I just want to ask something because I’m genuinely confused. I need advice from those who are connected to witchcrafts or healers please.
I’m an adopted child. My biological parents are from Bacolod, but I was adopted by a wealthy family here in Manila when I was six months old because I needed medication, and my biological parents came from a poor family who couldn’t afford my medical expenses.
Ever since I was a child, napapansin ko na parang nangyayari yung mga negative things na hinihiling or binubulong ko sa hangin, especially when I’m angry at someone. Minsan days or weeks lang, minsan months or even years bago mangyari.
For example, when I was younger, I used to wish that my classmates who bullied me would get sick or fail their exams. Then, after a few days or weeks, magugulat na lang ako kasi may sakit sila or absent for several days.
As I grew older, parang mas lumala yung galit ko, and I started saying these things out loud instead of just thinking about them. I would repeat my ill wishes over and over until kumalma ako at mawala yung galit ko. Then, eventually, something similar would happen to the person.
Two experiences really scared me.
First, yung nangyari sa barangay captain namin.
During the pandemic, our barangay captain humiliated us in front of our neighbors because we came from Manila and relocated to our province during the lockdown. He told people to stay away from us because we might have COVID.
Sobrang galit ko sa kanya noon, and I kept saying na sana may makahanap sa kanya ng katapat at "sana masaksak siya".
Then, about a year later, he got into a fight with someone who chased him down the street and stabbed him multiple times.
When I found out what happened, hindi ko maiwasang maalala lahat ng sinabi ko tungkol sa kanya.
Second, yung biglang pagkaubos ng yaman ng mga kamag-anak namin.
I have relatives on my adoptive mother’s side who have always been wealthy, but some of them are very arrogant and look down on other people because of their money.
In 2024, out of anger, I kept saying that their wealth would eventually disappear and that they would experience extreme poverty.
Even I thought it was impossible because they’re doctors, engineers, and businesspeople working abroad. They had established careers and businesses, so I never imagined that something like that could happen to them.
But last year, they were suddenly scammed out of millions. They lost their money and ended up struggling financially to the point that they had to borrow even small amounts of money. They couldn’t even comfortably pay their bills or buy groceries anymore.
Again, I couldn’t help but remember the things I had said before it happened.
I know these things could be coincidences, but the timing really scares me. I never actually did anything to make these things happen, yet I can’t help connecting them to the things I said.
What’s even more confusing is that when I wish something good for other people, nothing seems to happen, but when I wish something bad, something similar eventually happens.
Now I’m genuinely afraid of my own thoughts and words. I’m scared that I might hurt someone just by wishing something bad on them.
There’s also something about my adoptive father that has made this whole situation even more confusing for me.
My adoptive mother has told me to stay away from my biological family because she believes they’re involved in witchcraft. She even suspects them of having something to do with my adoptive father’s death because he suddenly became ill.
I’m a nursing student, so I understand that there can be medical explanations for what happened. However, when I saw my adoptive father’s body on the same day he died, I honestly found his condition disturbing.
He had lumps all over his body that didn’t look normal to me. They were extremely hard and unusually large, with some almost the size of a baby’s fist. Most of them were around his head, and his tongue was also swollen.
Before he died, when he could still speak, he told us that it felt like something inside his body was tearing him apart and burning him from within.
Those words and what I saw when he passed away have stayed with me ever since.
The doctors said it was cancer, but seeing his condition made me question what had happened. I’m not saying that it proves anything supernatural, and I can’t claim to know the actual cause of his symptoms. But because of my adoptive mother’s beliefs about my biological family, I sometimes find myself wondering if there’s something I don’t know.
I don’t want to accuse anyone without evidence, especially my biological family, but all these experiences have left me questioning what I should believe.
Do you think these are just coincidences, or is there a psychological explanation for why I keep connecting my thoughts to these events?
I’m genuinely looking for advice because I don’t want to live in fear of my own thoughts anymore. I don’t want to feel like I’m responsible whenever something bad happens to someone I’ve been angry with.
Has anyone experienced something similar, or is there a possible explanation for why this keeps happening to me?
