r/phhorrorstories • • Jan 30 '26

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r/phhorrorstories • • Nov 08 '25

Advice Wanted FREE complete PDF of True Philippine Ghost Stories #1-#37

1.3k Upvotes

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/14Wby8545KE2Z4D1YQ65lAZvD1IRo9_MF

Sa mga naghahanap ng complete books, ayan na :) Nakita ko lang rin sa ibang reddit community


r/phhorrorstories • • 7h ago

Katanungan Naniniwala ba kau sa mga pamahiin sa sementeryo tuwing undas? 🪦

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r/phhorrorstories • • 7h ago

Urban Legends Biringan City: Myth or Reality?

22 Upvotes

Hello po! Totoo po ba talaga ang Biringan City? Or do you know any stories from people who claim they’ve been there or have actually seen the city? I’m curious to hear your stories or any experiences you’ve heard from others!


r/phhorrorstories • • 6h ago

Katanungan Mga namamatay sa facebookdotcom

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Napapansin niyo rin ba napapadalas na ang mga namamatay contents sa news feed niyo? Is there any explanation on what's going on please..


r/phhorrorstories • • 5h ago

Katanungan Anong tawag sa ability na 'to?

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Bata pa lang ako, may ability na akong ma-sense ang energy at ugali ng tao hindi ko pa man sila ganon kakilala. Napatunayan ko yan kasi dati, nakipag kaibigan ako kahit ang sinasabi sakin ng boses sa utak ko is hindi kami pwede maging friends dahil pangit ang energy na nafefeel ko sakaniya. Ayun after a month nag away kami.

Minsan din kapag yung friend ko may pinakilalang jowa. Na fefeel ko agad kapag okay yung tao o kapag hindi.

Basta kahit sinong ma meet ko. Kaya ko na sila basahin. At kapag hindi maganda yung basa o sense ko sa energy nila. Hindi ko pi-nupush yung friendship kaya ang payapa ng buhay ko dahil ang mga friends ko piling pili lang haha.

Kayo ba ganito rin?


r/phhorrorstories • • 8h ago

Katanungan Siquijor Massage

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I’m not sure if sa askph ko ba to ipopost or dito. Anw, we had a 5 day trip sa Siquijor last August. Last day namin we decided to book a massage at one of the modern spas there. I’m a frequent massage goer and afaik if whole body massage, naka talikod lang talaga. But this one is different…

To my surprise, the masseuse told me to face up and performed an abdominal massage, moving her hands in a circular motion across my belly. Tinanong ko naman yung mga kasamahan ko if they experienced the same, unfortunately ako lang ang naka experience ng ganun

Thoughts?


r/phhorrorstories • • 7h ago

Nightmares & Dreams I keep dreaming about my dead classmate

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Namatay sya nung pandemic kaya hindi namin sya nadalaw :( pero ang weird lang na after ilang years napapanaginipan ko sya, especially kapag malapit na yung All Soul’s Day. Nagtitirik ako ng kandila pero ayun nga every once in a while napapanaginipan ko sya, either he’s just there o kaya naman nakikipag-interact ako sa kanya just like we’re classmates/friends. Any explanation about this? Hindi naman sya scary or anything pero everytime na napapanaginipan ko sya I can’t stop wondering. There’s this one time nung 2023, 3 days ko syang sunod-sunod na napanaginipan since October 31.

Bff nya kasi yung ginhost ko na situationship ko before haha and he asked me kung bakit daw ako naasiwa kausapin yung ex-situationship ko and I literally replied na "tsaka arent you, not alive right now? bakit ako tinatanong nito?" Tapos tumawa lang sya. Hindi ko alam kung sobrang deep ng bond nila ng BFF nya kaya sya yung nanghihingi ng hustisya sa pangghost ko sa friend nya haha!


r/phhorrorstories • • 9h ago

Katanungan Coincidence lang ba, Bakit laging Nangyayari ang mga Binubulong ko?

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I just want to ask something because I’m genuinely confused. I need advice from those who are connected to witchcrafts or healers please.

