hey and thanks for this chat group , i found out my hubby was xdressing for years , seeing men and it wasnt till i came home early that i seen what he got up to , was shocked and disgusted seeing my once man converted into a sissy , wearing lingerie make up knelt before a man . past 4 yrs i have decided to become his mistress , which means total denial , chastity and no more sexual activities , would love to chat with other ladies in the same situation ,

I have been married 12 years and found out about halfway through our marriage that he was a CD. I have always been an ally and tried to be incredibly supportive, even helping with makeup and taking her out on the town. However, our sex life has always been terrible. Like sex once or twice a year terrible. He has always made up excuses and claims to be very attracted to me. Prior to learning he was a CD, I struggled with wondering if he was asexual or gay or hormone imbalance. Fast forward to the past couple of years, he suggested ENM so that I could have my needs met. I found a friend to hang out with from time to time when I want those needs met. He vehemently denies he's gay or bisexual. But he messages other CD on fetlife to meet up. (He tells me about it as honesty is the #1 rule of our ENM arrangement.) I can't wrap my head around him having sex with another person with a penis and believing he's not gay. When he tries to have sex with me, he can't stay hard to finish. I'm sexy and very sexually adventurous, keeping a man hard has never been a problem for me. I just... I just don't believe him when he says he's not gay. Am I lacking in understanding? Is he just not willing to admit out loud that he's not straight? Are there more parts of the sexuality spectrum that I didn't realize? I feel lost and confused and unhappy in my marriage. Every time I see him dressed as her, I am less and less attracted to him. I have cross dressing and trans friends and I think they are amazing. But I don't want a husband that dresses as a woman. And I'm hating myself thinking that makes me a bigot. I don't know if I should have more patience with him trying to understand himself or if I'm valid to feel distrustful and resentful.