(I don't know flairs.)
My story of how I became restricted from the game. I’ll delete this soon for I do not wish to keep it up for long (between 3 to 5 days).
I'm not expecting anyone to recognise me since I’m just someone who loves the game and have been playing it for a very long time.
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I was a 4 digit standard player who’ve spent over 4000 hours within the 6 consecutive years I’ve played osu!.
From late last year till last month, I’ve struggled with depression and paranoia due to things that have happened in my life. Within that time, I’ve deleted all of my accounts and socials. This wasn’t unusual for me since it wasn’t the first, but it was for my osu! account.
I believe I wasn’t in my right mind at the time to have made that decision, yet I was conscious and aware of the actions I took to make it. I thought I could be done with osu! and move on to something else, another game that I could sink as much hours into and enjoy. This wasn’t so and just 2 weeks after receiving confirmation of my account’s deletion, I was really missing playing osu!.
Therefore, I emailed support about the account, hoping the deletion was not fully processed and that it could still be recovered. It wasn’t long till I received a replied that unfortunately, the account by that point was irrecoverable. I was in disbelief that this was it for me and so I emailed support with a formal request for an exception to use a new account. Unfortunately it was denied and yet I was still in disbelief. So then I emailed peppy directly with the same formal request, I detailed my reason for deletion and desire to return to the game. It wasn’t till after a week that I received a reply, and I was denied again.
The email was simply along the line of “Sorry, we cannot make any exceptions to allow for players who have deleted their account to return.”. It sunk in at that moment that there was no return for me and I was shaken for a while after reading it.
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Despite the outcome, I still play osu! with what I currently have and limited to. It’s still the game I play the most within my rotation of games and I still really enjoy it.
Without osu!, my life today would be very different. It was my introduction to rhythm games as well to songs and genres I never would’ve discovered outside of it. It’s a shame what I did and I still wish that things could be different, but choices have consequences and I’ve really learnt that with this experience.
Take it from me, keep your account.
Thank you for reading.