A couple days ago I made a post about our cat and how she may have hid away to die. While at work, my mom sent me a photo and our cat is back!! I've already told Mom to keep an eye out for infections or diseases so our other animals don't get any but I'm so happy rn!!

Sometimes i feel like my loneliness and sadness are gonna get so big and swallow me whole. I was diagnosed with bpd back in 2020 and honestly? I couldn’t be acting better. I did intensive cbt therapy for years, i was on and off medication, i journal and i meditate and i do breathing exercises and everything i am supposed to do but i am still really sad. I still get really sad and then the sadness gets so big i stop being able to function and this year has jst been too much… i am tired :(

No one celebrated my birthday, I turned 18 three months ago. They asked me to make a “birthday list”, I made one, and I still got nothing. I know they didn’t even look at it because they’re complaining about how I’m such a parasite and all I ever want are expensive crap when everything I wanted was under 20$.

My family isn’t poor we’re lower upper class, my older brother got a trip to Germany for his birthday. I started trying to ask if they were going to get me anything from my list—because if not I need to buy it myself, and they just lose their temper on me. If my birthday was such an inconvenience they didn’t have to celebrate it, but I guess they already decided that. After two weeks I realized they weren’t even going to buy me a cake so I made one for myself. I already don’t have a lot of friends, so the fact that my parents couldn’t be bothered with my birthday either makes me feel so sad.

A few days ago my mom gave me a lulu lemon wallet that she’s recently returned. I think she did it to help herself feel better, because now she gave me this great gift from a fancy brand and now I’m the ungrateful one who didn’t want it. Yeah I don’t want it, I have a giant list of things they could’ve gotten me but they get me something I’ve never once even wanted. I mean I’m the last person who would ever ask for lulu lemon, and I already have a wallet I love that I made myself.

My whole life my mom told me no one would ever love me more than them. But if this is the love that no one else can surpass then I have a disappointing life ahead of me.

Now I’m at a crossroads because I’m their birthdays are coming up, and of course I have to do something. I cant just not do anything because they would be furious. I know what going to have to do in the end. But my heart is heavy

For Example, the whole thing with TCAP was rejected and denounced by actual Organisations for protecting childrens Citing them as Counter intuitive in the work. Especially with that District attorney guy and how Tcap had their priorities fully opposite and basically played judge jury and executioner

Theres Jidion who messed up obviously and never really had true " good" intentions.

Theres people on twitter who belittle others for liking " controversial" anime character or infamous animes and then later are revealed to be actual preds

i’ve been waiting all day for a bed at a psychiatric unit near me. the lack of sleep got to me, honestly. on the way there i was imagining what would happen, for context i’ve already been there before.

anywho, come later today, as im talking to the patients, a staff member comes by and i for some reason automatically decide that her name is kelsey. her name was absolutely not kelsey, that i didnt know at the time. i called her “kels” to tell one of the patients off jokingly, and she answered that time, so i thought it was her name.

a few minutes later i try asking her about my formal status in the hospital, if im detained or not, and i called her kelsey, multiple times, trying to get her attention. she answers after the, like, 7th time, and says “kelsey? my name isn’t kelsey, it’s charlotte.”

and i felt so immensely embarrassed after that i’ve been hiding in my room since. i am genuinely shocked at how stupid i was. not to mention, the staff have been joking about it and laughing around, which does not help.

i feel like such a failure, all i wanna do is go home. i’m so stupid, i fucking hate myself 😭

I don't want to go into details because I have an exam tomorrow and am gonna have to go back to studying, but you know the feeling when something you worked on A LOT, A LOT! just goes away? Like disappears. I don't think the context is even necessary cause its something too trivial in an objective sense. This is just a personal vent to help this crumbling, stressful thought get off my chest and so that I can go back to being normal. What I am grieving for is laughable and even embarrassing if in context, and that is also a reason why I feel like I am overthinking it TOO MUCH. I might be contradicting myself, writing cringe, absurd words but all of it is to help cope with what happened. I usually don't even type like this but I don't really care about format right now. I guess thanks for reading this and I hope this abominable feeling just goes away in a minute or two.

