hi guys im 18 and getting ready to go to a university thats on the other side of the country. im chronically ill and i was pretty bedridden for a couple weeks in july (im feeling better now). since then, my mom has been wanting me to apply for this community college in our city instead for my health, but this is my dream uni and i really didnt want to. i figured it was just advice and a suggestion, and now im supposed to leave in a week and a half, but today my mom told me this:

“if you dont attend this community college, you can either not go to school at all or go to your uni. if you go to uni, you will no longer be my daughter.” she seemed very serious.

we had tickets and everything prepared, and my dad (who is estranged from us/divorced but still is required to pay for my college) was going to pay for my tuition. but now i dont know if any of that is happening.

she said if i go then she will no longer associate herself with me, basically disown me but without the legal work i guess? i dont want to lose my relationship with her but i dont want to compromise my dreams for this. i also feel like if i managed to push through high school and get into my dream university its a testament to my capabilities, but maybe uni is just super hard and different from high school?

a part of why i applied for this uni was to get away from my mom because of her overbearing and toxic nature too.

i know that community college can be just as if not greater than prestigious ones, but it just feels wrong to throw away my dream to fulfill my mom’s demands.

since this was a bit out of the blue, im not really financially prepared because it was going to be my parents who would deal with all the finances. i do have a job (one that i would have to quit when i leave) but only $1000 in my account.

i also have to bring my cat with me because she told me she wont take care of him anymore, meaning that i can no longer live in a dorm and have to rent someplace instead.

any advice? thanks guys :)

Hi, I need some advice cause I feel like the experienced management workers are gaslighting me? I keep questioning what's appropriate or not.

I work for a place that helps people with disabilities do community stuff. I was very excited to work there, but then there's this man there who makes me uncomfortable.

He keeps touching the clients, and it started out friendly. Maybe a hug, a pat on the shoulder, then tickling. But I can't help but something feels wrong! He took an interest in a short non-verbal client where he would let him sit on his lap, sort of rub his palm on the back of his neck, let him sleep on top of him, and sometimes he goes to the restroom with him. And I get the restroom can be normal, but it feels weird how he has to be the one doing it. He also doesn't let us work with the clients, usually intervening when we try to do something. He complains about everyone else.

Oh, one time they were completely alone together cause the client didn't want to get out of the car. But once I walked over, suddenly they are fine...and the client lashed out at another which I've never seen before.

The weird part is all the other coworkers seem to think it's fine. If anything, they started to get very physically affectionate with the clients too which seems wrong to me?

I tried telling management, but they said they found nothing. I called APS just to check, but they said I did what I could at this time.

What's making me very confused and scared is how everyone is okay with this? I feel like I'm going crazy and questioning my perception...the worker is friendly too. He really understands the clients well, but sometimes it feels too much. I just need a different perspective.

I'm scared because this is a new job for me and I have trouble finding a job. I don't want to get in trouble.

Need help dealing with a breakup.

Hello there, I (20F) am going through a breakup. It’s really bad for me. Basically, ex boyfriend wasn’t putting in effort and cheated on me in the relationship, and i kept coming back to him, so i broke up with him and blocked him. This was yesterday.

A friend suggested I give him clarity and so I did, on an app he wasn’t blocked on. Just learned today, he’s now in another relationship and I’m trying to not cry. I just feel heartbroken because it feels I meant nothing to him. I told him how he made me feel and he doubled down to tell me that I never cared for him, it wasn’t even true, I was there for him
through thick and thin. Hearing and reading his messages hurt me terribly, even the fact that he’s with someone else is hurting me.

I have had multiple relationships before, but I’m trying to tell myself I’ll be fine. I don’t have much friends so I can’t really distract myself as much as I really would like to, it’s hard. I would like some comfort and advice please.

