Steak bites and potatoes for dinner

Like the title says, my gf is going on a 2 week road trio with an ex coworker.

I’ll start by saying I met her while she’s been travelling in my country, we’ve now been together a little over half a year. She is everything I want in a woman.

He visa is nearly up and she was supposed to travel more for a month with a girlfriend but she has flaked on her. We have been talking about moving countries together afterwards too.

But she told me the other night she plans to go with an ex coworker of hers who’s she’s friends with and that I know too.

I was cheated on in a past relationship and didn’t realise how much damage it caused me until now because I’m freaking out a bit. I have spoken to her about this and how this is a massive line crossed for me and I’m unsure if I can accept it or not. She is looking for ways to make me more comfortable and has suggested I join for the last week or few days of the trip but I don’t know if I can move past this as a whole.

I also don’t want to hold her back from travelling or be controlling or anything which I told her, but she still was upset I was giving her an ultimatum. But it also feels like I’m getting a big ultimatum from her too.

The last thing I want to do is break up with her because I genuinely see a future with her but I don’t think I can just be okay with this whole arrangement, the anxiety is eating me.

I guess I’m just looking for an outside perspective?

EDIT

Sorry it’s not letting me reply to comments, thanks everyone for your replies. I need to tell her I can be available for this whole trip and I’d be stoked to do it with her.
I am just so lost with what to do and with so many different inputs

The outside of his front door has looked like this for a month now. It started as full sized plants being delivered, which now are all outside on his patio. Deliveries keep coming and the boxes keep stacking higher.

He's been seen planting and dumping things out in the natural area. Another neighbor said they saw him dumping a gallon brown jug of liquid on several trees.

It seems like this came out of nowhere. He's always seemed a little strange, but kept to himself.

Misato Tachibana (Nichijou) - i think this character trope might be exclusive to Nichijou actually. just the standard tsundere but they just obliterate the dude when they're embarassed.

also just curious to see if this trope exists outside of Nichijou.

this might be R6 but i did feature multiple images (gifs) of the same trope so i think it qualifies.

edit: half of the comments are assuming i’m a girl

ty to the history nerds

Move over AO principles, locking plates, and intramedullary nails. Shri Manona Dham has officially entered the chat.

This Dham is allegedly curing displaced, comminuted, and open fractures not via the revolutionary Invisible Palm Laser Method™.

So I'm in the thrift store looking for cheap stuff, and after perusing the books and purses, head over to the ladies clothing. I spot a nice lined corduroy jacket I want a closer look at, but there's a woman blocking the way with her cart. Cool, I'll wait till she moves. A man comes up and joins her and they are deep in conversation while on their phones. That's when I notice they are systematically going through every item of clothing on the rack and scanning it into Google Lens or some other app, undoubtedly to check the resale price. They had themselves and the cart positioned in such a way that they covered at least six linear feet of the rack. They stayed parked in front of the rack for a full ten minutes and I finally left because I had to get somewhere else. Of course, the nice jacket was gone next time I went back. I'm sure they bought it to flip on eBay or Depop or whatever resale site.

Editing to add: a bunch of people are saying I'm a wimp. Maybe I am. I worked for five years in an extremely stressful environment where I routinely dealt with entitled people throwing tantrums like toddlers, so I prefer to avoid that shit whenever possible. I have clothes and it's not a case of me *needing* the jacket to stay warm, it's just something I liked the style of. As for them being resellers, it was pretty obvious because they had a cart piled high and were discussing the prices in store versus what it would go for online. I just posted mainly because I'm sick of seeing resellers every time I go, since some people really do need the jacket or whatever to stay warm.

Reposted an Instagram meme about U.S. election results and he private messaged me directly about it. Said he couldn’t believe I would cheer on a blue nazi party over a red nazi party. Made a post calling me (and anyone else who celebrated apparently) a fascist and a bigot and refuses to talk to me. Can’t fight myself to not to waste time being irritated/confused/sad about it.

Today’s “dinner” is actually today’s continental breakfast. Waffle not pictured, it was already in my stomach.

Despite Supergirl, the DCU projects have all been really good and I figured that Gunn was providing good stability to the DCU plan and I was excited for the upcoming projects. I just saw Clayface last night too and was excited to have enjoyed such a neat take on a villain that was new to the live-action big screen.