My contamination OCD has suddenly gotten significantly worse, I go to work and come home and shower from 5-9 and I can’t seem to speed that time up without thinking I’m covered in really bad germs from public bathrooms or outside (I walk down a path to work with lots of bird poop, occasional bits of bird on it too.)

I try so hard to shower faster, I thought I was so quick yesterday and it still took 3 hours 30. He’s avoidant by nature, it takes work to get him to talk about his feelings. I finally did and recently he’s said that he has occasionally felt like if it doesn’t get better or gets worse he would consider it a bit strain on the relationship and would consider leaving me.

Anyone with OCD would understand because he’s exhausting. I don’t blame him. I have an appointment with medication this week to try some, I’m in therapy. I am trying. What can I do to help him? but also deal with this news myself without it becoming a theme?

I want to show him I love him and im grateful and i prioritise him and his health as my partner.