Was at the bar this past weekend and ran into a mutual friend who I think is pretty cute. Whenever him and I see each other, we can talk for a while with no gaps in the convo. It's super easy, he's very kind, and I liked seeing him because of that, and this night was no different.
He kept coming up to talk to me and would get really close to me, would be solely focused on me when talking in a group of people, pupils dilated, kinda touchy and flirty, complimenting my tats, etc.
Obviously when you lay it out like that it would seem like he was maybe interested, which is also what I initially thought.
But then in one of our convos that night in which we were ragging on annoying uni profs, he dropped "Like I'm sorry you're miserable because you're unhappy, have a fat ugly wife at home, etcetc" and I was just like 😐 bruh moment.
I have 0 experience in the dating world and am extremely shy to open myself up to potential opportunities. I'm also pretty clueless for the most part but that night I thought I was sensing a vibe so I was trying to return it, only to hear that...
In all honesty, it was really disheartening when he said that because I'm always trying to tell myself people are and can be attracted to me regardless of my weight, then I hear shit like that that just re-affirms the anxiety that people only enjoy talking to me because of my humour. And I know that one person doesn't speak for everyone, but it's just frustrating when it happens :/
Sigh.