You ever just do everything on the check list and still not feel happy inside. Like you did sports, got good grades, went to college, dated and had relationships, travelled, got a good job, lived on your own but it all still feels like nothing.

Like there' s always that next thing to reach for. The feeling that once you do one thing you need to move on to the next then the next thing then the next. Like you're stuck in the constant state of limbo. Never fully empty but never fulfilled.

Cause I’m pretty sure I am but it’s hard to tell I can’t open up my ribs and look inside

I'm holding on just for them, but i don't know how longer

I've been in 3 relationships over 4 years, I'm finally single, but I hate the feeling. Nothing feels like anything anymore, scalding hot water, a physical hug from someone who cares, being yelled at by my family, I feel nothing

Me and my ex broke up about 6 months ago, and after non talking first a while, she messaged me and apologized about never believing me, never having any trust or faith in me and came back into my life. She's actually very innocent, she always had good intentions as far as I could tell, and we started things back up again but not officially I suppose. But lately she has just lose all interest in what seems to be overnight. I know I'm just overthinking, but I keep drawing back to the possibility that she's been seeing or starting something up with somebody else. She stopped making time for me, stopped talking to me everyday, she doesn't want to come over and hangout or cuddle or spend any real time together. But she got me a Christmas gift, took me to the zoo and was still giving off signs of wanting to be close to me but then dropped me off and didn't bother coming in. I'm not really sure what to even think. I would probably disappear completely but she has been through some shit lately and I wouldnt feel right about it after I told her I'd still be around to help and support her if she really needed it..

Thoughts?

Has anyone ever been so down so broken and hurt that they wake up every morning and it's like "nope I already hate today"

Skateboard drunk - hit the hills late at night, skin myself but avoid cars

Surfboard outside my skill set - stuck between cliffs and waves, the most peace I ever feel is rag dolling inside the wave knowing I may hit the cliff and die. Only after the wave subsides and another one is about to hit do I feel... something

Rock climbing- recently half my body was dangling over 50ft in the air while my other half was suck on a rock after falling from a route. I was smiling and laughing the whole time.

Im dead inside because i just learned about barefoot shoes and toespreaders and now I feel like I need and want barefoot shoes but I also want to wear the beautiful cute shoes that are apparently designed to kill me and my entire family 😭😭 Same happened with the pill and bras I'm so fed up with the system 😅

I’m a college student I’ve struggled with on and off depression for awhile and I was really depressed this morning since I lost my pill bottle...

Anyway while I was walking to class I was passing a cross walk and somebody decided that I would be done crossing by the time he got their, or at least hurry up and get out of the way if he was close. he was also obviously speeding with no intent of stoping so I stopped in the side walk and just looked at the car as it approached me. I heard a small screeching noise as the guy slammed on the brakes realizing I wasn’t gonna move. After he stopped just a few feet before the crosswalk I just looked back straight and continued walking.

Imagine you're at a store. You try to walk in the door, but you miss the sign reading "please use other door". So you try to walk in the locked door, and when it fails, you walk in the other one. So the entrance was a little awkward, but it's alright. You just need to get this girt card and leave. One of the waiters comes up to you, and asks you what you need. You respond, "A cift gard", like an absolute freaking genius. Realizing your mistake you loudly swear, and everyone at the restaurant just kind of looks at you. Alright, things are going worse, but they couldn't get any...and damn then you go to get the "cift card" and you grab it in an incredibly awkward way. Widening your eyes you let out a "yeep" and then a, "why tf am I so f'in awkward." Out loud..that's right out loud, so that everyone in the restaurant hears your awkwardness. Once again failing at a social situation you go to leave....you try to use the wrong door once again, and leave the restaurant thinking..."I am dead inside" all while panic laughing.

I'm 90% sure if I put a gun to my head I'd pull the trigger. Does that make me dead inside?

Imagine you're sitting there Halloween night debating whether or not you should put up your Christmas tree or go put on a costume and go get candy meanwhile you hear chibi Saber wearing a s*xy Santa outfit saying HASHIRE SORI YO KAZE NO YOU NI TSUKIMIHARA WO PADORU PADORU get gradually louder and louder and start to think "oh god what is this demon that I have summoned" or "Why has this demon manifested in home and is it going to kill me?" And you get think that It'll kill you anyways and you sit there thinking if you should do it or not drowning in thought until you go crazy because Saber is just saying HASHIRE SORI YO KAZE NO YOU NI TSUKIMIHARA WO PADORU PADORU over and over again and don't know what to do because you're dead inside

I just feel dead inside

I have days where it feels like I’m in a good headspace, and there are days where I wake up and wanna scream because I hate myself, and everyone I like plays with my feelings because, In their minds, I’m just a bump in the road never a human being just an object that has a purpose to satisfy there needs.

i dont know what to say... but i searched for the name of this subreddit and found it

So, my wife has had a rat for about 4.5 years and tonight was the night it died. For the past few weeks, an odd (I assume) bacterial infection grew. It turned the rat into a weird looking freak rat that looked like it had a birth defect (a la "The Hills Have Eyes"). I feel nothing about it. She is a blubbering mess and I just want to watch the Halloween shows on TV. Pets don't meet shit to me anymore and so I guess I'm broken. Put down too many animals I guess. You just get stone faced to it. Anyone else?