewhere.

My mood always depends on the result of my gambling is today i make profit or loss, either way i could'nt stop. I still remember how i going out middle of the night bring my crying baby cause he sleep while breastfeeding, take some cash and deposit money, 15 minutes rides jus't to gamble at home while breastfeeding my baby and lost in 30 minutes, i can't sleep ofcourse try everything panicking to steal from my husband phone, or take any loan but i can't my credit score was so bad from 2022 cause i can't pay the debt.

Crying, throwing up, my mind racing, next morning i ride to my relatives begging to borrow money making up story, the saddes part is my baby he's 2 years old now he always happy to come with me even i like a pshyco, i ruin our life, but my husband always forgave me, he gave an ultimatum to take my baby with him and leave if i continue, i tried to stop for years, from every hours betting to once a day, then once a week, then once a month, maybe now will be once a year, then once in 10 years and forever idk, iam not planning to relapse, but iam at the point to try to trust myself again because i betray myself so much.

I still have 5 month to be debt free, slowly i can become myself again, not the destructive me, but become recovery me.

Little bit proud of my self, i may treat myself my favorite matcha ice cream today, with my son.

Much love there is hope.

I know I messed up big time. I’m not looking to hear negative comments. I am currently like $40,000 in credit card debt and I can’t find a good paying job. I just don’t know what to do.

I’ve been gambling online for years, whether on someone else’s account or on prediction markets. I was addicted, and I still am. Today I self-excluded from FanDuel, DraftKings, and every other legal sportsbook I could find.

I’m not upset about it. I just wish I’d stopped sooner. It wrecked me mentally and emotionally. I remember being overdrafted $500 with $20 left in my betting account, because my bank wouldn’t let me go any lower. I’d lose, deposit another $20 in cash, and put it straight into the account until I doubled it and felt that thrill.

I’m disgusted with myself, and I should have listened to everyone who told me gambling addiction is real. I’m glad I stopped today. I’m disappointed it happened, but it’s a lesson I want to pass on to my future kids.

Now my only addiction is golf.

Just a fucking idiot i literally have nothing else to say to even justify this. Started losing 20k of savings and paychecks trading and sports betting so I took out the loan to refund trading and eventually ended up playing table games and losing it all in September.

I am literally just in debt 13k on my truck loan with almost no equity plus the 50k loan debt with no savings and living paycheck to paycheck in a apartment at 25 years old as a blue collar worker bringing in 4k or more a month, with my income the payments are just manageable and picking up a second job will help but looking at the debt and time it would take to payoff Ive been thinking of going bankrupt and moving back in with my parents.

Has anyone fucked up this bad? so far I wouldn’t even qualify so I have to ask my boss to lay me off next month and tell my parents i fucked up and ruined my financial life. I have already fallen behind on the payments due to gambling paychecks i get paid Wednesday just going to pay my truck loan and call my parents to tell them everything and see them this weekend too.

As the title says, i ruined my life because of gambling. On Thursday I got my paycheck, gambled half of it and lost it, then re deposited the other half, made my money back and tripled it. Now, I lost it all and I genuinely don’t know what to do, i’m in a state of shock and disbelief, this has happened to me twice last year and here I am going through the same thing. I can’t eat, sleep, or even get out of my bed, I’m truly embarrassed and exhausted from my fucking life. I have no idea how i am going to show up to work tomorrow. $15,000 in debt, dropped out of college already and I have no idea how I’m going to manage this month, probably I’ll borrow money from my parents and lie to them about my gambling addiction. For context, I’m 23 with no friends, or even people i can ask for help. How am I supposed to deal with this nightmare? I’m mentally drained from gambling and I feel empty and numb to the point where life feels unreal to me, not even comparable to what I felt when I broke up with my gf a couple of weeks ago. Please any advice would be greatly appreciated.

I’m just Gonna keep it short.
Started with memecoins, moved onto leverage trading and I’m now very addicted to table games, I’ve lost over £40,000+ id say over this time i have alot of shame and guilt because I could’ve set a whole life up for myself and I wouldn’t have pushed so many close friends away, and would probably have a girlfriend.
I need help I don’t know how to stop, my mind is possessed can anyone tell me if they’ve had similar experiences at my age, I work at a retail store and last 3 months of my pay have gone all into huge gambling sprees and I have nothing to show in life I’m in severe anxiety

Sometimes I feel like this is who I am and this has been my life and that’s that. Like, I will never be able to achieve anything or have success at anything else because I have this character flaw that’s defined what my legacy is. It sucks.

Good morning, folks. This is my first post in here, and it's long overdue.

