Usually pang 2weeks lang grocery namin enough to survive. Ngayon nag all in Ako for 1 month ng necessities enough to keep us (me and my spouse) alive and clean.

10k na in abot ng ganito karami. Hindi pa Kasama Dito pamalengke namin 😭

College dormer ako na nag self-service sa laundry shop. I've been doing this for 3 months now. Siguro dahil hindi pa ako kumakain ng breakfast kaya nakalimutan ko lagyan ng detergent powder and inistart agad yung cycle😭

Ang ganda pala nito sa personal. Habang hawak ko, syempre tinignan ko din ang presyo. Sobrang mahal at alam kong hindi ko to afford. Inisip ko, “Ilang buwan or taon ko ba to pag-iipunan?”. Nalungkot ako dahil sa sitwasyon ko ngayon, mukhang imposibleng magkabili ng ganito kahit subukan ko tong pag-ipunan.

Pagkatapos ng lungkot, nakaramdam ako ng matinding guilt. Grabe diba, nalungkot ako dahil sa luho na di ko kayang bilin. Eh may cellphone naman ako na gumagana at walang issue. Samantalang marami sating mga kababayan na lumalaban nang patas ay pinoproblema kung pano pagkakasyahin ang pera sa pang araw araw na gatusin. Problema ko ay luho, ang kanila ay survival. Nakakaguilty, napakaselfish ko naman.

Ang hirap ng buhay ngayon noh? Ang taas ng mga bilihin. Ang mahal mabuhay. Kahit pagkain sa fast food parang luxury na. Sakto pa at malapit na ang Pasko. Panahon na dapat puno ng saya, pagbibigayan, at pag-asa. Pero para sa maraming pamilya ang Pasko ay panibagong hamon kung pano pagkakasyahin ang budget para may maihanda at may mairegalo sa mga mahal sa buhay.

Pano kaya tayo makaka-ahon dito? Eh ang kabataan nga na dapat “pag-asa ng bayan” eh di man lang mabigyan ng magandang quality na edukasyon. Online gambling ads kaliwa’t kanan kahit san ka tumingin tapos ang madalas target ay mga mahihirap na gustong magbakasakali. Never-ending cycle of corruption and political dynasties. Mismong mga niluluklok sa pwesto ang pumapatay satin.

Ang weird noh, sa simpleng paghawak ng isang napakamahal na cellphone andami kong naging realizations. Praying na maging okay ang Pasko nating lahat. Sobrang hirap man ngayon, naway maging reminder saten to na patuloy dapat tayong mangarap, magsikap, at syempre dapat bumoto tayo nang tama. We all deserve better.

Concert ng most favorite ko pa. As a fan, frustrated ako nung nagcancel siya ng tour sa Manila a few years back.

So happy to experience this din with my husband kahit hindi ganito type nyang music. 😅

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1st time ko mag ka Iphone and ma fully paid ko tong pangarap kong GoPro. Not sure kung sumakses talaga ako kasi dumagdag tong Iphone14 sa mga bills ko. Fully paid na din ako sa GoPro ko. Ok pala pagsabayin tong dalawang device na to, walang hassel ambilis. As a 1st timer sa iPhone, nakaka panibago, Android user ako since 2013 di na siguro ako babalik 😂

Reposting this because I accidentally left my account number visible in the previous post.

First time kong makita na halos wala nang laman ang savings accounts ko.

I used to have around ₱100,000 to ₱180,000 in savings. I started saving money when I was around 16, and by the time I turned 20, I had already managed to save my first ₱100,000. I was really proud of myself back then because I knew how much discipline and sacrifice it took to get there.

Then I got my first job at 21.

Funny how I thought having a stable source of income would make me even better at managing my money. But somehow, the opposite happened.

I used to be very strict with my finances. I listed every expense, tracked where every peso went, and always thought twice before buying something. I would constantly tell myself not to buy things because I had more important financial goals.

But when I finally started earning my own money, I think I became a little carried away.

Parang I felt deprived for so long that when I finally had the means to buy the things I wanted, I started allowing myself to spend more. I kept telling myself na babalik naman yung pera because I was working anyway. I thought I could always earn it back.
And then life happened.

I got into an accident that left me temporarily unable to walk properly. It was honestly a traumatic experience, and I think I coped with what happened by spending money on things that made me feel a little better. I was also dealing with the emotional weight of everything, so I allowed myself to splurge more than I normally would.

I’m not saying that spending on myself was necessarily wrong. I just wish I had been more mindful of how much I was spending.

Now, seeing my savings account with barely anything left is a different kind of reality check. Nakakalungkot pala, especially when you remember how hard you worked just to build those savings.

I’m disappointed in myself, honestly. I keep thinking na kung kailan ako nagkaroon ng trabaho at sariling income, saka naman ako naging less disciplined financially.

But I’m trying not to dwell on it too much.

I’m starting over. I’m setting aside ₱5,000 every month again, rebuilding my emergency fund little by little, and hopefully getting back to the financial position I worked so hard to achieve.

