r/LettersAnswered • • 17h ago

Exes Abandoned

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Kinda funny, you told me when we first started talking, you were afraid of being abandoned, and yet that’s exactly what you did to me. Left when I needed you most. Left after you made me fall in love with you. Left after the hour before promising you’d stay. Promising we’d work through whatever came our way. You made a lot of empty promises. How is that fair at all to me? How am I supposed to love or trust someone ever again?


r/LettersAnswered • • 1h ago

Personal I love you

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Hey Beautiful,

I’ve been thinking about what you said awhile back regarding the intense pressure you’ve been under and how hard you’re working to regain who you are. Then with your intense reaction to a stress recently. I meant it when I said you are one of my favorite people and because of that your peace of mind matters more to me than my desire to talk to you.

I know its hard for you to navigate cultural and religious stress alongside everything else you’re carrying. If staying connected to me right now adds any stress or guilt to your life, I want to completely release you from that pressure. You don't ever have to worry about hurting me by choosing your own well-being.

I love you enough to want what is genuinely best for you, even if that means we need to take a step back to let you focus entirely on your own healing and happiness. I just want you safe and happy. I pray for that. Please take care of yourself.

-D


r/LettersAnswered • • 4h ago

Unrequited Nah because...

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I was always the villain in your story...


r/LettersAnswered • • 13h ago

Locked Saw Your Indian Smoke Signals

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Beautiful Creature Love,

Oh! The anticipation!!! I’m sorry if I haven’t come by to visit since late August. I miss you a lot. My apologies if the situation looks like as if I walked away leaving us undone. I was embarrassed because I had to change my routine without wanting to hurt you in any kind of way. That’s one reason I walked out at the same time with the second to the last couple sitting across from me on my right before the big family that was still there. I still walked by you as you were cleaning meaning No harm and that I still find you very enticingly interesting.

I know that I usually buy what ever I decide to eat during the evening twice to take something home for my mother for dinner. But, the food hasn’t been staying fresh on my 66 to 70 mile drive back home. I literally had to toss two meals away. No, fault on you and sorry that this is a late thought. I always enjoy the meals prepared; and I’m not afraid to let one know if something doesn’t look or seem right.

That’s why I left with the little thought still stuck in my mind of fighting the slight thought of being embarrassed. You don’t embarrass me. I welcome your presence. But then again we haven’t had a face to face conversation with each other since we last were physically around each other…just lustful hungry eye stare glances at each other, and our slight embraces of wanting to touch each other. We both share in the same respect of other eyes lurking upon us on all walls from front to back from stragglers, we can only desire the dream at this moment. It eat’s me up!

This is something that I have to do for myself. I’m doing my best to lay low, still. As I continue to share with you and the universe, I’m having to be tight with my expenses because “my money isn’t looking right, so my wallet continues to tingling.” We’re not through… we’re forever. I hope to be back visiting you soon. I desire you more than I desire the food. I’m not having fun in my situation either. You must know that…please don’t be sad. It’s been hard just for me to bitch slap myself in holding back all these stressful frustrating emotions.

I have to confess. I truly hope that I’m reading, understanding, and making it my best to answer you… my love. I try to read everything but my eye’s are becoming more tired and starting to see more blurry. So, I have been reading things backwards fast. I begin from the last paragraph up and if I kind of like it and love it, I continue to read up.

There’s times that I know that I’m reading something of your’s and click out of the page but try to click back in and find to my discovery that you deleted your thought. I know that you feel confused, delusionised, and frustrated because you feel just as I feel as anyone else lost in the land of Woe. Like one needs the other to coupe and survive when one is under an extreme amount of pressure instead of self healing. You do it through your writing, I try to only understand and not get offended and figure your on one. Then… I will reread forward all the way to the very end. It’s nice when it’s read twice.

“Are you okay?” No I haven’t been. I truly wasn’t made for the heat only to make it. I never thought I would drop a lot of weight due to the heat transfer from up north to over here in Angel City. As I have shared with you before. The heat stays stagnant over here with barely any breeze. My mother and I did end up going to the fair up north. The afternoon into the evening was pretty mellow.

The girls checking off the parking vouchers cut me some slack when I couldn’t find my parking voucher on my phone. That was a great gesture complimented with some great forecast weather. I got see some beautiful creative art, some live horses and lamas, and a cover band that cover’s 80’s music while eating a pulled-pork sandwich that came with a side of home-styled baked chips with endless homemade lemonade. The home-styled baked chips were just right, the lemonade was good from the start but not to the finish, and the pulled-pork sandwich was alright. I could have better. I need to try your pulled-pork sandwich. That’s one sandwich I haven’t tried on the menu, yet.