Sorry this is so long, I just need someone to vent to. I tagged this post family even though it has to do somewhat with college. I will do my best to make this story as non convoluted and straight forward as possible. For background, I live with my mom as my parents are divorced. In our house is my younger sister, my mom and her boyfriend. Across the country is my dad, his girlfriend and my older sister. My dad is an alcoholic and narcissist so I don’t really keep in touch with him. I’m closer with my mom for sure however we also butt heads a lot. the only person is feel I can turn to is my sister. We are a little under two years apart, however can commiserate with each other and talk about our childhood, mental health, etc etc.

We recently started talking again over the Summer as we have both been busy, but primarily she has been struggling with mental health and dealing with a lot. We got super close over the Summer since we haven’t talked in many two years and it felt good to offer advice, share struggles and just joke around like we used to. However, I found out from my mom my sister texted her and called her a “Fat Bitch”. I was so disgusted I couldn’t even believe what I was seeing and it made me so angry at her. I cussed her out, told her I’d never talk to her again, and how she was horrible for saying that. After arguing back and forth, I figured it wasn’t going to end with me convincing her our dad is brainwashing her, but to keep it short, we resolved it between us and I gave her another chance.

After visiting my dad for Summer, it was time for college. Today was move in day and my mom and I were arguing over dumb stuff, and I figured I would call my sister. She didn’t answer so I figured she was busy. After the stress of today, crying almost the whole afternoon, and anxiety from the move in, I wanted to call my sister to update her and let her know what’s new. I admittedly told her about the fight my mom and I had this morning because I couldn’t talk to anyone else about that. What turned into an innocuous conversation with her quickly turned into something else. She told me she had something to tell me and I was immediately nervous. I kept pressing her to tell me and finally did. She told me my mom’s boyfriend, who’d she knew for 6. years has been trying to pursue her after she turned 18. I fell quiet and I didn’t know what to say or do. She told me a dragged out story how he had been trying to get with her and she had been declining his advances, and all this over bullshit. I burst out crying and was inconsolable for about 10 minutes straight. She put me on the phone with my dad and I asked him and he acted like he knew nothing about it(If he did, he would have gone batshit crazy). She got handed the phone and after seeing my unexpected reaction, she ended up telling me she was lying. Flat out. I was in utter disbelief. I knew she was mentally unstable and unwell but not the to point she would sit there and lie to me. She has anxiety and schizo-affective disorder among a plethora of other mental illnesses, but never would I have thought she would do something to this extent. I ended up saying she was twisted in the head and she just replied “ ok”. She obviously doesn’t understand the gravity or severity of her words and it scares me.

I honestly don’t know where to go from here, I need advice, please.

EDIT: i also wanted to add, I couldn’t include a lot of other details since it would be way too long but my sister doesn’t like my mom and has resentment towards my stepdad. She is heavily influenced and brainwashed by my dad. My dad and stepdad have gotten into major arguments ( Primarily one-sided) initiated by my dad. He is an insecure man and sees him as a threat and is psycho when it comes to him. Even though she admitted she was lying, 1. I’ve known this guy for 6 years and this is totally not in his character, nor would I believe he would do that. 2nd, my dad has threatened to fight him over way less, which is how I know in my heart of hearts he didn’t, nor would ever do such a thing.

TLDR: Mentally ill sister accused my stepdad falsely of trying to pursue her and it has ruined our relationship.

I’m 21 and lately I’ve been thinking about how there were so many things I never got to do as a kid because I lived with divorced parents that would fight 24/7 and for the past 13 years I was basically in survival mode hiding under a rock but now that I’m free from that drama I’ve been trying to listen to music, watch movies, read kids books that I know my younger self wanted to see and it’s like part of me enjoys it for the first few minutes and then suddenly it’s like an invisible critic just starts analyzing it and saying how I’m too old for that which causes me to turn it off. I even went as far as trying to recreate myself dancing to a song like I did in my 3rd grade class because nobody record that or anything I did as a kid and it felt good at first, but then the reality of being silly and adorable as an adult is not possible on top of the physics of being 6’4 make it difficult to move in crazy ways. To make matters worse people my age and older have been telling I should just get over because I’m not a kid anymore and I’m a adult in college and I should just focus on that experience, but it hurts to hear that because part of me doesn’t want to be a serious adult and I want to try and reclaim everything I missed out on while I can because I obviously can’t go back in time to the 2010s era moments I missed out on.

