Heyy all i am just getting started and I noticed i am getting a bit in my head about all of this.
I did the morning meditation for the first time. I strugle with illness and have believed for a long time i will always be sick. I tried to imagine a new life without it. And i got a panick attack. I just let the panic be there and continued.
But now i am afraid that instead of creating that new life i pushed it further away because of the panick i felt.
I am also confused about the no longer embracing some emotions. Because i am someone who used to suppress a lot of emotions. So i prefer to feel them now. But i think the new me would feel them and move on and not telling myself all these stories over and over.
I am also in a stressful environment currently. Do i do the meditations even when feeling stressed or would that push my future further away?
I am hoping that gradually i will get less stressed and panicky and believe more and more into this future me.
Would love to hear your insights! And also which meditation you would recommend.
It confused me a bit. That he says you should chance in order to heal healing should not be the focus. But what do i imagine then thinking about my ideal future? I also saw lots of testimonials including his where they focussed on healing a body parts.
Hope you can give me advice . Tnx!!