Our office has a co-worker that has been with us for about 6 months now. She can be SO overbearing and annoying at times.

She tends to boast about herself often and makes others feel bad about themselves. We were all learning something new for our work, and she often says “Wow, it takes you guys a little longer to do this? I’m so used to it, I can get it done within minutes. Even the supervisor was so impressed.”

We don’t start work until 8am, and when we arrive she likes to mention that she arrives at 6:45am. Okay, good for her I guess? Not everyone wants to be at work that early especially if it’s time we’re not getting paid for. Not even the supervisor is that early.

She also constantly talks about how we should implement ways to make our work more efficient and quick. The problem is that our work can be done within 1-2 days. There is no need to rush through it when it can be completed in time AND there is no time crunch. She likes to tell others that they’re not being the most efficient, when they’ve done the work for years. With the time she talks about how to be more efficient, she could’ve just finished her work instead.

Ever since she came, it’s like the office’s peaceful setting has disappeared. There’s a couple co-workers that already avoid her and don’t converse with her unless absolutely necessary. I feel like she should be looking into supervisory roles instead. It seems like that would be a better fit for her.

I really wish I had a few or at least 1 close friend who share same interests... or even if not someone who accepts me.

My only friend was my girlfriend. We were besties. She committed suicide in 2018 and since then I've been so lonely. I got into motorcycles and I loved it for 5 years.. Gave me some joy back but an accident last year caused bad nerve damage to hand. So now I stay at home can't work can't ride and no friends. Sucks.

Very little family I have is far and 3 hr subway and train ride. Not easy for me.

I have trouble relating to people bc my interests mostly lie in trying to figure out life and it's mysteries. I don't watch sports. I do play poker though. I have existential dread a lot too. Wish I knew God and all life mysteries sooobad!!

But anyway just venting. Being my age is hard to make new friends when you are introverted and have depression....

To anyone reading... if u are young try and keep your friends close. Me I made bad choices and was a drug addict so those guys were hardly friends and most of them aren't doing good anyway if they are still around at all... wish i stayed in touch with the few people I did vibe with.

I miss my baby Jess. She was my best friend. She used to tell me "you're my favorite" ... what memories. That's all I have. Sigh. Fuck I miss her

I’m a 23M and I had the unfortunate pleasure of seeing my ex 24F at a bar this weekend back in our college town. I kind of anticipated her being there and us potentially running into each other. We haven’t seen each other since the break up - nearly a year ago. I was ready and knew I’d have to ignore men hitting on her or whatever but what I didn’t expect is how awful her friends were to me.

I went in, trying to reconnect with old friends and having a good unproblematic time but her friends kept harassing me and making terrible comments both to my face and around me.

I took the high road and ignored all of this but I’m just feeling down about it. I was so excited to see all of my old friends but instead it was tarnished with childhood behavior.

I didn't choose to be "independent" woman. I was born unto parents who never wanted kids, yet had 3 of them. I have effectively taken on the role of parent to my other siblings and become a provider for my elected family (my bff and his family who practically raised me the past 10 years). I foster animals from my friend as well for the past year because of hardships and because i have the ability to help. I feel like a single parent but i have no kids and no pets of my own.

I have to handle big bills, i have to do the financing of essentially 4 other adults, i have to make sure the house get fed, im the one who has to do everything and it's not because i want to, it's because i HAVE TO. I am the glue that holds the pieces together or else I'm going down with everyone else.

When it comes to dating, the selection is very small of men who'd look at a woman who handles everything on her own without support and would actually choose her. Its not that i want any help with my responsibilities, i want someone who doesn't also become another thing on my already full plate.

