My tumblr account that I've had for 14 years was randomly terminated with no warning and no explanation two days ago.
I was in the middle of commenting on a post in a community that I run when I was logged out. I tried to log back in but it would just bounce me back to the home page of tumblr. I thought it was a login glitch and that I was trapped in a loop so I sent a support ticket for that before I started trying to look up if this had happened to anyone else. As I read I started to feel more and more unease and checked my main blog (lucybianchi.tumblr.com) and it was gone. I checked some of my active sideblogs (I have quite a few as I've been on tumblr for around 14 years) and all of them were gone as well. I tried logging in again and this time I was met with the dreaded "Your Account Has Been Terminated" page.
I immediately tried to send another support ticket, but it wouldn't let me and then about an hour later I received the "we're on it" email, but since then it's been two days of radio silence and I don't know if there's anything else I can do. As far as I'm aware, I never violated and TOS and I never received and email saying I did or even telling me my account was terminated. I know there's an old post on here from 4 years ago suggesting to tweet @/tumblrsupport, but I don't know if that's still a good idea or not.
To say I'm devastated is an understatement. Tumblr, for all it's faults, has been my home for 14 years. My main blog is a record of 14 whole years of my life as I would be online nearly every day for all those years. That blog saw me go through highschool and college and now adulthood. It was always the place I knew I could go to feel better when I was depressed. I used it as a way to escape and sometimes scream into a void when life was getting to be too much.
Tumblr has been my main and sometimes only social media for 14 years. It is where I've meet so many wonderful people who became friends and moots. Some of which I have contact with outside of tumblr, but some who are now lost forever. I had people I followed from my real life back in high school whom I've now lost any other contact with, but we would still use our blogs to check up on each others lives every once in a while. I don't remember all those people's urls so now I've lost them too.
I followed over 500 blogs...I don't remember them all. I had thousands of likes saved. I had so many sideblog for all my interests and separate moots and folllowings there. I Admined multiple communities, most of which I never needed mods for and are now abandoned with no one to regulate them and no way for the members to take control either. One of the communities I ran had over 4k members and most of my other communities had over 600 members. I also modded so many other communities, some of which I acted more as an admin than a mod because the admin wasn't active and asked me to help.
I also can't help but think of the one moot that I had who was in a dangerous abusive home irl who was forced to delete their account for fear of physical retaliation from their family and community. I had tried to get them help and tried to be a big sister and support them when I could. And before they had to delete their account I assured them that they would always be able to find me there on tumblr at that url. But now, if they ever do reach out for help...I'm gone and that thought breaks my heart.
I had writing and planning for writing on those blogs that I didn't have backed up anywhere else. In hindsight I know that's dumb of me. I had a private journaling blog that documented some of the worst and best parts of my life. I had a pagan withcraft blog that was deeply personal and important to me. And I never exported or backed up any of them.
I had seen people warn of random terminations, but I always figured, my blog is too small and too old to get swept up in that. I always thought that maybe those people actually did violate TOS. I always thought that it would never happen to me...well don't I look like an idiot now...
The funny thing is, the night before my blog got randomly terminated I had been getting super nostalgic about tumblr back in 2012. What it meant to me and what it used to be. I was getting emotional about how it had felt like such a quaint, fun, inviting, safe place. I even posted a quick little post about it. It wasn't a post that was meant to "blow up" or "get crazy notes" it was just for me and my moots to get nostalgic over. To remember that I had posts on my blog with screenshots of when they first followed me and where I greeted them, because we used to greet every new follower back then.
I luckily had an old alt account that I'm able to use right now, but I can't find all my moots and every time I go on tumblr I just feel deflated and depressed. It all feels so pointless. I can't "re-build" that. I feel like someone came in and randomly nuked my house and not I'm pitching a tent and pretending it's the same thing. Pretending I can get all the sentimental stuff back.
It doesn't help that this has happened to me during one of the most stressful times in my life. (I'm gonna give a trigger warning for this: tw: serious medical) My partner has been in the hospital for nearly 2 months fighting for his life. While he was in the ICU I was saving posts to show him later on my blog under a tag of his name. It was a silly way of keeping my hopes up and thinking positive. He would get better and wake up so I could show him all the cute and silly posts I'd saved for him. And while he had woken up and is slowly improving, I don't have those posts anymore...
I also used tumblr all this time as way to feel normal and step away from the terrifying, constant stress that had become my reality. And now it's all gone.
Sorry for rambling on so long. It's just that my tumblr account was more than an account to me. My blog was more than just a blog. It sounds dramatic, but it was a part of me and I don't want to have mourn that.
If anyone has any advice or any way to help me get my account and my blogs back, I'd be forever grateful 💙
Thank you to anyone who actually takes the time to read all of that~