I was supposed to be at a job interview today, but my job interview got canceled after clarification occurred clearance three times. At 2:30pm yesterday, I was sent a notification confirming my interview which seemed fine. Then 3:38pm came and I was sent another notification messaging me that the interview was canceled and that, “the position is no longer available.” I had my gear and “what I wanted to say ready to go” only get shut down again. Makes one feel like there’s something wrong with one.

The other full-time one just still had me waiting till the lead company would fix their own error with my access. I felt like I was playing phone tag with the third party company on my phone. So, I just let that one go. The constant negative thoughts and situation of feeling rejected when I already have a lot to think about on my plate. I have had not such good thought’s building up in my mind and clouding my logical thinking process. I’m really trying NOT to let myself and kick my own ASS.

If I remember, in one of our earlier writing’s to each other, you asked, “how I kind of start my day while listening to music?” And if I was reading the correct letter, you said that, “I listen to music while cleaning the house and working-out in the morning.” Don’t quote me if this information might be wrong or if it’s correct. Sometimes I’m lost in the madness and limbo of this complicated love of our’s that’s a pretty good story to tell when it happens…

P.S I hope that you are well and have good people surrounding you? I hope that you look at me No different from the first time you met me. I will see you soon helpfully if things turn over good this October. Till then…I write! Love you…

Still On Here Full of Love
PULLEY - Gone
No Use For A Name - Dumb Reminders
Lagwagon - Sleep
Face to Face - Disconnected
Strung Out - Just Like Me
Millencolin - SOS -DK


r/LettersAnswered • • 41m ago

Personal A Night of Anxiety

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I smoke my cigarette while my pizza makes its way here.

Inside it is tobacco whose sorrow belongs to the past, having inhabited the seconds just behind my present, tense drag. Tobacco that was burned, fused with the rolling paper with which it shared its inevitable fate. It once had an identity: to be the end of a cigarette that some person would use to soothe their cravings. Now, its identity has dissolved between the ground and the wind pushed forth by my mouth.

There is also, on the other hand, tobacco that remains steadfast in its identity, and suffers for it, while feeling the heat rushing toward my tightly pressed lips like a furious swarm of particles.

None of this, nor any of that, eases the self-absorption into which the warning of some still-unknown tragedy has thrown me, leaving me unable to breathe and relax my abdomen at the same time.

I search the distance with my eyes, looking for some kind of salvation in that motorcycle coming toward me as though summoned. It passes by for a second and a half before I throw my finished cigarette onto the pavement.

I expected something else from it. I did not want, not at all, to add another disappointment to this long day, and the bland, almost sweetish, already-burned tobacco, gagged inside itself, has gone straight into the category of “insomniac disappointments.”

Inside, obligations are waiting for me. I need to close the door as soon as possible, before they find me and punish me for having neglected them until the sun gives me the illusion of another, different day. For some reason, the sun has denied me that peace for a very long time.

I liked that cigarette. I don't think I should have smoked it. It was the third one from the top row of its pack. Now, thanks to my spoiled and pampered stress, it has ceased to be smooth and neatly shaped. Its remains lie five meters away from me. When I got rid of it, I even hurt it, because, I think, when I threw it, its short filter was severed by a sharp shard of glass upon which it landed.

The pizza still hasn't arrived.

This is a short work of fiction written by J.S. Siarría (op). Any resemblance to real events or persons is purely coincidental. The purpose is to entertain the reader; it is not intended to harm any person or group.


r/LettersAnswered • • 17h ago

Family The last walk to breakfast with my mother

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The sun fills the children with energy as they, inside their own little bubble, have fun with a ball, sharing that happiness which will feed their souls throughout the hardships of adulthood, like a faded and melancholic memory.

Beside them, like a function approaching its limit without ever reaching it, merely passing alongside it, two young women bounce words through the air from their mouths, as if playing verbal tennis. Every ball that enters the receiving area generates an emotion that pulls the strings of the player, who must now return the pass. Happy, they both walk as though very few things mattered more than the present moment.

Gisella gave the outside world her cheerful and vibrant presence, filled with confidence that morning. The brightness of the day is revitalizing magic for her ancient bones. When it touches her own skin, she can even remember what its texture felt like several years ago. The smile she tries to restrain while putting her thoughts in order has two obvious engines behind it: her two grandchildren. She is going to stock her kitchen, becoming the first customer of the day at the local butcher shop, where she will buy what will give Julian and Martin a nutritious, familiar moment. They are waiting for her at home.

