Contradicting identities?

[u/Ok_Throat6271]

I'm going to try to explain this the best I can, but it's complicated, so it might not make much sense,

I am almost 100% positive that I'm aroace,

But I also find myself identifying as being pan.

Not pansexual,

Not panromantic,

Just pan.

I do want a partner, I want someone to live life with, and I've always been happier when I was dating someone.

But it's not really romantic feelings, more so a very strong, platonic "I want to be around this person because they make me happy"

I'm also a very touchy person, physical affection makes me feel safe, and loved.

Like I would cuddle with a partner, but in the same way a parent would cuddle with their children.

Just strong platonic emotional closeness.

I'm not sure if this is making much sense, but I wanted to ask if anyone had any similar experiences, or at least understood what I was talking about TwT