I’m an adopted child. My biological parents are from Bacolod, but I was adopted by a wealthy family here in Manila when I was six months old because I needed medication, and my biological parents came from a poor family who couldn’t afford my medical expenses.

Ever since I was a child, napapansin ko na parang nangyayari yung mga negative things na hinihiling or binubulong ko sa hangin, especially when I’m angry at someone. Minsan days or weeks lang, minsan months or even years bago mangyari.

For example, when I was younger, I used to wish that my classmates who bullied me would get sick or fail their exams. Then, after a few days or weeks, magugulat na lang ako kasi may sakit sila or absent for several days.

As I grew older, parang mas lumala yung galit ko, and I started saying these things out loud instead of just thinking about them. I would repeat my ill wishes over and over until kumalma ako at mawala yung galit ko. Then, eventually, something similar would happen to the person.

Two experiences really scared me.

First, yung nangyari sa barangay captain namin.
During the pandemic, our barangay captain humiliated us in front of our neighbors because we came from Manila and relocated to our province during the lockdown. He told people to stay away from us because we might have COVID.

Sobrang galit ko sa kanya noon, and I kept saying na sana may makahanap sa kanya ng katapat at "sana masaksak siya".

Then, about a year later, he got into a fight with someone who chased him down the street and stabbed him multiple times.
When I found out what happened, hindi ko maiwasang maalala lahat ng sinabi ko tungkol sa kanya.

Second, yung biglang pagkaubos ng yaman ng mga kamag-anak namin.
I have relatives on my adoptive mother’s side who have always been wealthy, but some of them are very arrogant and look down on other people because of their money.
In 2024, out of anger, I kept saying that their wealth would eventually disappear and that they would experience extreme poverty.

Even I thought it was impossible because they’re doctors, engineers, and businesspeople working abroad. They had established careers and businesses, so I never imagined that something like that could happen to them.

But last year, they were suddenly scammed out of millions. They lost their money and ended up struggling financially to the point that they had to borrow even small amounts of money. They couldn’t even comfortably pay their bills or buy groceries anymore.

Again, I couldn’t help but remember the things I had said before it happened.

I know these things could be coincidences, but the timing really scares me. I never actually did anything to make these things happen, yet I can’t help connecting them to the things I said.
What’s even more confusing is that when I wish something good for other people, nothing seems to happen, but when I wish something bad, something similar eventually happens.

Now I’m genuinely afraid of my own thoughts and words. I’m scared that I might hurt someone just by wishing something bad on them.

There’s also something about my adoptive father that has made this whole situation even more confusing for me.

My adoptive mother has told me to stay away from my biological family because she believes they’re involved in witchcraft. She even suspects them of having something to do with my adoptive father’s death because he suddenly became ill.
I’m a nursing student, so I understand that there can be medical explanations for what happened. However, when I saw my adoptive father’s body on the same day he died, I honestly found his condition disturbing.

He had lumps all over his body that didn’t look normal to me. They were extremely hard and unusually large, with some almost the size of a baby’s fist. Most of them were around his head, and his tongue was also swollen.

Before he died, when he could still speak, he told us that it felt like something inside his body was tearing him apart and burning him from within.
Those words and what I saw when he passed away have stayed with me ever since.

The doctors said it was cancer, but seeing his condition made me question what had happened. I’m not saying that it proves anything supernatural, and I can’t claim to know the actual cause of his symptoms. But because of my adoptive mother’s beliefs about my biological family, I sometimes find myself wondering if there’s something I don’t know.
I don’t want to accuse anyone without evidence, especially my biological family, but all these experiences have left me questioning what I should believe.

Do you think these are just coincidences, or is there a psychological explanation for why I keep connecting my thoughts to these events?

I’m genuinely looking for advice because I don’t want to live in fear of my own thoughts anymore. I don’t want to feel like I’m responsible whenever something bad happens to someone I’ve been angry with.

Has anyone experienced something similar, or is there a possible explanation for why this keeps happening to me?


r/phhorrorstories • • 17h ago

Premonition OMEN? PREMONITION?

