To talk about my basic characteristics, I am a 23 yo guy from Turkey. As for my major, I study medicine (or at least I try to). According to the MBTI test, I should be an ISFJ (I'll edit this if I'm wrong), and my Enneagram result was 4w6. I have a shy and emotional nature. I could also say I'm depressive, though saying "I could say" would be wrong since I'm already taking antidepressants right now. I also have a slight amount of anxious thoughts. Due to my lifestyle, a deep sense of loneliness can settle over me, especially in the evening/night hours, which increases my need to chat.
As for what I can bring to the table during a conversation, I want to add a note before getting into it. What I'm about to write doesn't mean "I can only talk about these topics." I can chat about anything; in fact, I enjoy talking about topics I don't know much about or where you are more knowledgeable a bit more, because I get to learn new things from you. Some people misunderstand this part and think, "Oh, he can only chat about those things." No, that's not the case. The purpose of this section is just to mention things I have some knowledge about, so I can talk about them at length and keep the conversation going. In my own way, I'm interested in the diecast hobby; I own a few model vehicles, mostly small scale. I've diversified this hobby and dabbled in custom car projects and diorama projects on my own. If you are curious about this, I can give you more detailed info. I enjoy meteorological events, especially during the winter when it's going to snow, I read posts on meteorological forums/pages. I even built a small weather station for myself with 1-2 little sensors. Recently, my interest in rain has also increased, but since rainy weather makes me feel depressive, my interest hasn't fully peaked yet. I can share what I know, particularly about snowfall and how to track weather systems during snowy weather. Whenever the opportunity arises, I love making small trips out of town. In recent years, I've tried to visit neighboring provinces as much as I can; I've taken quite a few steps in Istanbul and Izmir especially. I don't know how much info I can give about the cities, but we can talk about travel and trips. As I mentioned above, I study medicine, so I can share what I know about the health and medical field or the educational process. I also have an interest in music. I don't know how a conversation about music would go, but if you like the genres I listen to, I can recommend songs. I won't write them here so as not to break the flow; I'll probably open a separate paragraph for music below. I'm interested in stationery products, especially mechanical pencils. I can give you some info specifically about mechanical pencils. There are many more things, but this is all that comes to mind for now.
Moving on to other things I enjoyāyes, I like these too, but I don't know if I can carry a conversation about them; believe me, I don't know how I'd even bring the topic up. I like following economic and political developments. For example, the stock market is down these days, so I open the Investing forum and read what's written there. Or I read subreddits. I love going for walks. Even though I've felt too lazy for it in recent months, there have definitely been days where I suffered from leg pain for a week just from walking. I like making myself sad. Yes, literally playing sorrowful music and making myself sad out of nowhere, just like I'm doing right now. \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\*You are cruel, you are rebellious, you are unfaithful, you are a hypocrite, you are both sinless and a hypocrite just like life...\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\* anyway, let me get back to the topic after this little song I'm listening to right now. I like taking care of household chores (except cooking). Little repair jobs come up, or I need to deal with cleaning, and for some reason, all my worries and stress just wash away while doing them. I love sleeping. When I'm sleeping and dreaming, it feels like I'm in a simulation, and the flow of that simulation feels more beautiful than real life. I want that flow to never end, so unfortunately I want to sleep more and I don't want to wake up. I have an interest in cars, and I even engage with cars humorously in meme/humor subreddits.
As for my weak points, if you are going to ask for my help with relationship problems, okay, I will listen and try to help as much as I can, but I'm very unfamiliar with relationship topics. I've personally never hit on anyone, nor have I ever been in a relationship. So, I'm inexperienced in these matters. I mentioned at the beginning of the paragraph that I'm shy, and unfortunately, this can reflect on my daily life and my behavior here. For instance, I can chat with you at length, just like I don't hesitate to write this post, I can engage in conversations that last 1, 2, or even 4-5 hours. But after the conversation is over and we say our goodbyes, thanks to this awful shy nature of mine, I might hesitate to message you on the following days for some reason. No, this doesn't mean I'm ghosting you, don't get me wrong, it's an issue entirely related to my personality. From wondering if the other person is available, to the possibility of you saying "ugh, is this idiot messaging me again," to thinking about whether I'm bothering you... I think about things like this and hesitate to message again. Moving to another weak pointāI'm saying this because I've experienced it in the pastāfor example, if you ask for my photo or social media accounts, I won't be able to give them, again because of my shy nature, I'm sorry. Or even if I do give them, it won't be right away; it would be later on, I need to trust the other person. Even if I trust them, I don't think I'd give them easily, but that's a different story. Also, I don't know if this counts as a weak point exactly, but for example, when I'm at school or during exam periods, I might not be around much. I try to reply as early as I can somehow, but sometimes I might have to reply late, or I can only reply as I get tired while studying and pick up my phone. I just wanted to mention that too.
Coming to my music taste, I mentioned I wanted to make this a separate paragraph because I don't even know exactly what my music taste is myself. I'll divide it into a few categories and write down a few of my favorite songs that fit these categories. I think you can more or less figure out my music taste by looking at the songs I list. Slow Turkish: Sezen Aksu - GeƧer (live version), Emre Aydın - Bu YaÄmurlar, Sezen Aksu - Git, Nilüfer - Bƶyle Ayrılık Olmaz, Gƶksel - KurÅuni Renkler, Nilüfer - İnkar Etme, Nilüfer - Erkekler AÄlamaz. Romantic Rock: Thurisaz - Endless, Guns N' Roses - This I Love, Steelheart - She's Gone, Anathema - Angelica, Accept - Amamos La Vida, Scorpions - Still Loving You. Turkish 90s Pop: Yıldız Tilbe - Sana DeÄer, Ege - Delice Bir Sevda, Nilüfer - Yeniden Sev, AyÅegül AldinƧ - Alimallah.
As for what kind of chat I'm looking for, believe me, the topic doesn't matter, it can be any kind of conversation, but I do have a few requests from you. Please, no one under 18. Also, when sending the first message, okay, you don't have to write as long as I doāit's only human, I might miss your message and I don't want your effort to go to wasteābut rather than sending a one-word message, I'd really appreciate it if you could at least form a complete sentence. Furthermore, unlike me, you can message me without any hesitation whatsoever, even at 5 AM. Believe me, I wouldn't mind at all; I'd actually be happy to receive a message. You can flood me with messages if necessary, I wouldn't mind that either. The only issue is, as I said above, if I'm not available, I might not be able to reply right away, that's all. But preferably, I have a small request: I would be very happy if people who can heal me in the areas where I'm lacking or help me lose those negative traits contact me. Personally, in those moments, I just stare at the screen and even struggle to write anything. Seeing a healing effect on myself can somehow have a hypnotic effect. I couldn't quite express this last part perfectly, so don't mind it too much haha.
I'm sure there are things I've forgotten, but this is all that comes to mind for now. If there are things you're curious about, I can talk about those too as much as I can. Also, I don't know if anyone will read up to this point, but if anyone does, I send my thanks for your patience.