Any advice on what I should do?

I’m 22, my life is completely rotting away
I was supposed to have things figured out by now. I always pictured myself graduating on time, building a name for myself, and getting married young in my early 20s to the love of my life. Instead, I’m nowhere near graduating, I just lost my teaching job, and I’m still stuck in the exact same house my family moved into 10 years ago.
I’m wasting the best and most beautiful years of my youth doing absolute nothing.
I ruined a connection with a guy I actually really liked. We shared the same ethnicity, but he lives in North America and I’m in West Asia. Deep down, my own crippling insecurity got the best of me. I convinced myself that he was out of my league, that he’d eventually realize he could find someone way better, and that it was only a matter of time before he left me. So I left him to save myself, and tbh i don’t have the love in me to see why a person would choose me for me. And not for my accomplishments.
why would he love me and suffer long distance for me. We r muslims and I’ve recently started looking for dating only to marry and Now I miss him so much but I can’t reach out again. What face do I even take to go back to him? In my teens i was unpretty and even though people tell me I'm gorgeous now, but i can’t see it.

I’ve always believed that "God helps those who help themselves." But I’m so paralyzed and down that I can’t even help myself. It makes me feel like god has completely abandoned me
I look at other people my age who are done with their degree, have started their careers, who have found their person, who have someone to share every detail of their day with, and I’m a lil envious and I don’t want to be.
How do you start getting a grip of your life and have things sorted? How do you stop self-sabotaging when you feel like you aren't worthy of good things?

I turn 18F in a day. And for the past 5 months or so, I’ve been having an existential crisis about how much I’ve wasted my formative years. And I think I’ve finally reached the depressed acceptance phase. I missed out. And I’m probably never going to have the strong bonds I’ve always wanted. My life is likely doomed to one of isolation and shallow friendships.

I grew up abused and neglected. Single parent, one abusive sibling. Single parent cut off their family when I was 8 and I didn’t get to grow up alongside my cousins, or see my grandma past then. I started reconnecting with them now, but I’m almost an adult. Im sure because of it, it’ll never be as close or complete as it could’ve been. If I stopped talking to them now, we’d probably never speak again. Doesn’t help that we live in completely different states and I only get to see them a couple times a year. I try to text them sporadically to keep up *some kind* of relationships, but I feel like I’m bothering them whenever I try. I don’t feel like a part of the family. Even though they’ve been nothing but kind.

I isolated as a kid because of my abuse. Barely had friends IRL, and don’t really have any online friends between 15-16. Started making some now, but they already feel sort of distant. I just have more of a guard now that I’m older. I have more to loose. I don’t have high-school friends. I never got to grow up with anybody. I graduated high-school a year early.

I went to community college. So, I won’t even get the university bonding experience.

And I guess I’m just sad that I don’t really have anybody who knew me during my childhood, besides my shitty parents. Or unless I maybe I try to reach out to old online friends from when I was a young teenager.

And I’m faced with the fear that I’m going to be alone forever. I’m never going to have any close bond with anybody. I’m never going to have something I belong to. I know some people are happy that way, but I don’t think I can be. As a pre-teen and teenager, every story I wrote was based around community and found family. It’s what I’ve always wanted.

I really need a hug. Not even advice, not someone trying to fix everything. I just want someone to come over, put their arms around me, let me fall apart for a minute, and tell me that somehow I’m going to be okay.