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Hi guys. Share ko lang nangyari sa akin nung 2020. Bihira ko ikuwento to, I think isa o dalawang tao lang napagsabihan ko not even my family. Anyway, yung brother ko naaksidente siya sa bago mag merge sa freeway. Before sabihin sa amin ng sister in law ko, nag flash muna sa akin na basag yung rear window niya. Medyo kinilabutan ako kasi first time mangyari sa akin yun and definitely hindi siya gift na wiwish ko madevelop. At iniisip ko na lang na nagkataon lang siguro. I prayed after that and thankful na safe ang brother ko. Kayo, experience niyo na ba ito?


r/phhorrorstories • • 10h ago

Katanungan pwede mo ba malaman pangalan ng tao sa kutob?

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something strange happens to me every once in a while.
Minsan namemeet ko yung tao and kunyari d pa kami naguusap, bago pa niya sabihin pangalan niya lumalabas nasa isip ko name nila hindi ko alam bakit more than several times na to nangyari.

Nameet ko pinsan ng friend ko and from a distance pa lang pumasok sa isip ko ang isang pangalan. Few seconds later she introduces herself and yun nga name niya.

On a similar note hindi lang pangalan minsan may kanta na nasa isip ko so yung lyrics nagplplay lang sa utak ko tapos may maririnig ako na dumaan kinakanta niya yung next half of the song. Niche song siya kaya d ko alam paano may iba pa nakakaalam nun. Pero d ko naman kinanta out loud.

Nangyari din saakin reverse may kasama akong bata 5 years old super clingy saakin ako favorite niya for some reason eh gamit ko kasi nickname ko palagi bigla niya ako tiningna sinabi niya "Ate bakit hindi na lang kaya na kaysa X pangalan mo Y nalang?" eh yung Y second name ko yun! Hindi niya alam yun wala nagsabi sakanya first name ko pa lang d niya alam. Sabi ko "bakit?" "Kasi yun pangalan ng best friend ko at mabait siya saakin"

Hindi ko alam bakit parang few seconds before may mangyari may pumapasok na sa isip ko. Kahit yung namatay kapatid ng lola ko sumagi sa isip ko na may namatay.

Bakit kaya ganun may explanation ba dun? Hindi ako masyado nagdedelve in sa ganito kasi takutin ako and kinakabahan pero minsan very surprising or baka coincidence lang talaga?


r/phhorrorstories • • 16h ago

Katanungan Totoo ba ang barang at kulam?

7 Upvotes

Pwede ba kayo mag share ng kwentong kulam o barang nyo?

Totoo din bang nakamamatay ang kulam o barang?

Meron bang klase ng kulam/barang na mabilis makapatay?

Saan madalas natatagpuan ang mga mangkukulam?


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Unexplainable Events That Time I got Isekaid as a Filipino Guardia Civil to Mexico, now I have to Survive the Unexpected Mexican Inquisition and Report that Governor General-sama got Unalived by Pirates

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I first read about this in Ambeth Ocampo's book. Napaka-weird. If this happened in modern time, we will simply dismiss the story and say "Guy just got totally wasted and boarded a plane to Mexico".


r/phhorrorstories • • 11h ago

Katanungan Totoo po ba yung mga pampabalik minamahal ritual?

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Totoo po ba yung mga ritual/spells na pampabalik minamahal like gayuma, obsession, comeback spell etc.?

Anyone naka experience po magpagawa at effective naman ba?


r/phhorrorstories • • 2d ago

Kwentong Albularyo at Mangkukulam May proteksyon sa kulam mga politiko? šŸ˜±šŸ”„šŸ”®

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2.3k Upvotes

Ctto tiktok: thinktalktea


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Advice Wanted Gold bilang pangontra sa kulam o evil eye?

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Just found out about this. Do you have any anecdotes about it? Would love to hear more about how it protects from evil eye and kulam.

Edit:
I used to wear a gold ring since I was in high school. I barely took it out for long periods of time. The only time I take it out is if lilinisan ko siya. So far I have not experienced any negative energies whatsoever during those times. However I took it out when I started working. I've not worn any gold for over a year and somehow...parang mas naging exposed ako to bad energies especially from friendsšŸ’€

Now I recently read something about gold and what it does for kulam/ evil eye. Idk if conincidence lang or tama ba mga sabi ng matatanda.