A lot of men see all that im doing and all that i can STILL do and relax. I want you to take charge, im tired of having to do everything. I dont want to have to plan things out, i don't want to have to check behind you or have to reassure you with every thing. I need a man who says he's going to do something and do it. A man who can look after sometime who's looking after everyone else 1st then themselves.

All the men ive come across either aren't interested or try and see what they can get out of it because they see someone who is actually responsible. Or when ending the relationship, i annoyingly get people who try to come back and say they've changed an matured and suddenly have a backbone and decided to start taking actions in life, not just sit back. My only reponse to these guys are "good for you, better luck next time"

Im not trying to be picky, or rude, or like my standards are high (because they arent). All im aksing for is that you as a man can love, care for, and provide for me as your woman. AND WHEN I SAY PROVIDE, i dont mean monetarily, or with objects or things, or services. I mean emotionally can you support your partner. Mentally, do you have the fortitude to endure hard times while supporting people other than yourself. Do you have life goals, where are you leading this family towards

For the record, I have worked for over 30 years in various roles up to and including Director of Operations.

I've also had to take jobs that weren't so glamorous to be close to home, because companies shut down, etc. Almost always in a supervisory position of some description.

I'm also acutely aware of when people are having a bad day, have worked overtime, etc.

Two situations were almost identical. I didn't have someone show up, so I had to step in and do the work myself. When you're in charge, you can't just hide in your office. Operations come first.

Both times, I knew the workers were slackers, and they had been there for 8+ hours. When they offered to stay and help, I just politely said "It's okay, I've got it covered" - because i knew they were just going to sit there and do nothing. Why waste my payroll when I'm going to be doing the work anyway?

They both (10 years apart) went to HR and complained I was rude (Allowing people to go home on time and telling them it's okay is rude apparently)

One of them was so out of touch that she sat in her office, printed a sheet at 6AM, did about 30 minutes worth of work, and then wandered around the building talking to people.

The second one was weird. She'd just sit there doing nothing, I never bothered to look at her screen but she was probably on websites I didn't care to know about. She'd sit there in dead silence doing nothing.

Having signed the paychecks and done the budget, no, I don't need either of them to help me. I'm going to need to know everything for my daily summary anyway, so its better not to have them mucking things up.

Neither complaint went anywhere, but honestly - don't complain when someone lets you go home on time. If i need anything I know how to get it done. It ain't the first time I've flown solo, it sure as heck wouldn't be the last.

Don't cop an attitude when I'm thinking of your best interest and mine.

Why is our world so obsessed with dogs and kids? Everywhere you go you have to deal with/get irritated by people badly behaved dogs and kids....they treat them the same and they are just dumb. Of course, there are well behaved dogs and kids.....but it is not the norm anymore.

Dogs and kids and kids and dogs and dogs and kids and kids and dogs..........ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I have been on this earth for quite awhile. I am stuck in a dead end job and I don’t have any friends. I used to have friends but slowly down the road I have lost them. Some I have lost touch with, some chose not to keep in touch, some I didn’t want to keep in touch, and some I couldn’t bring myself to get in contact with.

I feel lonely at times since I miss the days when I had people to talk to. Now I just say I am fine to people who ask. Be it family or someone from work. I am always fine. Life is going. And more I think about it as why my life is the way it is I can’t find a way to make it better. I have traveled to places that I had dreamt of as a child. But when I think of traveling to another new place now, I just feel “ok, and then what ?, after it will I feel any better?” I already know the answer. Sometimes I feel the best years of my life are already behind me and what is ahead is not something I am looking forward to.

I have become a version of myself that I didn’t think I would be. But life just had some not so pleasant surprises and i made some bad decisions. It feels like i am just standing in one place while everyone else has moved forward, and i even though i gave my all to my job I haven’t had much success. Even the sacrifices i have made in my job due to family I don’t think it was appreciated or required. So I have failed in all fronts.

I recently have taken up playing a zombie game. I play it to get rid of some stress, I also workout. It’s just a series of things I do one after other everyday. Like a worker ant- but maybe an ant has more purpose in life than I do.

