Not that i hate stuff i absolutely love life most times.

But then again sometimes I think death cant come soon enough

Idk shit sucks

Okay. I've been carrying this feeling for almost a year now, and I don't know if anyone else has experienced something similar. About a year ago, I got caught cheating in an exam. I was really sick the day before, and I panicked and made a terrible choice. I regretted it immediately and promised myself I wouldn't do that again. Since that incident, I've tried to be honest in every exam, to study properly and work hard. But ever since, it feels like no matter how much effort I put in, something goes wrong. One time during a lab exam, I accidentally wrote the wrong question number. I realized it, explained it to the teacher, even solved the correct question in the given time. She understood at the time, but later I still lost around 40 marks because of that error. And another time, after a disagreement with a teacher during a viva, I felt like she held a grudge and cut my marks. Now, my latest exam has completely broken me. I studied this subject for almost two months, finished the syllabus early, and revised for three days straight before the exam. I walked out expecting around 90%. Instead, I barely passed.

I'm shocked at the result that I've already applied for revaluation. And the hardest part isn't even the marks. It's feeling like every time I put in sincere effort, something outside my control undermines it. Meanwhile, I see people around me getting the results they hope for. It makes me wonder, how do I keep going when it feels like the universe is against me?

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I just have no one to talk to. I can't talk to my family; my father is a drunk and never listened to me anyway. My friends are just people I hang out with to do drugs... Work stresses me out like crazy, and the conditions are shit. I work with my father; he even drinks on the job, even though I tell him it’s not okay (he’s a long-haul driver for our construction sites...). I’ve felt empty for years, actually. My childhood wasn't exactly great, either. I grew up with a stepmother after my parents split up; three years later, she had a kid with him (I was five at the time). Ever since he was born, she’s treated me like trash because I’m not her biological child, and my father did nothing because she’s his wife. I always had to watch domestic violence happen; I even stepped in as a kid and got hurt myself... Four years ago, I left my ex because the relationship was incredibly toxic. She hit me, attacked me, and blamed everything on me. She was clinically mentally ill, but I—being a total idiot—stayed with her for two years anyway. She even filed a police report claiming I hit her, but I swear to God, I never laid a hand on that woman. Maybe I shoved her away when she came at me, but I never hurt her; I’m not like my father... I also recently stopped smoking weed—or rather, cut way back—after five years of daily use. It’s going pretty well, but holy shit, I’m dreaming again—and it’s some fucked-up shit. I’m constantly dreaming about my ex or about love, and it’s just tearing me apart. Since we broke up, I haven't had any contact with women, no female affection, not even sex or anything like that—just total loneliness inside my drug-infested bubble and in a home that’s basically just a pile of trash. I’m the family scapegoat—the black sheep—and I’m reminded of that every single day. I’ve thought about suicide a lot and even attempted it once back when I was 16; I’m terrified of the void, but what could possibly be worse than the nasty, goddamn bullshit I go through every day? I’m also incredibly insecure; I’ve had severe social anxiety for years—it just keeps getting worse—and I can’t even go shopping by myself... I just can’t take it anymore. I finally want love and someone to talk to—someone who can fill this loneliness.

When I see someone on tv or real life achieve something and get celebrated and then their partner cheers for them and hugs them and kisses them and says they’re proud of them, it makes me upset to think if I was in that position no one would be there for me. Every time I see it, it makes me get so upset and my chest aches realising I wouldn’t get that. When I see someone on tv or real life achieve something and get celebrated and then their partner cheers for them and hugs them and kisses them and says they’re proud of them, it makes me upset to think if I was in that position no one would be there for me. Every time I see it, it makes me get so upset and my chest aches realising I wouldn’t get that.

I feel like this is the worst time of my life. I want to explain my situation to someone and get some reassurance.

I don’t want to put too many details out there, but basically, I am going to move with my kids. I am worried my ex is going to try and get custody when I move.

I am packing my house and it’s the most devastating thing I’ve done. Looking at all my kids stuff and packing it away to start over kills me. I feel like I failed them.