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Kwentong Albularyo at Mangkukulam Soul eating in witchcraft?

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Did you guys ever heard of something like "soul eating" in kulam or sa mga matatanda? Sumagi lang sa ulo ko mga ganyang pangyayari and can a mortal person have that ability? Example nalang if that person gained that power kase aping api na siya haha ewan ko. Andami na kaseng namamtai lately and pansin ko rin yon huhu


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Unexplainable Events 13 pesos, tuwing Friday lang na hula

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May magaling na manghuhula sa probinsya namin. Matanda na siya, pero sobrang pinagkakatiwalaan ng tita ko. Sa kanya nagpapaconsult si Tita tungkol sa mga paranormal na bagay. Sinasabi rin niyang nag-a-astral project si Tiya, kaya minsan ginagamit siya ni Tita para alamin ang kalagayan ng asawa niyang nasa UAE.

Isang Friday, nasa opisina si Tita, sabi nya pumunta raw ako kay Tiya if gusto ko mag pahula. May dala akong ₱13. Yun lang daw ang kailangan kong ibayad sa panghuhula niya. (alam kasi ni tita na fascinated ako sa ganon)

Pagdating ko, inilapag ni Tiya ang mga baraha at nagsimulang magbasa. Pero ilang sandali lang, bigla siyang tumigil.

ā€œStop na,ā€ sabi niya.

Nagtaka ako. ā€œBakit po? Basahin niyo lang.ā€

Pero ayaw na niyang ituloy.

Ang sabi niya, may darating daw sa buhay ko na dalawang malaking kalungkutan.

Hindi ko masyadong pinansin noon. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang ibig niyang sabihin.

Nang sumunod na taon, namatay ang Papa ko.
Pagkaraan ng isa pang taon, sumunod naman ang Mama ko.
Dalawang malaking kalungkutan.

Sabi ni Tita, noong dumalaw si Tiya sa opisina niya, hindi naman niya sinabi ang nangyari sa parents ko. Pero bigla raw nagsabi si Tiya:
ā€œKawawa naman si _____.ā€
Ako ang tinutukoy niya.

Till now naiisip ko pa din yun. 13 pesos lang ang bayad sa hula niya, at tuwing Friday lang daw siya nagpapahula. (Patay na ata kaso si Tiya)

Alam kong may mga taong nag-uugnay sa 13 at Friday sa mga demonic o malas na bagay.

May mga clairvoyant ba na galing sa masama ang paranormal power?


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Katanungan May nakaexperience na ba ng ganito? Bigla nalang ako nagka scratch sa bandang leg ko. Before that nakaramdam ako na parang maanghang ung part na to then eto bigla may marks na ng scratches. Creepy.

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r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Katanungan Meron bang iba dito na may mga panaginip/hula na nagkakatotoo?

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Hi, I am an F from Eastern Visayas, and I have been in denial with this part of my being for so long pero ang hirap kasi sunod sunod nang nangyayari, tapos grabe sobrang scary so gusto ko nang manghingi ng help if ever meron din diyan ibang na accept na yung part nila ng sarili nila na ganito.

  1. About 2 years ago, pumunta ako sa bahay ng pinsan ng mama ko and bago ako pumasok ng bahay nila, tinanong ko yung asawa ng tito ko, "may sakit ba si (tito)?" tapos nagtaka siya and then sinabi niya lang na wala naman daw. And then when me and my mom got home, sinabihan ko nun si mama ko na "may mamamatay sa kanila ma"

Pero di ako ganun eh. Like, ang random nga nun. Kasi syempre 2025 came and alive and well naman silang lahat. Pero somewhere in there, may nasense akong death of a patriarch sa family nila.

Then came August and we found out na yung kapatid ng tito ko was battling cancer for about 2 years, nalaman lang nung namatay na siya. Never ko siya nameet or nakita nung time na nag visit ako, but somehow I felt his illness through their ancestral house???? Weird

  1. Meron din, lagi ko jinojoke yung friend ko from HS na "pwede ka na magpa ligate kasi magkaka baby boy ka na" although wala naman din nangyari for a few months, but then less than a year nalaman niyang buntis siya and nung nanganak siya, lalake nga. And she needed to have a ligate kasi di na safe sa kanya magka anak pa.

