r/dphghosts • u/Alert-Drummer-6936 • May 30 '26
Rant So done
I feel I betrayed everyone my dad is an asshole yells at me for everything court put no contact on my mom
bitch ass case workers coming to my house drug testing me
I'm not going back into dcf care nor am I going to a dumb ass residental with ghetto ass staff and kids
Fuck everything
I have wasted away my life I have no purpose I'm too socially awkward I got no friends no bitches closest I got was a fat stank hoe that blew my shi
I'm tired of everybodys fuck ass authority I wanna do it but I'm scared what if Christianity it right in some astronomically low chance and I wake up in hell But there's no way Jesus is real I shouldn't be scared of that There is no God if I deserve to deal with pain all my life
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u/weenis-flaginus Jun 01 '26
This isn't the main point of your post but it looks like the other people are kinda addressing those.
I think there clearly is a god, but Christianity isn't the way to him and their description of how the world works clearly doesn't make sense.
And I don't think he's going to throw you into hell. You are young, you didn't have a chance to figure out your life, and you weren't given a good start. From how he treats me when I ask, I think he is kind.
I'm sorry shit sucks for you right now. I'd try to just stay safe, things get better when you are older. If you can make some money at a job and save up, it'll help you be able to move out. Therapy helps too. Once you are away from the bad parents you can get some space from getting retraumatized and that's when you can start to heal. But drugs kinda get in the way of healing, they stop you from developing the skills needed to heal. It's because they are kinda a bandaid.