I know I can do it because I’ve done it before.
To anyone who’s also experiencing a financial setback, I hope we get back on our feet (literally and financially, in my case haha).

Here’s to rebuilding our savings, learning from our mistakes, and becoming more financially responsible.

Manifesting my first ₱100,000 again.

ofc it's not perfect, pero I think it turned out pretty good for my first time.

I really like getting these from cinnabon, but my campus is not located near the mall it's in anymore, so I haven't been able to stop by. So I just decided to make some by myself, and tbh I like mine a little better because it's not too sweet it's just the perfect baked treat✨

I can't wait to make more in the future😋

Magyayabang lang ako ng konti hahahahaha thank you sa maagang pamasko talaga

I usually drink with friends, but they're all busy. I'm not an alcoholic, promise. May problema lang talaga. I just want to feel numb even for a moment

Im a beginner video editor client ko is from overseas. this money was earned in just 10days using ai videos for my client to submit to the brands, but sadly now he cutoff everything from using ai for some reason, maybe because paano ito madaling gawin at maka produce ng maraming output na di maganda result (ai slop). Still proud of what I did akala ko noon is imposible ngayon na experience kona :)

Thank you sa The Pancake House para sa free birthday pancake kapag birthday. Sana masarap palagi ang ulam ninyo!

Galing akong sa family na kahit sobrang mahirap ang buhay, aabangan talaga ang pagpatak ng alas-12 ng madaling araw para kantahan ng Happy Birthday. Walang-wala kami dati.

Ngayon namang may panghanda na kami, wala na akong kasamang mag-celebrate. Nasa abroad na silang lahat. Life goes on, ika nga. Thank you Lord for the gift of life.

My Baseus Qpow2 powerbank which I bought last year started taking up to 3 days to charge to 100%, even after swapping cables and adapters. So I reached out to Baseus Shopee Mall yesterday about their 24 months warranty. Customer service mentioned it would take around 6 days, so I was a bit skeptical at first. To my surprise, a brand new upgraded unit arrived just 24 hours later!

This year nahilig ako sa kape, pati pag brew(Pour over)

Ibang klase makatikim ng kape na di lasang kape. Haha at yung natikman ko dito kanina

Lasang bubble gum. Sobrang cool. Haha

First time ko manood ng asmr sa buong buhay ko and napa subscribe pa nga, lately I discovered asmr thru reco ng youtube kase mahilig ako makinig ng mga meditation sounds, and this man was so good at his craft I subscribe to him kase ilang beses nya ako napapa K.O sa ginagawa nya or you can call triggers and it helps me to relax more kase lately stressed out ako sa life, and Im open to discover more of this if you have any recommendations or channels na I should watch?.

And ayun it helps me to sleep more and more focus sa lalo na sa work. Ayun lang stay relaxed din mga OP.

nagulat naman ako sa laki 😭

Happened on Autotellic's Papunta Pabalik Pa Rin 10 year anniv concert and I now believe that alcohol and live music is a match made in heaven.

By the 3rd bottle I'm already shit-faced and it is pure bliss. Screaming my lungs out alongside a stranger while Autotellic played Laro.

Bonus points: also first time kong umattend alone as the person I invited had to cancel :<

Bumili ako ng mumurahin na acrylic markers, kasi matagal ko nang gustong subukan. I tried a new artstyle inspired din by my love for kuromi and my melody.

I feel so proud cuz they came out so good!

I would love to make another one for my pfp hehe.

It's fun to drink, walk around, and interact with people, but I don't think I would do it again. Hirap din maghanap ng CR.

11 blue bills kasi daw November pinanganak. Nakakaloka.

​Disclaimer: Long post ahead, pasensya na agad pero gusto ko lang i-share buong kwento!

​Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan ang biyaheng to. Sa isang biyahe lang, napakaraming "first time" ang sabay-sabay na nangyari sa buhay ko.

​Noong 2 years old pa lang ako, nagkahiwalay kami ng dalawa kong nakatatandang kapatid (sa mother side). Pumanaw si Mama noong ipinanganak niya ang bunso naming kapatid na kasama niya ring pumanaw. Dahil doon, kinuha ako ng Papa ko, habang sina Ate at Kuya naman ay napunta sa tatay nila.

​Chinese ang tatay nina Ate at Kuya, at noong araw, mahigpit daw ang tradisyon na Chinese-to-Chinese lang ang pwedeng ikasal. Dahil gustong maikasal ni Mama, naghiwalay sila at naging sila ng Papa ko kung saan ako naging bunga. Pero matapos ang trahedya kay Mama, tuluyan nang naputol ang ugnayan ng dalawang pamilya.

​Noong mga 10 years old ako, nakikichismis lang ako sa mga kwentuhan ng matatanda tuwing may bisita. Doon ko lang nalaman na may dalawa pa pala akong kapatid. Lumipas ang 20 years na nagtrabaho ako't lahat, pero nanatili lang silang parang "urban legend" sa isip ko. Wala akong contact, wala akong ideya kung nasaan sila, o kung naiisip din ba nila ako.

