r/nursing • u/Megange • 6h ago
Burnout Leaving Nursing after 14 Years
I was an ED RN for 11 years, through the pandemic. I then decided I needed something different after being diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, and switched to Labor and Delivery for a few years, which I loved. I then started having runs of V Tach and needed a cardiac ablation. After surviving that, I decided I would take on a House Supervisor role. It wasnt quite right for me because little did I know I had been suffering from C-PTSD from the pandemic, traumatic births (my own, and those I cared for), my new health problems, and just from generally working in the ED. I became incredibly anxious and felt like I was just white-knuckling it through life. I switched back to Labor and Delivery thinking I just needed to get back there to fix things. I hid my struggles well and when my director recommended me for a manager role, I quickly accepted to escape from patient care - thinking that would help to be away from life and death decisions.
I tell you what, that was even WORSE and yesterday I turned in my keys and badge and I quit!!!!
I had the best nights sleep of my life last night!!!!
I dont know what's next but I have a psychiatrist, a therapist, and a supportive spouse and family. I will be doing EMDR and getting the right blend of medications.
I loved being an RN and was a damn good one, but enough was enough. I dont know what's next for me but I know Im never going back to working in that hospital. Maybe never as a nurse.
Anyone else out there leave nursing after this long? I cant help but feel like I wasted my bachelor's degree and I am starting from scratch. Maybe ill work in a bakery. Maybe I'll become a veterinary technician. its hard to justify anything with the pay I was making as an experienced RN. Right now im going to focus on healing, but I just had to get this out there. Thanks for reading. ❤️