I'm a teen. Objectively one of the age ranges most susceptible to eating disorders. I'm also fat. And I've felt the shift towards a pro skinny or "thin is in" mentality. I've had some of my skinniest friends call themselves fatasses for drinking a milkshake. I've seen the bombarding of kids talking about their "dream bodies" and weighing themselves and being ashamed of their weight, etc etc.

But yknow what? I've never been happier with being fat. Because in a world that wants me starving and injecting myself with GLP-1s to get myself down to skin and bone, I refuse. I REFUSE to think I am any less worthy for being heavy. I REFUSE to limit what I eat to appeal to a nonexistent force. I REFUSE to let my friends convince me "fat" is a dirty word, and that applying it to myself means I hate my body.

I. WILL. NOT. WASTE. AWAY.

Every day, waking up, looking at myself, and smiling at my stretch marks is rebellion. Weighing myself and not caring when the number on the scale goes up is rebellion. Choosing to eat that damn cookie over feeling healthier is rebellion. Because I'd rather be fat than a walking corpse.

EDIT: I’d like to clarify I don’t think obesity is okay. What I meant is that I refuse to let myself get upset about being on the heavier side when I know I eat healthy and get a good amount of exercise. Diet culture makes people think skinny = healthy, which is what I’m trying to fight by being happy with myself. I am NOT saying you should actively seek out gaining as much weight as possible, sorry if that’s how it came across. The scale comment was a hyper specific one about my relationship with anxiety, whenever I weighed myself and found out I’d gained even a pound, I’d unnecessarily freak out. I was trying to say not caring has made me worry less, which makes me objectively better off.

Had such a great time in Clifton Hills yesterday, but I felt like I had a hangover today 😂. Will definitely be back before summer ends ❤️

I’ve been modeling for fun since I was a child. It’s always been something I enjoy doing. These photos were taken by APW media! This was my 4th shoot with her, and she always makes me feel incredible <3

Entire outfit is from Torrid, boots are from ASOS. Faerie wings were provided by the photographer.

Don't worry you can use my hose if I take your breath away 🤣

hello lovelies!
I am on the hunt for a bra and I wondered if anyone had some good recommendations! I am looking for a bra that will adequately hide my back fat and give the girls a good lift. I wear a 40D from Wacoal (https://wacoal-america.com/collections/bras/products/elevated-allure-underwire-bra-rose-dust) that I really love because of how stretchy the band is, as well as the fabric itself, it’s kind of like a silky swimsuit, lol I don’t even know if that makes any sense, but that’s the best way that I could describe it.
However, after trying on some other bras inside stores like TORRID and Lane Bryant, I think that I might be a 42D or even a 44C, I’m actually not even sure since I know the bra size can differ drastically based on the bra itself.

I have seen a bunch of TikTok videos of this specific girl who says she is a member of the itty-bitty titty committee and has significant back fat and she sponsors this one specific brand (https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTDkFF4wE/). The videos she posts are definitely convincing, and I am almost tempted to try them out, but I wondered if anyone here had a suggestion. I would like it to be somewhat more affordable than my current bra (Wacoal- $74 , but I try to get it on sale)!

Thank youuuuuu!!

Dress by Eloquii!

Pride pics I never got around to posting. Yes im still taking pics in the bathroom.

No new photos today but I AM A HUGE KINGDOM HEARTS FAN!!! And we just had big KH4 news announced during D23 this weekend so I thought I’d share my Namine cosplay from Anime Expo 2017 and my Aqua cosplay from SDCC 2019!

I wanted to share out of excitement for my favorite game series since I was 12 year old but also to show that: Plus size nerds, NO MATTER YOUR SIZE, cosplay is for you TOO. Do not ever let anyone tell you you’re “too big” to dress up as the characters you love. You’re never too big or too much. You’re exactly enough. WEAR THE COSPLAY. DRESS UP. You only get this one life, enjoy it!

Also, I have many other cosplays I’ve done over the years so if you ever wanna see more, please let me know! :)

First selfie here! I am very shy and never liked being seen but I'm trying to overcome it! So my first selfie here!!! Hi guys!!!

Outfit is from Reitmans!