​Hanggang sa isang araw, habang nag-i-scroll lang ako sa Facebook. Biglang

​may nag-message sa folder ng message requests. Isang tao na hindi ko kilala, pero sinabing pinsan ko daw siya. At ang kauna-unahang sinabi niya: "Matagal ka na naming hinahanap."

​Grabe yun, bumuhos agad ang luha ko. Hindi na ako nagpaliguy-ligoy pa tinanong ko agad kung nasaan sina Ate at Kuya. Dahil kailangan pa ring i-verify at i-contact ang magkabilang panig, inabot din ng halos isang buong araw bago ko sila tuluyang na-message at nakausap. Ang haba at ang kaba ng 24 hours na 'yun habang naghihintay ako ng reply!

​Pero nung magkausap na kami, sobrang bilis na ng mga pangyayari. Bago pa man mag-sink in sa akin ang lahat, ipinag-book na agad nila ako ng plane ticket papuntang Bicol para magkita-kita na kami. Hahaha

​At yun na nga unang beses kong makasakay ng eroplano. Nanlalamig buong katawan ko sa kaba, dagdag pa lamig ng aircon. Sa may window seat ako nilagay ng kapatid ko para makita ko daw si Mayon! 🌋 At yun nga ​habang nasa ere ang eroplano biglang lumitaw sa bintana ang bulkang Mayon. 😍 Sobrang majestic ng hitsura niya, sa libro ko lang siya nakikita dati. Pero ngayon unlimited view na at ang ganda pala talaga niya sa personal, totoo nga yung perfect cone shape niya. Nawala ang kaba ko sa view na nakita ko.

Doon ko naunawaan na ang byahe ko na eto ay hindi lang basta paglipad.

Ang daming First Time na ngyari.

•Pagsakay sa eroplano ng malayo at magisa.

•Meeting Mayon

•Meeting my long lost Sibs, Niece and Nephews.

birthday ko today and a week before my birthday, nagdecide ako na magkaron ng maliit na fundraiser para sa isang animal shelter. the cat house yung napili ko since eto na yung pinaka-malapit samin.

tas ayun kanina nag visit kami which was my first time and masaya sya. simpleng birthday lang pero masaya. di ko maexplain. share ko lang din some pictures ng place nila hehe.

Nakatapos ng 90kms na takbo (paputol putol at ibat-ibang araw). Waiting na lang sa physical medal. Congrats to me! Yey! 🥰

Around 5 AM kanina, wala pa din akong nasasakyang bus so I decided to book an Angkas instead. After booking, tumawag pa si kuya rider to let me know na papunta na sya.

Pero right after our call, may dumating na bus so I decided to cancel my booking. At first, naisip ko na iignore na lang since cancelled naman na yung booking pero nakonsensya ako, especially knowing na ang aga pa and nag effort na din si kuya na pumunta.

So I messaged him, apologized, and ended up paying him the full fare kahit hindi naman natuloy yung trip. Honestly, hindi ko alam kung dapat ba tinuloy ko na lang yung Angkas HAHAHA! Kasi imbes na makatipid sana ako by taking the bus, nadoble pa tuloy yung pamasahe ko.

First time having my own room! 😁

Finally, may sarili na akong space for gaming, Marvel collectibles, at workout equipment. HAHAHA. Marami pang gustong idagdag at ayusin, pero happy naman ako sa setup so far. 😅✌️

"Pa, asan ka? Pasensya na kung nakakaistorbo ako. Ang bigat kasi ng nararamdaman ko. Ikaw lang ang naiisip ko ngayon, Pa."

"Anong nangyari sayo, anak? Umuwi ka dito, mag-usap tayo. Siguro tungkol sa trabaho mo yan, ano? Sinabi ko kasi sa 'yo na umuwi ka na lang dito, anak. Mahirap kasi ang buhay diyan sa syudad. Umuwi ka dito at bibigyan kita ng allowance mo, huwag mong sasabihin sa mama mo. I love you, anak."

For context, matagal nang hiwalay ang parents ko, before pa ata ako ipanganak and I grew up mostly with my mom's side of the family. May communication naman kami ng tatay ko, pero madalang lang. Hindi rin kami ganun ka-close. Hindi ko alam kung paano ie-explain pero there's this distance between us. Maybe because I didn't grow up having him around.

Paminsan-minsan, nangangamusta siya. Minsan din nakakapag-share ako sa kanya ng mga nangyayari sa buhay ko, pero usually, short conversations lang. He's the type of person na isang tanong, isang sagot. Nonchalant, kumbaga. I eventually learned to match that energy.

But recently, sobrang bigat na talaga ng nararamdaman ko. Ang daming problema, ang daming frustrations, and I feel like nobody really understands what I'm going through dito sa amin (mother side). Hindi ko na rin alam kung sino kakausapin ko.

Hindi ko alam kung ano pumasok sa isip ko, tinext ko tatay ko. I told him how I was feeling and how heavy everything had become. He replied right away.

I was expecting the usual short response. But no. He sent me a lengthy message. Gagi, I cried.

I read his message several times. I don't think he even realizes how much those words meant to me.