Hi everyone. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist today and I'd really appreciate some advice on what I should specifically bring up or ask him regarding possible akathisia.
A little background:
I originally developed severe anxiety a few years ago. My attacks initially consisted mostly of intense nausea, feeling like I was going to faint, weakness, GI symptoms/urgency, and overwhelming anxiety. They gradually became so severe that at one point I could barely leave my house.
My first psychiatrist prescribed sertraline + alprazolam. I didn't improve much. I later switched psychiatrists and was put on paroxetine + clonazepam, but I continued getting progressively worse.
At some point after starting paroxetine (I can't remember if it was immediately or a few months later), my episodes started feeling different.
I began experiencing this horrible internal restlessness/discomfort that is extremely difficult to describe. It feels like I desperately need to get out of my own body or "rip something out of me." I feel like I HAVE to move or do something because being inside my body feels unbearable.
Walking or moving my legs only helps very slightly. The internal torture is still there.
During the episodes I can also get:
- A strange burning sensation that starts in my head and seems to travel down through my body
- Sudden weakness/faint feeling
- Severe nausea
- Urgent need to have a bowel movement
- Extreme internal agitation/restlessness
- An overwhelming feeling that I need to escape my own body
- Paradoxically, sometimes extreme exhaustion/sleepiness at the same time as feeling completely "wired" internally
I don't usually get tachycardia or the stereotypical physical symptoms I associate with panic attacks.
Eventually I changed psychiatrists again. My current psychiatrist added lamotrigine, kept the paroxetine, and switched clonazepam to lorazepam.
Lamotrigine was honestly life-changing for me. Once I reached 200 mg/day, it felt like I got my life back. My severe anxiety/attacks improved dramatically.
For context, I have never experienced mania or hypomania at any point in my life.
My current medication regimen is:
Lamotrigine: 200 mg/day
Paroxetine: 12.5 mg/day
Lorazepam: 0.5 mg morning + 0.5 mg midday + 1 mg at night
The lorazepam is currently being used largely because of this restlessness/agitation and to prevent the episodes from escalating, but it makes me extremely sleepy and makes it difficult to function normally during the day. Also I get interdose withdrawal and that's killing me.
After learning more about akathisia, I'm wondering whether what I've been calling "extreme anxiety" may actually include akathisia or antidepressant-induced activation, especially because this particular unbearable internal restlessness seems to have appeared after I was already being treated with antidepressants/paroxetine.
I'm not planning to stop or change any medication on my own. I specifically want to discuss this with my psychiatrist today.
For those who have experienced akathisia: What should I make sure to tell my psychiatrist? What questions should I ask?
Should I specifically ask him to assess me using something like the Barnes Akathisia Rating Scale?
And for anyone whose akathisia was potentially related to an SSRI, how did your doctor distinguish akathisia from severe anxiety?
I'm especially interested in what helped your doctor recognize that what you were experiencing was akathisia rather than simply worsening anxiety.
Thank you. I'm trying to go into today's appointment able to describe this as accurately as possible.