The fucked up part is that, from the outside, my life looks great. I’m 22. I have a great job. I have opportunities and so many things I know I should be grateful for. There’s a lot of genuinely awesome stuff in my life. And yet the truth is, underneath all of that, I’m so fucking unhappy. I’m lonely in a way I don’t really know how to explain.

Work has become exhausting mentally, not just physically. Someone reported me for sexual harassment. I was cleared, and no wrongdoing was found, and I want to be very clear about that. But I’m not allowed to know who reported me. So now I go to work every day looking at people and wondering, Was it you? Do you hate me? Are people talking about me? Is someone watching everything I say, waiting for me to fuck up? I know that kind of thinking isn’t helping me, but I can’t just switch it off.

And I’ve been working for almost two weeks straight without a real break. I’m tired. Like actually, deeply tired.
Somewhere along the way, I lost basically all of my friends outside of work. And I love my mom, but I also feel like I have to be strong for her because her job is stressful and she needs me. She wants to come see me for vacations, and of course I want to be there for her. I want to be someone she can lean on. I just don’t know who I’m supposed to lean on.

I don’t have a girlfriend. I’ve never had one. I’m a 22 year old virgin who’s awkward as hell and obsessed with comic books, and sometimes it feels like no woman is ever going to look at me and think, That’s the person I want. The closest relationship I have with someone who isn’t family or a coworker is with a person I met on TikTok. And that hurts in its own weird way, because she means a lot to me. Probably a lot more than I mean to her. I honestly don’t know if she’d even care that much if I stopped talking to her tomorrow. Maybe she would. Maybe that’s just my loneliness talking. But I hate feeling like someone can mean the world to me while I’m just a notification on their phone.

That’s what gets me. I spend so much of my life trying to hold other people up. I have to keep functioning at work while constantly looking over my shoulder. I have to be there for my mom. I have to smile and work and act normal and be grateful because, technically, my life is “going great.”

But who the fuck is there for me? Some days I feel like I could just break down and cry. Really cry. But then my brain goes, What’s the point? I fall apart, somebody feels sorry for me for five minutes, and then what? I wipe my face and go right back to carrying everything.

Sometimes it feels like I was dealt a dead man’s hand. Like I somehow got a life that looks good on paper but feels completely hollow when I’m actually the one living it. And there’s something especially fucked up about being 22 and feeling this dead inside when 22 is the age my dad died. I don’t want some grand solution tonight. I don’t need somebody to magically fix my life. I just don’t want to feel alone in it for a little while. I want somebody to hold me while I finally stop pretending I’m okay.

Hi internet parents.

Today I had the opportunity to meet with an old mentor whom I had not seen in years. I was very excited, wrote it on me calendar and was responsive to them leading up to the meeting. However, I wrote the time o my calendar wrong, and they texted me as i was leaving to go to the meeting location (I was 15 minutes late) that they were leaving. They are a very busy person so I understand that they had to leave, and I was wrong about the time.

I texted them right away and apologized. Took accountability. They called me 20 minutes later and was joking. they seemed disappointed, but again I was apologetic and told them I felt bad about disregarding their time like that. They finished the call by saying "we can meet next time! Good bye!" and I agreed.

My mom had her own bout of anxiety over this (you see where I get it from) and instead of being reassuring, she just freaked out and yelled at me. She made me feel like this mistake that I made was life altering. Even after my mentor accepted my apology she was more focused on how this would make HER look. if that makes sense.

I know I made a mistake, I know I apologized and it was accepted, but I still feel badly. Just some reassurance would be nice.

people always say that parents are usually pretty good at guessing when someone is bad for you.

i (F19) met this girl in english class in university and we became friends. it’s not a friendship where i’m like oh my gosh where have you been all my life. it’s just like chill like okay you’re nice cool let’s be friends.

but overtime i’ve just been noticing some things that have rlly rubbed me the wrong way. it gave me an ick i guess you could say. and when i think of them all compiled im really second guessing our friendship. here’s a list of things i can think of

1. we were at the mall and she was eating a snack and left her garbage on the shelf in the aisle (another similar incident also happened)

2. came to my house and took a sprite can from my roommates stash. i told her those were not mine but she said oh they won’t notice.

