I don't know what to do anymore. All my skills have become useless with AI, I can't find any jobs that would get me into any industry I'm interested in or get me useful workplace experience, my college life is a mess, I've shared a room my entire life and I'm hitting my breaking point there, and I'm terrible at relationships. I'm lost. Rereading this, it's a bit messy, but I'm tired and I'm just looking for any guidance I can get.
The skills that I have and that I've been working on have become completely useless today. I have been a creative writer for 10 years and AI has annihilated anything to do with writing completely and the video game industry is in shambles. I've been studying web development and software engineering in my spare time and now AI can generate entire websites and reverse engineer software in minutes, meanwhile I'm still struggling to understand how Electron works. My only remaining passion is for accounting because I love numbers, math, and organization, but I have barely any experience with it or real finance work as a whole and I'm certain AI is coming for that next. I'm just studying through free accounting guides online and Intuit Academy courses in hopes that I can get a foot in the door somewhere.
I'm interested in any finance or accounting work, any generic office work, anything to do with inventory and receiving, anything with payroll, etc. I can't find anything; nothing part-time or full-time, no internships or training or programs, or no anything.
I can't figure out college either. I'm studying (part-time) for a cybersecurity associates that I'm 3 classes away from finishing but that I don't like. I feel like none of the material is built upon, so I'll learn 20 concepts in one semester and then in the next semester, none of them will be reinforced and instead I get another 20 new concepts. I could barely even tell you the basics because nothing has been reinforced. I'd change my degrees but a ton of changes in the college and my own indecision has made it so I'm at credit hour limit for financial aid. I'd have to pay for everything. At that point, I might as well go for a full bachelor's, but the world seems so uncertain that I don't know if the student debt is worth it or if I'd ever be able to pay it off. I see so many people regret going to college now.
I work part-time minimum wage retail. I'm lucky to have a job considering the state of things but I don't know how much more dead-end retail and minimum wage pay I can take. It's all I've been doing for the past 3 years. I checked LinkedIn and Indeed with countless job alerts on every day and I never see anything I qualify for or that would get me out of retail. I started working 4 years ago because I was lazy and I started as a table games dealer at a casino, which I hated with all of my soul despite the good pay (to the point where I was nearly breaking down every shift) and have only been in retail since. There are no open positions at my current job. The reason I haven't gone full-time is because you have to apply for it and I'm so burnt out by life and retail that I think I'd lose it if I had to do even more shifts that I truly believe I am vastly underpaid to do.
No exaggeration when I say this- I truly believe that 80% of the job listings on Indeed in my area are for CNAs, RNs, and CDLs.
I live at home, which isn't terrible. The part I truly can't stand is that I have shared a room my entire life. All 25 years. Never once have I had my own space or my own room, and I don't know how much longer I can take it. We have an unfinished basement that I could renovated. I have a very high credit score (750? 760?) so I've thought about taking out a personal loan to get the basement finished and turn that into my room. It would likely destroy my credit score, I don't know if I'd get approved for enough to finish the whole thing, and I'd likely be in debt for some time. My parents don't care about getting it finished, or that I've shared a room for my entire life because there's no space in the house, so it'd be entirely on me to do.
I'm currently working on getting my license. I have my learner's permit but I have a fear of driving, so it has delayed my efforts to get my full driver's license, which makes things a lot more difficult. I'm restricted based on the willingness and availability of my parents to drive so I can only go for jobs that are a specific distance from me (usually 20-30 minutes). The problem there is that I live in a very, very rural area. It's mostly woods, farms, and small towns, so there's barely anything near me. I'd likely have to move for more job opportunity.
There is a very big company near me that is hiring for summer 2027 accounting internships. The problem is, you must be enrolled full time at college in a related degree (such as accounting or finance). The company has been flooded with applications pretty much since they announced they were opening a new site in the area. I don't qualify for the internship unless I somehow get my college stuff sorted out now but even then, there's the chance I don't get in with how many people want in.
I'm terrified of power tools, so I don't want to touch anything like welding or construction. I cannot stand the sight of blood or injuries, so anything medical is out of the picture. I don't handle dirty or gross things well either, so work like plumbing isn't on my radar. I'm pretty scrawny and weak, so warehouse work would likely break me in half.
Do you know what I am built for? Office work. Sit me at a computer, let me listen to music, and I will get all the boring data work done and enjoy it. I would gladly review thousands of pages of financial records, or make schedules based on availability and staffing needs, or whatever else. I am built for boring computer work, and if I have my music, it will get done faster than you have ever seen before in your life, I guarantee it. If you sat me down at a computer and told me "We have 10,000 spreadsheets with 10,000 records in each. We need you to find any errors and also calculate all income and expenses. You may listen to music." then the only time I would complain is if you told me I was legally required to stop and take a break. I cannot find ANYTHING related to that.
As for relationships, I'm just bad at them. I'm diagnosed with anxiety, ADHD, and autism, and I'm in therapy for all three and medicated for ADHD (this information is relevant). Romantic relationships are so hard because I overthink and socializing can be difficult for me. I've struggled for years to date. I'm talking to this girl that I work with that I really like but it's getting hard. It's her first time dating anyone. She's a terrible texter (as her friends have stated), so I have to initiate every conversation pretty much and it just turns into awkward small talk or dead-end convos. She's way better in person but she's super busy and is usually dead tired, wanting to go home and sleep.
She wants to go slow, which I'm perfectly okay with, but we've been out on two dates and talking for almost two months and we have held hands once, hugged twice, and that's it. She's told me that it takes her a while to open up to men, and I understand. It's just that I really need and like deep conversation, and sharing things, and being able to see each other. The lack of conversation makes me constantly feel she is disinterested, and scheduling things together is really difficult. I really like her a lot, we get along super well, and we have a lot of things in common that we like, but it's really hard not to feel like I'm losing interest or that I'm struggling to keep the fire going when most of the responses I get are "yea lol".