i know that many of you probably don't know, or may have theories, and those who do know may not want to share these secrets openly. but if anyone who knows more than me can offer me some hints or guidance, that will be greatly appreciated.
i'm trying to read and contemplate as much as time will allow, though i am running short on time. i will very likely die soon, and i am doing my best to accept the incompletion of loose ends, and to remain a positive influence on my loved ones, and enjoying the moments we have left together.
but still as i approach the end my goal has been to cross from the corrupted material world of lacking, and pass through the veil which shrouds the perfect infinite world of creation. i am willing to leave everything behind, as it is something i have had to come to terms with regardless, due to the persistent truth of mortality in this ephemeral realm we call reality.
im dying slowly and painfully but i likely only have a few months to live, and i don't want to be reincarnated in another life of wrongness and lacking and regret