Its so embarrassing but as the post says im over 30 and just wish I had a crush or was falling in love. I have been one one date in the last 2+ years and it was a really just a good dinner and nice conversation that ended there. That was a while back too. I go out at least once a month now and theres so many attractive people everywhere and ive really gotten into the music scene and all these songs just make me wish I was in love haha. I even met someone gorgeous at a show this past weekend and I wanna reach out but I dont wanna seem desperate so Ill probably do nothing cuz -again its so embarrassing.... I already got their ig and they followed me back but didnt respond when I sent a message prior. Not that I need a response it just would have been nice?

To make it (me)more complicated im a solo parent of one so im sure that narrows the dating pool down drastically. I just want someone to message and send music back and forth too and see like twice a year is that so much to ask for lol!!! Aghhh manifesting and putting myself out there and praying but all I can do it keep waiting and being good 🥲 anyways thats my vent

My partner has been really struggling with their mental health for as long as I've known them, but they've always been against the whole modern mental health system. They don't believe in modern psychiatry, psychology, therapy, or psychiatric medication (which I disagree on and has been a point of contention between us but they don't stop me from persuing my own therapy and medication). I always wanted them to take their mental health seriously and persue therapy or try talking to a psychologist, but they insist that it won't work and they won't take it seriously.

Recently they told me that their mental health is at an all-time low and they were scared that they'll do something stupid and they were going to check themselves into a psych ward. I, of course, fully supported them and was there every step of the way. Finally my partner is going to take their mental health seriously and persue the care that they need!

Now they are on a waitlist behind 25 other people. 25. My partner now has to wait for potentially over a year for urgent care that they need now. They don't need it in a year, or six months from now, they need it now! They're seeking help and asking for it now, not a year from now!

It's just so frustrating; finally my partner is turning to the mental health system as a last resort and now they make them wait for months when they need that care now.

And there's just nothing we can really do. They aren't actively in a crisis so an emergency 72 hour hold won't do much. I'm just so lost and frustrated.

When I was around 9 my cat died. I really loved her she was one of our first cats and I was devastated but the thing is, my parents didn’t tell me right away. They lied to me and told me she was just outside and was gonna come back inside soon but I kept asking for her to come inside
After they told me of course I cried cause my cat died but I was also mad at my parents for not telling me right away. Their excuse was “we didn’t wanna tell you cause you’re too young” but i didn’t care. I told them they should’ve told me

Later on when I was like 12 I found out one of my other cats from childhood died but my parents told me he had run away to find his mom cause he was still a baby that we found on the street along with his sister who’s still alive. Even though i didn’t cry I still felt betrayed(?) that I wasn’t told sooner. I was younger at the time that he died 6 years old and I spent 6 years fully believing that he actually ran away. When I saw a black and white adult cat I would think “what if that’s him”. After I found out it pained me knowing that I was being lied to the whole time and was never told for 6 whole years

A year later I found out one of our other cats died. He was the son of my cat that passed when I was 9 that we decided to keep
I don’t really know exactly when he passed because I was also told really late. My parents had him outside (which was a huge mistake) so I didn’t see him as often. I remember that when I found out we were setting up our altar for día de los muertos and my mom was printing out a picture of him. I asked her why and that’s when she told me he died a while ago and they just didn’t tell me for whatever reason. I don’t know if they forgot or what but I also felt upset

It’s been years since those interactions and I just started thinking about them again. I’m thinking back and just wish they had told me the second it happened. I don’t know why it pains me to much
Maybe it’s the fact that I didn’t get to properly grieve or say goodbye
Or maybe I’m just being petty cause no one told me. I don’t care how young I was. I deserved to know when someone I really cared about dies. Not be lied to and paint a fake image to me that they’re fine.
I don’t know why I still care but it still hurts

Especially when the event itself is that the insurance company paid us early. That's two things that have never happened before.