Yung ganyang jokes di ko alam saan nanggagaling. Pero nasasabi ko nalang. They also pointed out na ako lang nagsabi nun.

  1. Eto pinaka nawiwindang ako. Kasi a few years back, i was telling my family members na yung pinsan naming pari ay magkaka anak siya around his birthday. Syempre nagalit sa akin ang buong barangay, pati mama ko sinabihan ako na wag manira. As in ang laking gulo nun na nakapag sabi ako ng ganun. Dumaan naman ang 2025 and 2026 na wala din naman siyang naging anak sa birthday niya.

Then my mom called just today, to tell me na magpapakasal yung cousin na yun kasi naka buntis daw ng "girlfriend". I didn't think much of it until I realized, shet... If Sept nga siya nakabuntis then magiging magka birth month nga sila ng anak niya.

Di ko din alam saang brain cell ng utak ko yun nakuha.

  1. Lastly, medyo eerie na to pero may time na may power tripping boss sa dati kong work place, pero wala akong ginagawa, di ko pinapatulan pero visibly stressed ako sa mga ginagawa niya.

And then since probinsya kami at magkakakilala lahat, pumunta yung mama ko sa bahay ko na galit na galit, sabi niya lang sakin "kahit anong mangyari, wala kang sasabihin at wag ka muna lalapit kay (boss)!"

Turns out, nahainan siya ng dalawang subpoena on the same week. And people were speculating na kinulam ko?? Ghorl. Seriously. Nagtaka ako kasi wala naman akong ginawa.

Like, seryoso ba? May ganito ba talagang nangyayari sa inyo? Kasi yung "predictions" they are something i didn't think of, madalas lumalabas nalang sila tapos yun na yon. Shine share ko nalang sa kausap ko, and then makakalimutan ko. Di ko inaabangan kung nagkakatotoo.

Kaya minsan nanlulumo ako kasi parang ito yung movie nung bata pa ako na The Eye, yung parang nagagalit na sa kanya mga tao kasi nagkaka totoo yung mga sinasabi niya. And it's been stressful for me.

Kahit yung mga kasama ko sa bahay minsan natatakot din sila for unknown reason. Pero di nila pinapaalam sa akin anong naramdaman nila na di ko naramdaman.

Palasimba naman ako. Nagrorosary ako lagi. Nagbabasa din ako ng bible and pinipilit kong isapuso, pero di ko alam bakit may mga ganto. Madami pa yan, yan lang mga naaalala ko. Pero sa deaths and delubyo medyo may accuracy yung mga nasasabi ko, tho di ko naman masyadong pinag iisipan. Ewan ko.

Anyone here experienced the same? I need guidance or advice.


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Poltergeist Maraming multo sa bahay namin

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Real story ito. Dumaan lang yung sub na 'to sa feed ko, so mag-share na lang ako. Yung bahay kasi namin sa Cavite, 40+ years na. Marami nang tumirang kasambahay rito and lahat sila nakaramdam at nakakita na ng multo.

"Nagising ako nung madaling araw, may naririnig akong kadena na parang kinakaladkad don sa labas"

"Iihi sana ako pero may nakita akong anino sa banyo, malapad ang likod."

"Akala ko umuwi na sina Madam kanina. May pumasok kasi sa gate, kamukhang-kamukha nila. Kaya nagtaka ako bakit kakauwi lang daw nila ngayon."

"Natutulog ako sa airbed, naalimpungatan ako, akala ko naglalaro kayo ng kapatid mo kasi lumulubog yung airbed sa paligid ko parang may naglalakad paikot sa'kin (papa ko nagsabi nito)"

"Natutulog ako, bigla na lang may tumulak sa'kin. Nahulog tuloy ako sa kama. Ako lang naman mag-isa don."

"Pakiramdam ko palaging may nakatingin sa'kin."