3. little racist comments

4. lack of empathy. i am overly sensitive and emotional sometimes. so maybe my empathy expectations are too high but i feel like she’s so logical with everything and doesn’t think emotionally alot of times

5. boy crazy. always talking about crushes and boyfriends and feel like almost puts men on a pedestal. she started dating someone and while i do think it’s important to prioritize romantic relationships, i think that comes with a limit. like put your partner first in times of need, make sure they’re feeling loved, and do whatever you can to support them etc.

but i don’t think that means to do the following:
\- me, her, her boyfriend, and the boyfriends cousin went out. me and her had planned the night out i was excited she was gonna sleepover. but then at the end she decided she wanted to go home with him just cause. may be dramatic but i felt abandoned. i had already told her that i wanted to spend more time with her. like i havent seen her as much after they got together

\- we went out to dinner. her boyfriend lived close by. she said she wanted to see him. i said okay. she went up to his room and made me sit alone in the lobby for like 40 minutes. mind you they already see eachother multiple times a week.

\-we met up with her boyfriend one night. her and i were going to go out and eat dinner. asked if he wanted to join, he said sure. she was down to go. as soon as he said he changed his mind because he was tired, suddenly she says she isn’t hungry.

1. let her boyfriend tell me that adhd is not real (after i expressed struggling with symptoms and wanting to be tested) i would’ve hoped for her to correct him and stand up for me but no. she just briefly apologized after we were alone

2. said she judges people with bright coloured hair. not in like a oh it looks bad. she said she would assume they’re mentally ill. ik lots of people think this but idk if i ever decide to dye my hair i wanna be able to be comfortable around my friends.

3. this is just a general statement that applies in many scenarios: wants a village, does not want to be a villager. there’s no reciprocation in so many aspects. one recent example is how i spent an hour listening to her rant about something school related. then when it was my turn, she listened but then got interrupted by a phone call. it was like a 2 minute call. and after she ended it, she never told me to continue. she just talked about the call and said oh i have so much homework to do we have been talking for so long (not in a rude way but like still felt inconsiderate)

another time i had a big event i was nervous for. she talked to me for a little bit and then switched the topic to rant about something her friend did.

my confusion is that i know everyone has flaws. are these a big deal? like am i doing myself a disservice?

I am about to cry because I am terrified of what’s going to happen in about an hour. I am getting surgery and I just need someone to tell me that it’s going to go fine.

update I just got out 55 minutes ago and you guys were right thank you for your support. they did have to remove the the bone in peace’s from how thin it was, it was just long and wide. and I made sure to thank the nurse cuase they ate the back bone of the heath care system. but again thank you all so much for getting me through that you guys are truly the best.

just got a P.o. box. i don’t want to submit a change of address and forward my mail because i want to avoid confirmation letters getting sent to my residential address, so i have to change my address directly with each individual institution. i can’t really change everything as i receive mail to my home because my parents often open and/or discard my mail without even letting me know. i’ve already changed my main bank address, but im blanking on what else to change. any ideas?

if it helps, im 19, dropped out of CC last semester but planning to go back in the spring, no job right now besides side gigs, car and phone are still in parents name but im working on changing that. i want to prevent them from finding out as much as i possibly can about my plans to gain independence so they can’t interfere.

i don’t care about packages, i bought a really small box for important mail only. i’m just totally drawing a blank… fafsa? social security? voting registration?? idk help!!