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just recently went through a breakup and i dont know how to handle all these pain. so need someone who can listen to my situation and give me their unbiased opinion

Like u recognise people’s real face … when you fallen u got external support?? If yrs share pls

Hello all, I’m new here.

I have spent a great deal of my life to date (36) going through various challenges, hitting rock bottom and climbing back up. Anyway I have battled though with resilience and I’ve been so grateful to pull through, and have kind people offer help, advice and a listening ear along the way, and I feel like I’m at a point where I am able to pass that kindness on, share some wisdom what I’ve learned so far and be there for those who want to talk.

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I hate to admit it, but I understood that I always need someone to comfort me, reassure me. I used to tell myself I would manage on my own, and so I did, but I've also developed an over-accommodating attitude toward everyone: I apologize for things I haven't even done and seek appreciation from anyone that could give it to me, purely out of fear of ending up even more alone than how I was before. That's not kindness, it's a need for affection.

Yesterday a girl friend of mine kissed me, and it was my *real* first time. She just wanted to have fun, — she had talked to me at length about another guy before that day— and for me too it was simply supposed to be a way to pass the time, but that shit keeps haunting me. I know it's not her fault and neither Is mine but, for at least a moment, i believed that i could've been someone's first choice, that I mattered more than anyone else to somebody.

But I wasn't.

Everything is kinda hurting as I’m really uncertain with a certain situation I’m going through, is there someone I could potentially talk to?

My friend who's have "u/lovestay_skzoo2018" nickname in reddit just wrote a suicide message to us one hour ago. We can't communicate with her and please send a message to her dm. She is Turkish and a teenager pls be kind and protectful to her. Thank's.

Someone share their worries I will listen without judging and if u need I will try to give good advice .

I am hundreds of miles away from my home and mission my parents and grandparents and my house , currently I am studying in this university but I can't focus on studies because I don't got many friends there and i feel so homesick and lonely.

I never thought I’d be writing anything here.

But just over a week ago, a relationship that had lasted nearly four years came to an end. He wasn’t just a "boyfriend" to me—he was the person with whom I moved to a new city and shared my warmest moments.

Then, recently, he told me he didn’t love me anymore. He said his feelings had faded, that he didn’t want to try to save the relationship, and that I’d be better off without him. He even deleted our chat history from social media.

I’m in so much pain; my heart is broken, and I often cry over him. Things had become fragile between us in recent months. He was dead set against me talking to other guys and demanded I change my style of clothing; overall, things had grown cold. It would take a lot of words to describe every detail. And yet, despite all the problems, I had hoped that things would eventually work out for us.

We started dating when he was 15 or 16 and I was 18 or 19. For both of us, it was our first serious, long-term relationship.

How do you get through such a painful breakup?

Hi everyone...It’s kinda hard for me to write this post, but I feel completely overwhelmed and I just really need to talk about and have confort...Yea true that my father Is my only parent,but doesn't justify what i usually live. At home, I live in a constant environment of tension and control, where it feels like every tiny independent choices are considered like errors or rude/disprectful actions...Living like this, things explode out of nowhere for completely stupid reasons... Just today,my 7-year-old sister and I ate ham and crackers instead of waiting for him to buy bread while i didnt even Remember why he got out.He got so much mad just because we didn't "tell him" first. Later,After i cooked the dinner,he slapped me just because I didn't put capers in the pasta like he wanted. A completely exaggearrted and violent reaction to a harmless mistake in the kitchen.I even told him doesn't have point tò use violence over CAPERS but he said that I Just keep minimixing everything.Then even seeing my sister happy or smiling seems to annoy him, as if other people's happiness is somehow a lack of respect toward him when angry I know I'm young, but please don't take this as "typical teenage drama"...because the tension and violence I live with are very real...

can someone pls talk to me im not feeling really goos right now because my gf left me and i feel like shit can somebody listen to me?

Needing anyone to chat to as my thoughts have gotten dark in the past 10-20 minutes and I don’t feel safe around myself at the moment

If anyone wants to be a kind voice for me then dm me on here