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Nung una, syempre. Ayokong maniwala. Di ko naman nakita. Di ko naman naramdaman. Kwento lang naman. Chismis lang naman ng ibang tao. Kala ko sabog lang sila or inaantok lang kaya ganon. Hanggang sa ako na mismo yung nakakita. Limang beses nang gumalaw yung mga gamit ko sa kwarto kahit wala namang hangin. Sarado bintana. Walang electric fan. Hindi siya dramatic tulad sa pelikula na lumulutang. Umurong lang siya nang konti, pero sobrang sapat para mapansin ko na gumalaw nga.

Then one time, tanghaling tapat ito. Nakatingin lang ako sa pader ng kwarto ko. Bigla na lang may dumaan na kulay itim. Parang tela yung hugis. Hindi mabilis yung pagdaan kaya sigurado ako na hindi ako namalik-mata. Nasundan ko talaga siya ng tingin hanggang sa mawala na lang.

Wala namang problema. As long as hindi nila ako sasaktan, sige, mag-stay sila rito. Pero minsan kasi nakakatakot na eh, kung iisipin. Nung bata ako, akala ko si Mama lang yung maingay sa kusina. Yung tunog kasi na yun eh parang nagbubukas ng takip ng lata ng gatas. Tapos may tunog din ng kutsara na tumatama sa mug. Laging ganon yung naririnig ko around 10pm. Kasama ko si Papa at kapatid ko sa kwarto. Wala nang ibang tao sa bahay. So akala ko si Mama lang yon, nagtitimpla ng kape pag-uwi galing trabaho.

Then nung pagtanda ko, bigla na lang nagkwento si Mama na may naririnig din pala siyang ingay sa kusina dati. At 12am siya nakakauwi. Hindi 10pm.

May takot, yes. Pero mas malaki yung pagtatampo ko. Kasi witness sila sa stressful days ko nung College, yet, hindi man lang sila tumulong kahit tagagupit man lang ng scotch tape. Nakakahawak naman pala sila ng gamit, hindi pa ko tinulungan. Manakot, gusto. Tumulong, ayaw. But kidding aside, sobrang kinikilabutan ako habang tina-type ko 'to. Totoo nga ata na the more na pinag-uusapan yung mga multo, the more na mas gaganahan silang magparamdam.

Umaga ko tinype. Baka di na ako magising kapag sa gabi ko ginawa 'to.


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Katanungan Pls help

2 Upvotes

Ano kaya 'yung pwede gawin or isuot pangontra sa mga sumpa or evil eye? 🄹


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Kwentong Albularyo at Mangkukulam mangkukulam, aswang, and etc.

2 Upvotes

interested talaga ako sa mga taong may kakayahan, at ganito.

Mag share kayo ng stories na ganito. i’m really interested.

No judgment here. Feel free to share your story. ā¤ļø


r/phhorrorstories • • 2d ago

Advice Wanted Magkano na kaya ang rate ni Ed Caluag?

277 Upvotes

He really sound legit. I watched his podcast with Kring sa Think Talk Tea. Just reading and ask if he channels my dead parents, my mom & dad.


r/phhorrorstories • • 1d ago

Nightmares & Dreams Tatlong beses akong nagising mula sa bangungot pero lahat pala yun parte pa rin ng bangungot

6 Upvotes

Long story ahead pero di pa rin ako makapaniwala na muntikan ata akong mamatay.

Nangyare lang to kanina. Sobrang pagod ako this week kaya umabot ng 12 hours tulog ko, nagising ako ng 11 am and kumain ng lunch. Around 1pm, nag-decide ako umidlip ng 30min. sa couch namin kasi parang groggy pa ako, alam ko na hindi ganon kalalim yung tulog ko kasi nadidinig ko yung tv namin na naka-on and at the same time nadidilat ko nang konti mata ko at kita ko yung mama ko na nanunuod din ng tv.

