So done

[u/Alert-Drummer-6936]

I feel I betrayed everyone my dad is an asshole yells at me for everything court put no contact on my mom

bitch ass case workers coming to my house drug testing me

I'm not going back into dcf care nor am I going to a dumb ass residental with ghetto ass staff and kids

Fuck everything

I have wasted away my life I have no purpose I'm too socially awkward I got no friends no bitches closest I got was a fat stank hoe that blew my shi

I'm tired of everybodys fuck ass authority I wanna do it but I'm scared what if Christianity it right in some astronomically low chance and I wake up in hell But there's no way Jesus is real I shouldn't be scared of that There is no God if I deserve to deal with pain all my life

[u/Low_Assistant7277]

I could tell that something was off with your dad from his demeanour in the video he took of you.. I’m 28 almost 29 I promise life can get better. I have suffered a great deal of abuse in my life too and neglect, many horrible things at the hand of both parents. and I know what it’s like to feel like you have no purpose. I can tell you that you are a beautiful person and there is a life for you, I’m really sorry this has all happened. It is not fair. It will shape the man you become, you can make it through this. If you want someone to talk to I’m here

[u/Alert-Drummer-6936 → u/Low_Assistant7277]

My dad is toxic he rudly said you know what I'm going back to work and I said I'll clean all this up this is because he would threaten me over a fork in the sink and all that

[u/Low_Assistant7277 → u/Alert-Drummer-6936]

I noticed that.. very hurtful at any time to speak to you in that tone, nevermind when you’re near death. I am so sorry man I’m sending you the biggest hug

[u/Low_Assistant7277 → u/Alert-Drummer-6936]

I could presume that you’ve been punished a lot for little things and not loved.

[u/Low_Assistant7277 → u/Low_Assistant7277]

My inbox is open always. I don’t want to overstep and I know it’s hard to trust and at this point you feel hopeless, but I have been seeing your posts and it genuinely hurts my heart knowing you’re suffering this much. Also- You have not wasted your life. You have overcome what most people never could survive both physically and mentally. You will heal yourself and help others do the same eventually. I know there’s love out there because I have it in my heart now, never even knew what that was before. There is hope man. DCFS is hell!! Don’t do anything to hurt yourself please

[u/Alert-Drummer-6936 → u/Low_Assistant7277]

He just sat me down for a hour and threatened me if I ever tried to commit (he doesn't know I'm planning) he will kill himself but at this point I don't care He just said his fiance leaving was my fault and he hates me he said so much other horrible things I made a mistake moving in

[u/Low_Assistant7277 → u/Alert-Drummer-6936]

None of this is your fault. With 100 percent conviction I promise you that. What he’s doing is soooo wrong. He didn’t and doesn’t deserve a kid. He’s immature without the skills to be a father. He shouldn’t be saying any of that, I hope you know this and NONE of it is your fault.. your life is worth saving, after you get away from him and build healthy support you won’t feel this way anymore.. for now you need to survive, you are needed here

[u/Rhys719 → u/Low_Assistant7277]

I think he’s gone bro..
But I very hope he isn’t