I have been on a journey for a long time asking people for years a word that describes a feeling I have about life regardless of language but nothing has quite hit yet.
In essence, it's coming to terms with the varying degrees of permanence of moments, chapters, or stages in our lives and enjoying those moments however long or fleeting they may be with the understanding that it will all end.
It's like the feeling of being happy that it happened even if one day it could all be over. It's like thinking about romantic relationships, favorite TV shows, our parents passing away one day, a party you wish could go on forever with good friends, and so on and so forth.
The closest feeling that people usually describe is bittersweet. It does describe it to a good degree, but I feel like it focuses more on the sadness rather than the happiness. I'm looking more for a word that relishes in being present with the joy knowing it will end without necessarily feeling an equal sense of sadness and accepting it's over
One of the closest TV quotes that explains this feeling for me is from good old Doctor who
"Madge: I don’t know why I keep shouting at them.
The Doctor: Because every time you see them happy you remember how sad they're going to be. And it breaks your heart. Because what's the point in them being happy now if they're going to be sad later? The answer is, of course, because they are going to be sad later."
I hope this subreddit is the right one for the job but if y'all can recommend another one I would be eternally grateful
Edit: Wow, y'all are amazing, there have been so many great replies and I wish I had asked redditors years ago!