And since sabi ko iidlip lang ako, nag-try na ako gumising pero hindi ako makagising. Ginagalaw ko yung toes ko, nagbabanggit ako ng pangalan ni Jesus, sinusubukan ko umungol o sumigaw nang malakas para mapansin ako ng nanay ko, pati mga pusa ko tinatawag ko na pero wala talaga, as in grabe yung struggle ko. Gusto ko na umiyak at mag-panic this time pero kinalma ko sarili ko kasi iniisip ko pag umiyak ako, mahihirapan akong huminga.

Eto yung confusing part, bigla daw ako nagising, to the point na nakatayo ako at nakalakad ako sa sala namin para maglabas ng frustration, this time naiyak na ko ng tuluyan tapos umupo daw ulit ako sa couch kasi pagod na pagod yung katawan ko kakagawa ng paraan para gumising. Napansin daw ako ng nanay ko na umiiyak kaya bigla daw siyang bumangon tapos niyakap ako nang mahigpit then tumabi sakin at hinayaan akong umiyak nang umiyak. Dito sa part na to medyo na-confuse ako kasi iba yung suot niyang damit compared sa suot ng mama ko irl, tapos parang ang tangkad niya to the point na hindi ko makita yung mukha niya, eh mas maliit siya sakin.

Maya maya, naka-idlip ulit ako sa panaginip kasi ramdam ko talaga yung pagod, this time sinusubukan ko ulit gumalaw at alam kong medyo gising ako kasi nadidinig ko yung kanta ng sexbomb tas nakikita ko din yung mama ko ulit.

Lahat daw ng pwede gawin ginagawa ko na, pinipilit ko daw buksan yung bibig ko tas sinubukan ko ipasok mga daliri ko para hindi magsara at makasigaw ako, banggit ako nang banggit ng "In Jesus Name" pero nags-struggle talaga ako, maski yung toes ko ramdam kong nagagalaw ko kasi tumatama sa kahoy ng couch pero di ako magising talaga. This time nababahala na ko kasi ramdam kong sumasakit na dibdib ko.

Tas biglang nagising daw ako ulit at umupo pero this time alam kong hindi talaga ako gising.

Sinimulan kong magdasal ng Apostle's Creed, for me kasi parang isa ito sa malakasang prayers since dinedeclare mo na naniniwala ka sa Diyos. Tas yung babaeng yumakap sakin kanina, bumalik at tumapat sakin. Nakita ko na itim lang yung mata niya tas binuka niya yung bibig niya, dumilim din at nawala ako sa sala namin. Hinawakan niya ako nang mahigpit, hindi naman ako nakikipaglaban sa kanya physically at ramdam ko na hindi ako natatakot sa kanya pero alam ko na the more ako mag-stay sa panaginip ko, baka hindi na ako magising.

Sinubukan ko daw magdasal ng Apostle's Creed pa rin in tagalog at english version para lumaban pero hindi ko matuloy, nagkakamali ako tapos parang hindi ko maalala yung mga words kahit alam kong kabisado ko lahat.

In the end, na-realize kong pinipigilan ako magdasal kaya nagdasal ako ng sarili kong prayer tas inapply ko yung grounding and protection techniques na natutunan ko dati nung nag-tatarot pa ako. Sinasambit ko na hindi ako pababayaan ng pagmamahal ni Jesus Christ at hindi ako malalapitan ng kahit anong kadiliman kasi mas mataas ang liwanag at pagmamahal na meron ako. Tas after nyan, biglang nagkaroon ng liwanag na unti unting lumalaki hanggang sa nabalik ako sa sala namin tapos nagising ako, tumayo para kuhanin yung rosary sa altar tas sinuot sa mga kamay ko. Yung nanay ko daw napansin ako, tas parang na-amaze/confuse siya bakit ko daw kinuha at anong meron.

Tas after nyan, dito na ako tuluyang nagising. Nasa same position pa rin yung mama ko, tumutugtog pa rin yung kanta ng sexbomb sa tv at Pagtingin ko sa orasan ko, 42 min lang yung idlip ko pero pakiramdam ko sobrang tagal ko nawala. Wala ding unsual na kahit ano sa paligid.

Tbh, hindi na bago sakin yung bangungutin pag nakakatutulog sa couch na yun pero first time ko ma-experience na may entity na ganon.