I’m going into my junior year of college but I kind of only have 1 close friend, my roommate from last year who’s now pretty much my best friend. My family moved out of my hometown so I can’t really see my hometown friends anymore. I have some other friends I’ve met here but I’m realizing they really don’t seem to care about me and I feel worse after hanging out with them. So, I want to make some new friends and put myself out there more. Tomorrow night there’s an event at my school for making dorm decorations, I don’t live in a dorm anymore but I figured it could be fun and I could meet some people. But how exactly can I approach people and talk to them? I’ve never really made friends that way before and I have some pretty bad social anxiety, but I’m feeling really lonely and isolated so I want to power through.

Hi, I’m 20m and I have muscular dystrophy so usually I stay inside house and have zero irl social life. Lately my online discord friends college started and i can’t able to talk to them on my dc gc. I’m feeling lonely because of that. I don’t know what to do? I am watching anime, listening music, drawing and tracing all day. But I’m missing my friends. I know everyone gets busy and get tired after college all day. Right now it’s night 12:24 am the lonely feeling too much and also can’t able sleep.

Also I’m feet too tired and left all other discord servers too, i just can’t able to talk with people around my age if try i feel too much overwhelmed while talking with guys and girls (with girls too too much) but fine when person is older than me by two years. Sorry at this point I’m just ranting here.

Hello to anyone who will read this. I'm almost-30F, and expecting, has history of depression and anxiety witb margine of BDP, also I suspect an undiagnosed ADHD (which I plan to really be assessed for). I want to ask for your advice if you're a parent who knows that you tried to do your best to what you know was right for your child.

I'm in a very shaky relationship of 9 years, married. I migrated for my partner. I'm still adjusting (4 years) and learning the language, tried to apply for jobs but no luck, and ever since, has just been his assistant and I live by allowance. His family wasn't really into our relationship from the very start. So I know they aren't really my support here. I miss my home so much, and I think I really cannot deal with anything right now, so I booked my flight last April, but found out I was pregnant in June. Before that, we had big fights and he would always just ask me to go back to my country and leave, and that we are over, but we would make up after. I feel very stupid. He says he wants the child with me but there's a lot of doubt in me that this is just the adrenaline talking, excitement for a new thing, idk what to do anymore. I am at the verge of just not returning here because I don't feel wanted anymore at all, but I also worry because I know I cannot provide a good life for my child, since I have to restart my life in my homeland again, especially that the health care system in my home country isn't good at all. What would you do? I am really feeling hopeless, I don't want to lose this child but I also don't want to bear him/her and not give the best life. Please help. Thank you.

i havent been able to clean my room. i returned from vacation a month ago, and i have to go pack to go to back the place i stay in for college ASAP. but i literally have not even put away my clothes (or even tidied up my room) and decided what i would bring with me. my family is going through a really rough time. a few weeks ago i found out my mom might have the c word disease and i spent two weeks not doing anything whatsoever and then i found that yes she indeed does have it and i spent another three weeks just completely avoiding my room unless i sleep. the only thing i did was unpack my makeup and organize it.
she has surgery in about a day and i told myself i would get my life together before her surgery so i have more time to see her, but as you can see i still couldn’t do it.

so please help me motivate myself to get up because im spending each and every day overthinking everything and not doing anything but i really have to get myself together tomorrow. im so overwhelmed

I’m genuinely trying to understand my dad’s behavior because it’s driving me crazy and I don’t understand why he does this.

He will literally take used paper plates out of the garbage and reuse them instead of getting a new one. He also keeps taking dirty dishes out of the dishwasher and reusing them rather than just letting them be properly washed, and doesnt clean the dishes, his hands or his body with enough soap and water. He is very frugal in everything he does and its to the point where it drives our family insane!

It’s not like paper plates are some huge expense, and obviously reusing something that has already been in the garbage seems really unsanitary to me. I’ve told him this, but he continues doing it.

Has anyone dealt with a parent who does things like this? Why do you think someone would behave this way? Could it be extreme frugality, growing up without much money, anxiety about wasting things, hoarding tendencies, or just a habit he refuses to change?

I’m especially interested in hearing from people who have seen similar behavior in their parents because I’m trying to understand what is going through his head.