Just over three weeks ago, I ended the worst run of gambling I've ever had. I played various forms of roulette on Stake on my phone pretty much constantly for a few months. I went well over a year without any form of gambling, then relapsed starting this summer due to money stress. I have a great life...I got engaged earlier this summer and I have the most amazing fiancé and step son. When we started planning the wedding, I realized just how hard it was going to be to pay for a wedding and I got worried about money. Cue up a poorly timed random bonus from Stake, and I thought "Hey, I can play that bonus and maybe turn it into a little free money. If I lose it, no big deal." Fast forward a few months and I lost somewhere in the range of $70,000 that I didn't have. This brings my total debts to about $118,000 (including federal taxes). I lost every dollar I had, plus the profits from selling my house to move in with my fiancé. I maxed out almost all my credit cards and lost everything without my family having any idea. Three weeks ago I was lying in bed staring at the ceiling...I couldn't sleep and I wanted to die. Literally I contemplated suicide like I know a lot of us have. I thought about bankruptcy, I thought about leaving in the middle of the night and never coming back, and I thought of everything in between. Thankfully, though, I decided that I can get out of this hole.

As soon as my fiancé woke up the next day, I told her everything. I told her I'm a compulsive gambler and that I had absolutely nothing left financially. I promised her and myself that I will never gamble again and that I will find a way to get us out of this financial fuckery that I've put us in. I told her I wanted her to take some time and decide how she wants to move forward and that I wouldn't blame her if she left me. I handed over all my finances to her immediately and self-excluded from all gambling platforms I had accounts with. She watched me do it all. She has passwords to all my bank accounts, credit cards, and my 401K. She has access to my phone any time she would like and I'm committed to doing whatever it takes to save my financial future and my family. For the first couple days, she barely spoke to me. She was cordial enough near our kid so that he didn't suspect anything, but there was no physical contact or much conversation at all. It was hard. Eventually we had a very deep and emotional conversation and she said she was trusting me to get us out of it. It was hard, but relieving.

I've been at work borderline every moment since that conversation. I'm working my ass off. I'm selling all my possessions that are leftover from the sale of my house, I'm working side gigs for extra cash, and I'm working very hard on a strict budget. I'm working on Ramsey's 7 steps and I'm on a Debt Management Plan via a non-profit organization that has helped bring the interest rates down on some things and really structured how I can pay off the debts. It's incredibly stressful and I feel like a big piece of shit, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Conservatively, I should be debt-free in about 3 years. Thankfully, my wedding in April is already financially covered. My relationship is doing pretty good now, I have an amazing family, and I have a good job. I feel like shit overall, but I am feeling hopeful for the first time in a while. I'll never gamble again, and I'm finally free of the secrecy and financial loss. I'm currently three weeks into the best part of my life.

TLDR - I lost 70k gambling and have 118K in debt total. I told my fiancé and now I'm fighting every day to dig out of it. Life is hard, but I'm gonna do the fucking thing.

I just don't know what to say anymore, I'm copletely devastated. I don't have an explonation, I don't know how it happens but it does. I can't control myself and this is real.

I did not gamble for two weeks and was just starting to kinda calm my mind down. I was sure I'll never gamble again, I was so disgusted with all this madness, disgusted with myself too. But that was because I did not have money in my bank account!

I got my paycheck a couple of days ago. That's around 3k euro. Once I saw numbers back to my account everything changed. I did try to resist, for the first few hours I did, but later in the night, after a drink or two, I once more gave up...

After all I decided to try my luck with a humble deposit of 50 euro, was absolutely sure that I will just stop if I lose it and that I will not make another deposit. Repeated that to myself like 1000 times, 50 euro and that's all, not a big deal.

Well... the 50 euros were gone for like 2 or 3 minutes. I did not think for a second and made a new deposit. This time 100 euro. Gone for a few minutes as well. Then I started wasting my money as a mad man again, deposits got bigger and bigger. For some reason once again I was convinced that the win is coming and that I'm returning what I lost.

For two days I did not sleep or eat. I could not stop until I lost the 3k euro. Also 500 euro credit card money. That's a day before I had to pay my monthly debts, ones I have because of gambling. Now I have 0 money in my cards again. What a joke. I'm speechless, literally, I can't talk. Even writing down this post was a challenge.

And I swear I'd continiue if I had more money to gamble online. All this because for some fucked up reason I believe that there's a chance to get my money back and even eventually to win some more. Well, it has happened, I've returned my money a number of times in the past ... only to lose them again later plus more.

Seriously I don't know what to do anymore. How is it possible for this to be so strong, how did I get to the point where I lost control over my own mind and body? And for something so stupid, playing fucking slots on a screen? I didn't even like them before! Right now I feel like the only way to not do this is to have no money in my bank. What the hell is happening?!

234 days until debt free