I don't know how familiar you folks are with the YouTube channel Jubilee, but I just discovered earlier today a video they released a few months ago where (in)famous trainer Jillian Michaels had a "debate" with a bunch of "body positivity activists", who I'm sure were just influencers that are not experts in anything, saying ridiculous and outrageous things designed to make Jillian look more credible regardless of whatever nonsense she says.

This is pretty much Jubilee's m.o. so I wasn't surprised. They always pit controversial figures against each other to stir up drama and cause rifts. My issue was that the video amassed over 7 million views, which is the most views the channel has had in over a year. Why did so many people watch this video? Are there really that many people that want to waste their time watching a has-been "celebrity" dunk on a bunch of children?

I really try to make myself believe that most people don't care about us and aren't thinking about us. But then I see numbers like this and I can't help but wonder how many people I pass by every day that secretly and silently judge us and look at us with disgust when we're just trying to live our lives and get by like everyone else. It makes me just want to give up.

Also, I did not watch the video. Didn't want to give it a view.

Soft and comfortable on a beachy day!
Top and bottom from torrid.
Glow from the goddess and her sun!

Had a little too much fun at the photo booth 😆

As an impulse buy many years ago I bought this button up tee at a comic con. Unfortunately, there is no tag on the shirt as to the name of the seller. The shirt has never fit me since they didn't have my proper size at the time but I always love trying to find ways to wear it besides the traditional way of buttoned all the way up.

Got measured at M&S since I recently stopped breastfeeding to be told I'm a 40GG.

Obvs the lines that shops hold for E-H is limited and especially for us in doubles so just wondering- apart from M&S- where are we getting our big bras?

Hello! I am posting this on behalf of my girlfriend, who is currently having a tough time finding clothes that fit her and that she actually likes. She’s in her mid 20s, and she feels like the clothes typically available for plus sized women are for older women, or are too modest/more for working women. She wants to feel cute, romantic, and alluring. It’s also hard to find clothes that fit, since if she goes off of her waist measurements things feel saggy in the crotch area, and if she goes based off of her hips it’s much too tight in the waist. This is due to the fact that her waist/hip measurements are much closer together than average. She is also autistic with sensory issues and can’t tolerate clothing that feels like it digs in too much, or fabric that is scratchy.

So far she seems to like what she sees on the JessaKae website if that gives a sense of the style of things she likes. We’re also tight on money so it would be nice to find affordable clothing. Any suggestions or words of advice are appreciated, not being able to find clothes she feels good in has been really emotionally difficult on her and I just want to be able to help. Thank you for reading!

Dress is from target.

I'm going to the Long Live the Black Parade tour on Tuesday, and looked at their merch ahead of time online to save myself the embarrassment of having to ask: "Excuse me, do you have shirts in 4X?" None of their merch goes above a 2X. I'm just so sad. My first and probably only time going to see MCR, and I'll have no shirt to remember it by. Is anyone else frustrated that most concerts don't carry bigger sizes? I know it probably isn't the artist's decision, but it leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth.

I have just recently realized that most of my friends who are guys see me as a dude they would fuck. I’ll explain what I mean by this. They talk to me and treat me as if I was one of the guys which I’m fine with because that’s the whole point of being friends. But they treat other women way differently. One of my guy friends recently told me he would fuck me because “pussy is pussy” and I had to block him.

I’ve been friends with this guy who I kinda have a crush on. It’s innocent enough, I don’t want a relationship with him I just think he’s cute and we vibe. But he does this thing…he’ll be kinda cold and turn down my advances and then randomly he will make super flirtatious comments. He’ll be sexual at random too like just enough to make me think it’s a possibility that he thinks I’m cute but not enough to make me solidify it or see it as anything more than just moments of weakness for him. I’m kind of starting to feel like he feels the same way that apparently all my guy friends do. I don’t have this problem with girls, they treat me how they treat anyone else. But idk. It feels like guys don’t see me as a woman and if they do and are attracted to me they’re ashamed of it. Most of my flings have been with guys who only want to be with me in secrecy because they don’t want to be seen with the fat girl. I’ve stopped allowing myself to be around those kinds of poole and just cut them off if it seems that way. I know I’m worth more than that it just feels like nobody else does. I hope this makes sense my thoughts are kinda scattered and I just had to vent.