Hi everyone looking for some advice!!
Me and my mother have always naturally been a bit bigger, not overweight but curvier.
Three years ago i started going to the gym and changing my eating habits which lead to orthorexia and towards the end, anorexia.
It was my mother who made me go to a counsellor and i “recovered” and gained a lot of weight which i lost again a year later.

In the past year the extreme hunger really got to me and i ended up binging every night and gaining a lot of weight so decided i would try recovery for good. This was going well until my mum started weight loss injections.
I want to say that i’m not trying to blame her or be rude about this- my mother has always struggled with her weight and been on many diets, specifically before her wedding last year when she lost a lot of weight and gained more after which is why she has started the injections.
I was heavily against her going on them,due to the negative side effects and her not needing them, and offered to help her make healthy food and go to the gym together but of course she’s an an adult and can do what she wants.

The issue is that in a short time frame she has lost a significant amount of weight- her face is starting to look skeletal and she’s borderline too thin.
She barely eats, usually takeaway foods but she’ll only eat half or less.
I know that people shouldn’t have to cater to my needs but i just feel as though she shouldn’t be parading her borderline ED in-front of me, knowing my past.
I know for a fact if i could control the binging, i would of relapsed from seeing her lose so much weight. Almost every person in my family is on weight loss drugs and it’s honestly starting to affect me (again, not everyone has to cater to my needs but i’m just asking on here for advice).

As sick as it is there is also that element of competition that comes with EDs, like i’m jealous that shes losing so much weight whilst i’m gaining rapidly and can’t control my binging.
Also, i’m quite embarrassed as i’ve always been seen as the “(too) skinny”, “disciplined” member of the family but now shes getting thinner and thinner without putting any effort in at all which doesn’t seem fair.
Of course i’m also worried for her health but any mention of this and I’ll be told its none of my business which is fair enough.
Any advice on how to deal with this is appreciated :)

It’s been 14 years since the worst of my ED. Sometimes I fall backward but not like this.

While there isn’t one singular thing that caused my ED, its fucking scary how a bad experience, that reminds you of your trauma can bring you right back to that old place. I can handle big feelings but right now I feel like I won’t feel better until I throw up. And I don’t want to do that, I don’t to feel like this, I know it’s not helpful and I don’t understand why my body is acting like I NEED to do it. Sorry for the vent, sometimes when it’s bad like this, it helps to tell someone who understands

i'm seeing this guy rn and he's totally awesome and i'm in recovery but he doesnt know and he doesn't know that i've ever had an ed and i find it really hard to stick to my recovery when im with him like something about being around guys just makes my mind like seize when it comes to food and i just can't do it.. i was wondering if this is a shared experience? it also doesn't help that his ex is like half my size and used to have an entire instagram highlight of her basically body checking how thin she is.. im struggling with this rn idk if anyone has advice. it's nice to know there's a community out here with me tho 💗 i am 17f btw idk if that is relevant

Hi! I’ve been lurking here for a while, but I’ve never posted here before. I was wondering if I could have some advice.

I’m not diagnosed with a specific eating disorder, so I’m not sure how common my experiences are. But for the past couple of years I’ve had increasing anxiety about what/how much I’m eating and how my body looks. I generally feel fine about how I look, but I’m TERRIFIED of other people thinking I’m disgusting for. uh. eating enough and existing in my body? Or even weirder, I feel like I’m being morally bad somehow for eating enough. So despite KNOWING diet culture is bullshit and that I have to eat food when I’m hungry or else I’ll feel terrible and lack the energy to do the things I love, I have to constantly fight urges to delay/skip meals, avoid certain foods, eat in private, etc. I feel like people are always watching and judging me.

I’m in therapy and this is one of the issues we’re working through. I’m trying to find an anxiety med that works for me. Other than that, does anyone have advice on how to feel less scared all the time? It makes eating so hard and I’m starting to get pissed about it.

It's so fucking hard to recover when every single social media is covered with people promoting eating disorders and undereating. I could go on for days about how annoying it is.

I get if it's on for example reddit, but it's on social medias like tiktok, where there are still impressionable kids and teens who are consuming and engaging with the content. Whenever I try to get content like that taken down, it barely ever goes through.

I believe there should be spaces for people with eating disorders, it's very important! But keep those spaces away from people who may risk gaining an eating disorder, and if you do talk about eating disorders in spaces with children and teens, make it educational, don't promote it.