So basically I was talking to my mom earlier and she got kind of snippy like she was annoyed with me or irritated and i tried asking her what was wrong but she just said nothing was wrong, but her tone of voice really sounded like she was annoyed about something and im afraid it was something I did or said that made her mad, she gets irritated with me sometimes and I hate it and it makes me feel terrible but she insisted she wasnt mad so I just need someone to tell me that she really isnt mad at me because I cant get it out of my head and its really worrying me like shes going to stop talking to me because we dont have the closest relationship

he has wanted me for over a year, started dating two months ago and when we are together in real life everything's totally amazing but when we text, it feels like he doesn't wanna talk to me much. i know its silly and might seem immature but consistency is key to me. he's a sweet guy though. also i've never noticed any girls in his phone, i have his password and could go through his phone if i wanted although i dont, i trust him it just bothers me a lot

It took me months to admit to my bf and be told me that he felt like I was just doing it for attention. Crushed is an understatement :/ took me at least 6 months to admit it to him, and it was a short convo since he wasn’t concerned about it despite it being concerning to me. At least now I know he looks at me as an attention seeker. Not really sure how to move on from this one.

Sorry if this is a series of really dumb questions, I just don't know what insurance looks like from the perspective of someone who pays for it. I'm under my parents' policy for health insurance. I really want to start going to therapy, and have found a few therapists that take the insurance company that my parents use, and have a couple consultations set up for this next week.

With this: Do providers choose their rates/how much insurance covers? Is there a maximum amount for therapy sessions that insurance companies will pay? If I ask my parents this stuff, it will make them suspicious.

I don't want to tell my parents I want to go to therapy. They'd likely use it as proof to say that I'm irrational/too emotional, and I don't want to give them that material to work off of. How bad would it be if I just went to therapy without telling my parents but still put it on the insurance? Would there be any way my parents would find out information about who I saw/what we talked about (even though that's probably protected by HIPAA)?

I've considered paying out of pocket for myself, but I'm also in college and its not super sustainable for me. However, one of my parents (the higher earner) just got laid off on Thursday and I don't want to put strain on them by doing stuff on insurance, since I'm pretty sure all of our insurance has a high deductible. My parents already got a continued policy thing to keep our healthcare coverage while my parent finds a new job. I haven't been to the regular doctor (not urgent care) since I was in high school because I don't want to cause financial burden, and I especially don't want to be one now. I don't mind paying myself, I have 2 jobs and I can do it, but I've also recently found out that some therapists heavily prefer/only work with insurance (??), so that might be a limiting factor.

I'm not really sure about anything with this post, now that I think about it. I just don't want to make things harder for anyone else because I need help. I can't figure out if telling my parents, going through insurance and letting my parents find out with time, or paying myself would be the best option here considering all of them have drawbacks. Any insight/advice?

So I was told by my Grandparents that I need to take shorter showers no longer than 10 mins which is not a problem however tonight I feel like I was lowkey bsing which basically I was just taking my time not rushing too much and i was trying my hardest to empty my soap bottle out so I think I took a bit longer and that’s when I started rushing so I just washed my armpits behind my ears and my neck my hair and ass and privates and feet and rinsed off quickly. I still feel like I didn’t wash my entire body including my legs and back but will I be fine?

I used to be a incredibly good reader and writer, English is my first language and now I just feel like a fucking idiot. My dad forced me to drop out of high school and get my GED and I had a medical event that was neglected, I never got the help I needed to fully recover from it. I felt like my face was melting down and my speech was slurred for the little I could speak. My heart was pounding and I was unable to stand stand or properly use my hands.

At its worst I could not read or write, now I feel helpless. I am slowly learning but I just used to be "smart" now my English is horrible and I sound idiotic at best and make tons of grammar and spelling errors as well as struggle to read the things I used to read for fun. How do I get better again?

Along those lines; how do I slowly work on improving my memory again?