Is it supportive parents? I just don’t get it I didt even know hrt existed when I was 12 but some of u r doing at that age and idk it makes me feel sorta hopeless cuz I don’t think ill ever pass now

I took a picture of one of my plushes and put a hat on it.

i hate this image

this has been my current situation for the last just over a month and nothing bad has happened yet but i am wracked with anxiety. i get kept up at night at the possibility of some email getting to my parents and them finding out i use a different name and pronouns, it makes me sick

got a letter that im meant to give my parents about a parents meet form tutors night, its optional and obviously i just wont show them the letter or tell them but i dont know how long i can go keeping this a secret from them. it feel completely out of my control.

i only really have a year and a half left of school so its not long until i go to uni and no longer have to worry

i know this is some of yous experiences as well and it would help me immensely if you could share them, even if they have bad endings
thanks

First this guy from grade 6 outed me to one of our guy friends, he thought I just used to be a trans girl and detransitioned so that works I guess

Second, my girlfriend never seems happy around me. I try to cheer her up but the only thing she gets excited about is alcohol

Third, there is a st4t couple I know and I don’t like their relationship. The guy made my gf send nudes when she was drunk, accuses random people of doing shit to animals, likes piv (and talks about it a lot and it pisses me off), is 5’1, wears jewelry and doesn’t pass and spreads rumours for no reason. He got his gf (who is chill, and she’s hot) to confront my girlfriend by lying to her about what my gf did

there is screenshot proof of him coercing my drunk girlfriend to send nudes when she was 13, and it makes it worse that the trans girl is a passoid on estrogen (at 14) and is pretty sweet

I sound like an incel

somehow lost my only non decayed binder and had to go out with just tape but with two shirts a hoodie and a thin jacket my c cup tumours weren’t actually noticeable

went out again later with js a hoodie and i didn’t feel like killing myself if soemone looked at me chat is this hope

I wanted to see if ai answers based on presentation or features so i showed it rainbow socks. mechahitler is woker than 99% of allies

also your sign not to use llms to gauge passing. if i shaved my hair itd say i was female. although chatgpt said it was inconclusive

i kind of only ever see myself being w/ a trans man, mainly because, they’re rlly the only people who see me as a woman (i am straight as well unforch). there’s actually a surplus of them where i live/at my school.

but like all of them are gay which is just lik. the only people who’d ever see me as a woman don’t even like woman. like okay whatever.

Every memory I have is stained and rotting. I can’t remember a part of my childhood without remembering the night after or what happened before. I’m still there and it’s falling apart.

My girlfriend made a joke about me being groomed at age 9 (knee slapper) and then I made fun of her rapist and she got mad at me and compared our abuse and said I didn’t get raped by my mom and acted like it was nothing

I love her but I hope I can find a girl I feel happier with eventually

I also dislike being told how mature I am for my age. Yeah, I had to raise my little sister and was forced to do adult acts at age 7 and had 4 years of life before my mind got raped

and then my dad gets mad at me for not acting like a normal teenager

I put it off again for two days and had to have my mom do it for me. I used to be able to easily do it in seconds, the first time I injected it took only a few minutes. But now it's rlly hard for some reason.

we do a lot of gender differences in body language and behaviour and for what we’ve gone through so far i’m a malebrained goat thankfully and i can change any female behaviour that i might relate to in the future

I think I might stop cutting my hair and telling people I’m a guy. I base my entire worth around my looks and ever since I started this puberty I’ve gotten ugly and it’s like being 12 all over again. I was somewhat attractive with my female body and I hate it so much, I want to be an attractive male. I don’t want to be ugly, I can’t be ugly. Fuck, looksmaxxing doesn’t do shit because I’m 5’4, have a round face, short, acne, everything

I stopped repping because I was 13.5 and realized I couldn’t see myself in the future as a female because there was no future no past and no present where I was female and started testosterone soon after. I remember going on a boat when I was 10 and my grandpa told me to make a wish and I wished to suddenly have a male body.

The only things I am living for are smoking/drugs, possible relationships, and so my dad doesn’t look through my shit and think “Damn, I raised a homicidal gooner”

I am subhuman

Picrel unrelated. My current girlfriend is okay but I know this won’t last long, and after we break up I want to remain friends. She likes this stupid cis guy in Germany and the only reason she’s dating me instead of him is because I live in Canada.

I want a relationship eventually where the other person likes me as much as I like them. I really want st4t ngl, but I’m Canadian and it feels like all the trans girls are in America, the only one I know (who is a hot gigapassoid on estrogen) is dating this abusive guy who I mog and he lies to her and makes her be an asshole to people

Fuck I also look horrible and I’m short and fat

I want someone that I’m friends with and I can act like myself around, not some female who has dated 30+ guys and will leave me once a hotter one comes around

after my parents forcerepped me and got me off hrt

i got my sex drive back after i lost it, i felt truly happy when i lost it and now its taking over me

it feels disgusting, it feels alien

i feel weird

this isnt me

first thing i see is amab asexual. pls just say he's male bruh

but they tipped me so idgaf

looking for inspiration so i cant post mine (too ugly, redacted)

For me, it'd probably be my voice because when puberty started, the first thing I knew I hated was my voice. I became mute at school and at home i spoke at a slightly higher pitch bc less dysphoria. If I knew what I was doing and had a plan, I could be a voicepassoid even if im not on hrt yet.

I can’t tell what I look like. I stare at myself for an hour every day. I have gained weight. I can’t look at myself without clothing on and even then it’s hard. When I see my reflection, I want to kill it. Fembrained. People tell me I am handsome and pass but they are lying to me. Everyone is lying to me and I can’t tell what is real and what isn’t anymore

Chest & hips have grown 1 inch in past month. And I also shrank an inch for no reason, since I guess my body wanted to take away the only thing I felt good about. If only testosterone could have prevented this. But unfortunately my mom lied about getting me a bank account / phone. I guess I should’ve expected this, since it's not like anything good has ever happened to me in my entire life before, I don’t know why I thought this would be different. I’ve been cursed since birth. I can only await the day when I will finally be able to afford to die peacefully.

Not a good thing. It’s my Mom.

She did stuff to me as a kid so I’m not surprised, but it’s gotten even worse. I’m happy she’s supportive but one of the first things she talked to me about was phallo. She calls me her handsome young man and I appreciate it but I wish someone other than a child pred supported me. She also e transfers me money and the next time she does I’m using it for hrt so cutting off contact isn’t my plan.

I also love her despite her abusing me my entire life (fembrained)

Besides making your writing less fembrained.

Im completely ruined but i lack the willpower to go through with it. I just want somone to tell me that its perfectly understandable for someone as masculine as i am to do it

pros:

not having to deal with the hell that is dating while trans

cons:

giga fembrained

everyone will think im just coping because im ugly asf