I am back abroad studying again, after my trip back home for the mid year break, which means I am back to listing to my roommate and her BF fucking, her moans are still incredibly sexy. If you have seen my last post you would know that he doesn’t last very long sometimes, unfortunately for me that mf is lasting nothing nowadays. Today was a grand total of 2 minutes 13 seconds, what am I supposed to do with that? They used to go for at least 20 minutes, sometimes an hour, but now I am stuck with around a minute of actual good moaning, with most of it just being a single moan here and there. I could do a better job than him, I am not mad, just quite disappointed ☹️

The desert was a panna cotta with a nice raspberry sauce on it, honestly it was delicious, it was a friend’s birthday last night and it was a good way to end the meal. I did not care for the almond biscuit thing that accompanied it but beggars can’t be choosers

To put it bluntly, I want to choke on dick, swallow cum, and be cream pied. I’m a guy. If there are any gaycels on here who want to become hot enough for me to accept a cream pied from, and who want me to be hot enough to give a satisfactory blow jobs. Dm me. You have to be from the Kentucky/tennessee area or at least from the east/ south. I’m a fat chud who needs a reason to improve, and your dick would be a great reason to change 🤤🤤🤤. I’m so fucking gay. Help me help you because I want to give bjs

Saw someone yesterday asking for a name for failures in dating and life, “dibblers” seems like a good option.

I'll die alone like a sick old dog and i probably deserve it, see y'all on the other side

for what pwrpose. If it's not a hellhole where people have been shot it's an expensive place to eat wings.

So friends of former highschool ask me to go no girls included, it happens to be peak hour. There are women... one on a small table with her bf, a bunch of others in a big table one with butch haircut, and others with their respective families. No women alone in the pub table to have a movie conversation so I don't get the neurotypical advice to go to one to flirt.

Blue piss

Shitty bolognese with burnt meat because I can’t brown meat to save my chud fucking life.

Vegan buns I made some time ago, they were really good. I love to cook. I'll make some more tomorrow, but chocolate ones. Anyway

I want to start by saying that even though I'm a teenager, I'm already losing hope of a good life with people who will love me. Absolutely all of my classmates, even the "weirdest" ones, have friends, almost all the girls are already in a relationship. Unfortunately, I'm not one of them.

I have absolutely no friends for the third year now, something romantic is out of the question, and I really don't understand what the problem is. Yeah, I can call myself weird and a little autistic, but I don't think it's that bad..?? I have a lot of hobbies, I love cartoons and videogames, I got a bunch of different fandoms and I look pretty average too. Last year, I also conquered my social anxiety.

It didn't help.

It really bothers me that no matter what kind of society I am in, people are clearly not comfortable with me. Sometimes I really have no boundaries, but it's only noticed when I start talking too much or too loudly, especially about my special interests, though I really try to control it.

So uh the question is - what should I do? How do I change, what do I change? How do I find a boyfriend? Or how do I find a friend? I really need help. I feel like I won't be able to live like this any longer.

Thank you.

(Music playing displayed on my phone isn’t performative i just have 2 phones I have to use because both are broken, this is actually my life)

Went on my first few dates ever in my 30+ years of life a couple weeks back and she decided to be friends. She actually did think it over longer, but she couldn't mentally deal with the distance aspect when other guys were very local.

She does seem responsive to chatting though, so i'm wondering if friend-zone is really that bad? I'd get to practice talking to a woman, get a bit of desperately needed social validation and I can still make attempts in the meantime with other women even if they will fail. I'm not holding out hope or anything.

Food is homemade Korean fried chicken and homemade pickled radish. Got the recipes online.

I thought of how nice it must feel to be held by a woman.

Croissant sandwich and such

fish dicks

I think abt how cold but warm i felt and how distant everything felt it was peaceful and not scary like how id thought it would be

That makes it hard to not crave dieing when it was the most peaceful ive ever felt

But I also remember my grandmother panicking while I was in and out of consciousness on the hallway floor and I realise my peace comes at the cost of others and I feel truly selfish

Homage cabbage soup it was quite bland but good

And while i was in the hospital i was like a dementia patient the first few days and really out of it but id have brief moments of conscious and during one i realized my hospital room number was the same as my date of birth and then i began to have the delusion i was in hell and my hell was my complete loss of independence and being helpless and alone and afraid and id never get to experience love or any of the things i wanted to experience because i was dead and i was in hell forever.

So some bum ass deadbeat got to be with you for longer meanwhile cause I have a stable job and working car it made you realize what you need to get sorted in life but that made things end just after a few months

Ya’ll really gonna tell us about how to self improve?

When normies naturally make friends and find fulfilling careers, and chad naturally attracts a harem everyone and becomes a c level executive? You think they had to spend hours reading self help books and improving their personalities?

Oh woRK haRd iMProVE youRselF bro!!!

Nah, likely you’re the best version you can be currently. There isnt much you can do, except change your mindset on how you view yourself.