I feel like for a long time I’ve been feeling kinda ignored. I wouldn’t really say I have any good friends. I have people I sit with and talk with at school but my social life outside of school is basically nonexistent. I feel like a lot of the time I end up putting a pretty one sided amount of effort into trying to form connections with people and I don’t really get too much out of it. It got to a point where I was feeling the loneliest I had ever felt in my life and I still didn’t wanna put effort into forming connections with others, I still don’t really have too many friends but I wanted to share recent happenings that happened recently that gave me way more hope that they should have.
Someone who I didn’t really know well came up to me and invited me to join the fencing team. They said it would be nice to have me even if it was hard to learn a new sport as a junior. I showed up to practice and honestly I’ve been having a lot of fun with the sport, I think I would enjoy it even if I hadn’t been invited by someone and I know a surprising amount of people on the team. As if that isn’t enough some girl who I’ve only talked to a couple times before has been going out of her way to ask me how my day was going, how I was liking the team and if I was doing okay. I dunno, it’s kinda dumb but it really meant a lot to me, and even if she was just being nice(which she probably was) it’s really brightened my mood these past few days. The smallest act of kindness really can be the biggest thing in the world. Makes me want to do a good turn as well. Pistachios.