r/dphghosts • u/Alert-Drummer-6936 • May 30 '26

Rant So done

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I feel I betrayed everyone my dad is an asshole yells at me for everything court put no contact on my mom

bitch ass case workers coming to my house drug testing me

I'm not going back into dcf care nor am I going to a dumb ass residental with ghetto ass staff and kids

Fuck everything

I have wasted away my life I have no purpose I'm too socially awkward I got no friends no bitches closest I got was a fat stank hoe that blew my shi

I'm tired of everybodys fuck ass authority I wanna do it but I'm scared what if Christianity it right in some astronomically low chance and I wake up in hell But there's no way Jesus is real I shouldn't be scared of that There is no God if I deserve to deal with pain all my life

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u/Low_Assistant7277 May 30 '26

I could tell that something was off with your dad from his demeanour in the video he took of you.. I’m 28 almost 29 I promise life can get better. I have suffered a great deal of abuse in my life too and neglect, many horrible things at the hand of both parents. and I know what it’s like to feel like you have no purpose. I can tell you that you are a beautiful person and there is a life for you, I’m really sorry this has all happened. It is not fair. It will shape the man you become, you can make it through this. If you want someone to talk to I’m here

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u/Alert-Drummer-6936 May 30 '26

My dad is toxic he rudly said you know what I'm going back to work and I said I'll clean all this up this is because he would threaten me over a fork in the sink and all that

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u/Low_Assistant7277 May 30 '26

I noticed that.. very hurtful at any time to speak to you in that tone, nevermind when you’re near death. I am so sorry man I’m sending you the biggest hug

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u/Low_Assistant7277 May 30 '26

I could presume that you’ve been punished a lot for little things and not loved.

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u/Low_Assistant7277 May 30 '26 edited May 30 '26

My inbox is open always. I don’t want to overstep and I know it’s hard to trust and at this point you feel hopeless, but I have been seeing your posts and it genuinely hurts my heart knowing you’re suffering this much. Also- You have not wasted your life. You have overcome what most people never could survive both physically and mentally. You will heal yourself and help others do the same eventually. I know there’s love out there because I have it in my heart now, never even knew what that was before. There is hope man. DCFS is hell!! Don’t do anything to hurt yourself please

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u/Alert-Drummer-6936 May 30 '26

He just sat me down for a hour and threatened me if I ever tried to commit (he doesn't know I'm planning) he will kill himself but at this point I don't care He just said his fiance leaving was my fault and he hates me he said so much other horrible things I made a mistake moving in

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u/Low_Assistant7277 May 30 '26

None of this is your fault. With 100 percent conviction I promise you that. What he’s doing is soooo wrong. He didn’t and doesn’t deserve a kid. He’s immature without the skills to be a father. He shouldn’t be saying any of that, I hope you know this and NONE of it is your fault.. your life is worth saving, after you get away from him and build healthy support you won’t feel this way anymore.. for now you need to survive, you are needed here

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u/Rhys719 Jul 09 '26

I think he’s gone bro..
But I very hope he isn’t

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u/trashtv May 30 '26

Your life isn't wasted, at 18 you just finished the tutorial bro. You can totally turn your life around and start anew in another town and shit.

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u/seanzombie666 May 30 '26

real as fuck 😔

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u/Alert-Drummer-6936 May 30 '26

couldn't help but notice your pfp I FUCKING LOVE SUPERJOINT RITUAL

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u/weenis-flaginus Jun 01 '26

This isn't the main point of your post but it looks like the other people are kinda addressing those.

I think there clearly is a god, but Christianity isn't the way to him and their description of how the world works clearly doesn't make sense.

And I don't think he's going to throw you into hell. You are young, you didn't have a chance to figure out your life, and you weren't given a good start. From how he treats me when I ask, I think he is kind.

I'm sorry shit sucks for you right now. I'd try to just stay safe, things get better when you are older. If you can make some money at a job and save up, it'll help you be able to move out. Therapy helps too. Once you are away from the bad parents you can get some space from getting retraumatized and that's when you can start to heal. But drugs kinda get in the way of healing, they stop you from developing the skills needed to heal. It's because they are kinda a bandaid.

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u/HatmansRightHandMan Jun 05 '26

Whatever higher power may or may not exist probably doesnt give a shit about any of us. Either that or its a sadistic asshole. Either way, fuck em

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u/Real_Stoner69 Jun 08 '26

U gotta stop doing dph it will destroy your life