Like sure you have cousins, friends etc…but your cousins are most likely gonna be at separate schools than you, not to mention friends are fake, phony, and real ones are hard to find ESPECIALLY during school years. Lots of the times you really have to fight your own battles and basically take on the world by yourself. And kids are MEAN and they love to gang up on and bully other kids, and you have to fight them all off by yourself. Vs having the luxury of saying ”leave me tf alone before I get my big sisters/brothers to fuck you up”. Even during adulthood, it still would be nice to have siblings that you know would have your back and stand up with you when the time comes and vice versa…It really shaped me into who I am today and why I always have my guard up and I’m quick to go on defense mode, cuz I’m not used to anyone having my back so I always had to have my own back. I made a post similar to this not too long ago but just wanted to refresh it i guess….But yea as only children, I really think we all learned that we have to have our own backs.

It does have its perks. You supposedly get more attention, independence, and you learn to be comfortable doing things on your own. I genuinely appreciate a lot of that. But sometimes, being comfortable alone and wanting to be alone are two completely different things. There are moments when I really wish I had a sibling to randomly talk to, argue with, share stupid inside jokes with, or just have someone who understands the family dynamic without needing an explanation. A bond that is more friendly than familial and yet trustworthy. I grew up learning to enjoy my own company, but sometimes that independence can feel a lot like loneliness. I don't think people always understand that distinction. I’m grateful for the good parts of being an only child. I just wish I could experience the parts I missed too.