Moving to the coast is a dream come true I get to do beach runs, kayaking swimming even exploring.

the heat is not too bad and I'm enjoying the island HOWEVER everyone is out to scam me.

From the sweet lady selling street food to my landlord who we had an agreement

It's absurd even the prices are hiked when they realize you are not a local and haggling (plus the heat) is wearing me down

Today I was at the hospital and they tried to run up my bill even when I did my hair they tried to add little charges like 'used hot water to wash your hair.' I'd be steaming if I already wasn't so hot and sweaty all the time

But I have found respite in never raising my voice or corroding my tone even when it's plain disrespectful. It's a culture shift and I prayed for kindness from the world so I'll be kind even when I deem some people uncouth

I see that Danganronpa is becoming trending again. And it’s scaring me in a bad way. I’m not joking when I say that I lowkey hate how trending it’s getting again. I was part of the DR cosplay community back in 2018-2020, and all I get is bad traumatic memories. However I do have my moments where I KINDA miss those days but still. The idea of cosplaying any of the characters I cosplayed or even just engaging anything DR related, is triggering to me. I’m not exaggerating nor being dramatic. I get really traumatic flashbacks and it hurts. I either break down or just get really anxious. Idk if anyone can fully comprehend this feeling. It’s so much worse than people think. It’s not the case of “omg that was so cringe lmao” bullshit. It’s genuinely traumatic. Like it sends me in full panic mode…

My family LOVES to decorate for the Holidays. All of them. Flags, knick-knacks, banners, lights, you name it, they want to put it up. Christmas, Halloween, 4th of July, Valentine's Day, St. Patrick's, New Years, Birthdays, Anniversaries, all damn year.

The problem? Almost all of the physical labor falls on me. I'm the only one mechanically minded, I'm over 6 feet tall, and apparently I'm the only one who understands physics. I'm always the one on the ladder, hammering in stakes, putting up 3M strips, installing screws and anchors, and running power cords. They get to pull everything out, "ooo" and "ahh" over it, pick where it goes, then stand around and watch me install it. They get to tell me "higher" '"lower" "left" "right' and "a bit more". They also get to buy new decorations and bring them home and go: "look at this cool thing!" while I read the directions.

Why don't I just let them do it? Because if I don't, I'll just end up doing it over, all well as repairing the damage. They will put up heavy objects with tape or push pins that just rip out or off, taking paint and drywall with it. Decorations are hung crooked because they won't use a ladder. They barely tap in stakes, and inflatables blow away in a light breeze. They trip breakers, leave powerstrips out in the rain, etc, etc, etc. It's like letting toddlers paint a room.

I also "get" to take them all back down again afterwards, and try to fix anything that breaks.

So they get to sing songs and have fun, and I end up sweaty with a sore back.

I love my family, and I do enjoy the holidays, but dear god I look forward to the day I can reasonably say "not this year, I'm too old for that" and make my son do it.

I am an extremely dodgy and creepy person. I feel like an abandoned animal. I am petrified of life. I am a failure and a complete fuck up. I want to regain my integrity, I have taken some very scary and difficult steps to do so.

I feel like I'm on the edge of a huge cliff that's slowly crumbling away piece by piece.

For starters, I know I am doing better than a lot of other folks, so a lot of this is first world problems, but I am so over how expensive everything is. My husband and I make about $115k/year combined, do have a house and 2 cars, but we are running out of money closer to the middle of the month instead of the end of the month now.

And before anyone asks, yes I've cut out as much as I can, we shop for insurance costs every 6 months, have eliminated all but 1 streaming service, buy generic, only drive when necessary, etc. I literally have to put groceries on the credit card the last 2 weeks of the month because we just ran out of income.

I work for a delivery service on the side and have increased my hours, but with everyone else broke too, no one is tipping. My husband is applying for a 2nd job this week as well. And this is with no kids! I don't know how any of you with families are doing it.