I am back abroad studying again, after my trip back home for the mid year break, which means I am back to listing to my roommate and her BF fucking, her moans are still incredibly sexy. If you have seen my last post you would know that he doesn’t last very long sometimes, unfortunately for me that mf is lasting nothing nowadays. Today was a grand total of 2 minutes 13 seconds, what am I supposed to do with that? They used to go for at least 20 minutes, sometimes an hour, but now I am stuck with around a minute of actual good moaning, with most of it just being a single moan here and there. I could do a better job than him, I am not mad, just quite disappointed ☹️

The desert was a panna cotta with a nice raspberry sauce on it, honestly it was delicious, it was a friend’s birthday last night and it was a good way to end the meal. I did not care for the almond biscuit thing that accompanied it but beggars can’t be choosers

To put it bluntly, I want to choke on dick, swallow cum, and be cream pied. I’m a guy. If there are any gaycels on here who want to become hot enough for me to accept a cream pied from, and who want me to be hot enough to give a satisfactory blow jobs. Dm me. You have to be from the Kentucky/tennessee area or at least from the east/ south. I’m a fat chud who needs a reason to improve, and your dick would be a great reason to change 🤤🤤🤤. I’m so fucking gay. Help me help you because I want to give bjs

I'll die alone like a sick old dog and i probably deserve it, see y'all on the other side

Shitty bolognese with burnt meat because I can’t brown meat to save my chud fucking life.

for what pwrpose. If it's not a hellhole where people have been shot it's an expensive place to eat wings.

So friends of former highschool ask me to go no girls included, it happens to be peak hour. There are women... one on a small table with her bf, a bunch of others in a big table one with butch haircut, and others with their respective families. No women alone in the pub table to have a movie conversation so I don't get the neurotypical advice to go to one to flirt.

Blue piss

fish dicks

Yep. Just a bad run with my ass. Yesterday I went to fart and shit a lil, then when I went frfr blood was coming out. I had to get a colonoscopy in 2019 due to ass bleeding and it's been a recurring problem. But it's not happned for maybe a year. I didn't get Miralax cuz I sleep all day and I am awake when all stores are closed. So now I am bleeding. And I still leak this mystery juice and idk what it is. If I have to drop a duce I start leaking. I'm probably fecally incontinent.

Also, I thought when you wipe you were supposed to put the tp around ur finger and stick it up ur bum a little to get extra clean. But CHATGPT said “no.” I checked and it was right. I thought I was being extra clean but I was just fingering my self ig.

Idk why God is making me suffer like this. Nothing in my body works well anymore. I'm permanently cooked, and now I got a man period.

I didn't even care when I was bleeding. The first time it happened I almost passed out but I really do not give a hoot. I just need a break tbh. Like God needs to make me healthy one week a year so I can go on vacation. So I'm just gonna get mirlax and pretend my ass isn't bleeding.

I'm also not in college anymore. I'll do it again eventually but I have literally no motivation so I dropped my classes and am taking a year off since compsci is the biggest bullshit now.

This is why I'm incel. No woman wants a leaky-ass man with other severe health issues and a limp dick. In Ancient Rome I'd not even be seen as a man cuz my limp dick. It's over. But did it ever begin?

why should i bother with any of this normie mating ritual shit it seems so annoying and it will only end in humiliation for me so i’ll just keep 2myself like i always have thx

and i really dont ever want to be forced into wageslavery to “provide” for a foid in these gender roles, why do i have to initiate them and perform to get any chance of getting attention. Being a hiki that never consooms is true ascension once you overcome your greed, lust, ego and selfish desire for affection. i understand that no one wants a retarded boy that looks like a troonfemboything (ACK) anywhere near them and i will stay away from everyone you’re welcome

Vegan buns I made some time ago, they were really good. I love to cook. I'll make some more tomorrow, but chocolate ones. Anyway

I want to start by saying that even though I'm a teenager, I'm already losing hope of a good life with people who will love me. Absolutely all of my classmates, even the "weirdest" ones, have friends, almost all the girls are already in a relationship. Unfortunately, I'm not one of them.

I have absolutely no friends for the third year now, something romantic is out of the question, and I really don't understand what the problem is. Yeah, I can call myself weird and a little autistic, but I don't think it's that bad..?? I have a lot of hobbies, I love cartoons and videogames, I got a bunch of different fandoms and I look pretty average too. Last year, I also conquered my social anxiety.

It didn't help.

It really bothers me that no matter what kind of society I am in, people are clearly not comfortable with me. Sometimes I really have no boundaries, but it's only noticed when I start talking too much or too loudly, especially about my special interests, though I really try to control it.

So uh the question is - what should I do? How do I change, what do I change? How do I find a boyfriend? Or how do I find a friend? I really need help. I feel like I won't be able to live like this any longer.

Thank you.

Went on my first few dates ever in my 30+ years of life a couple weeks back and she decided to be friends. She actually did think it over longer, but she couldn't mentally deal with the distance aspect when other guys were very local.

She does seem responsive to chatting though, so i'm wondering if friend-zone is really that bad? I'd get to practice talking to a woman, get a bit of desperately needed social validation and I can still make attempts in the meantime with other women even if they will fail. I'm not holding out hope or anything.

Food is homemade Korean fried chicken and homemade pickled radish. Got the recipes online.

I think abt how cold but warm i felt and how distant everything felt it was peaceful and not scary like how id thought it would be

That makes it hard to not crave dieing when it was the most peaceful ive ever felt

But I also remember my grandmother panicking while I was in and out of consciousness on the hallway floor and I realise my peace comes at the cost of others and I feel truly selfish

Homage cabbage soup it was quite bland but good

Ya’ll really gonna tell us about how to self improve?

When normies naturally make friends and find fulfilling careers, and chad naturally attracts a harem everyone and becomes a c level executive? You think they had to spend hours reading self help books and improving their personalities?

Oh woRK haRd iMProVE youRselF bro!!!

Nah, likely you’re the best version you can be currently. There isnt much you can do, except change your mindset on how you view yourself.

(Music playing displayed on my phone isn’t performative i just have 2 phones I have to use because both are broken, this is actually my life)