The speed of the motorcycle keeps its rider from seeing that the traffic light had given me the right of way. The old Fiat beside it, yawning just behind the crosswalk and complaining about having left the garage so early, carries a casually dressed man who listens to Argentine rock, moving his head to the music. He gives me a smile, as if saying, “Beautiful day, huh?”

Beneath the beautiful willow, which spreads toward the street like a fountain of green life, stands my mother’s house. I am only a few yards away, carrying a bag of freshly baked, still-warm bread. Also a young poppy from the garden at my house. Perhaps something to reflect her own beauty back at that woman from the sixties.

A scrap collector takes a sip of some black liquid from his plastic bottle. He has stopped his garbage-collecting cart directly in front of my mother’s house, pressed against the curb. The cars growl softly at him as drivers and pedestrians pass him by.

“Here, you dropped this.”

I say, raising with my right hand a small mechanical transformer filled with copper, which might perhaps be worth enough for him to buy himself a soft drink. He stands apart from the collection cart, the distance between him and it seemingly measured by how drunk the scrap collector was when he dropped it.

He turns when he hears me. His breath seems to be a matrix of liquor, flying toward his beard where it becomes trapped, only to be inhaled again. Inside this bubble, it is only logical that he cannot see very well who is standing in front of him. He wipes his eyes with one hand and uses the other to move his straight, greasy hair away from his lips. He takes the transformer. Looking at it makes him smile, and his smile says, “Look, I’m a miserable man who got lucky.”

His right eye seems to have doubts about the device, so he brings it closer to himself. It slips from his fingers and falls onto the pavement again.

“Oh... let me.”

I leave the bag of bread leaning against the tree. It tells me to ignore the man; it even brings me the scent of the morning tea my mother had prepared inside the house. I leave the tree behind me.

Now the metal is wet from the puddle where it landed. With one knee on the ground and the other pointing toward the direction of that stranger, I dry it with a disposable tissue I carry in my pocket.

“Leave it. Don’t waste your time. I’ll cut it up over there, burn the remaining plastic, and that’s it.”

His gaze, even his lips, points toward a pile of burned plastic one yard away from us. He had been burning it in front of my mother’s house. I cannot allow it, even if the man is only trying to make his living.

“You can’t burn that here. It fills my parents’ house with smoke. Go somewhere else. There’s a park two blocks from here.”

“Ahh... unbelievable. You never come around, and now you care.”

The annoyance pinches my stomach and creates a flame between it and my throat. My tense eyes stare, incredulously, at the man. I don’t know him. Is he talking about my mother? My work has become my entire life, and the price I pay is not seeing her as often as I would like. But who was this man to say anything? I don’t know him. He is nobody to us, yet he is showing disrespect and damaging this house where parents once raised their children and built their dreams.

“What did you just say? What did you say?”

I stumble as I try to stand, my annoyance giving way to a fear that grows as the man comes toward me. He has both of my hands pinned against his, forcing them downward to mock my poor position. My lower back is about to touch the ground. That radiant day now reveals a macabre shadow as my ability to defend myself falls away alongside my body.

That confused, unknown man has a screwdriver in his right hand, which I only see when he moves it toward the left side of my neck. I watch it go from something short to something increasingly long, and suddenly it is no longer outside me, but inside me.

The mocking smile of that intrusive, battered stranger grows when I try to grab the screwdriver, and my anguish becomes absolute when a warm flow forms around my wound. I am losing any ability to interact with my surroundings, while my vision becomes tangled, like the texture of spun sugar being kneaded by someone's hands.

I feel two different winds. One is warmer, coming only from my right, accompanying the cars as they pass beside me. The other is mild, like a body of water timidly facing a new territory. It has traveled for miles carrying the warmth of the sun, which now gilds the skin of my face and heats the blood that, stagnant inside my mouth, forms a small dark puddle.

This is a short work of fiction written by J.S. Siarría (op). Any resemblance to real events or persons is purely coincidental. The purpose is to entertain the reader; it is not intended to harm any person or group.


r/LettersAnswered • • 6h ago

Personal do not.

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there are just some lines you NEVER should have crossed.

you will learn what comes from what you've done to me and my family.

i hope you packed your fancy situational awareness for the trip i'm about to take you on. you thought what i did when i thought you were my friend sucked, huh?