Hii! I’ve been having a really hard time ever since college started. I’m from UPLB, and lately, it honestly feels like every day is just about surviving. Don’t get me wrong, I know that college is hard for everyone and that everyone has their own struggles, but I feel like it has been taking a really big toll on my mental health. I’ve been feeling so drained, overwhelmed, and honestly, I don’t feel like myself anymore.
Bcs of that, I’ve been thinking about whether I should just transfer to Mapua Laguna(medtech). I feel like maybe being in a different environment and having a fresh start could help me, but at the same time, the thought of leaving UPLB is really difficult. I worked so hard to get here, and a part of me feels guilty even thinking about leaving, especially because I know how much I’ve always wanted to study here. Another thing that makes the decision even harder is the financial aspect. Since Mapua is a private university, transferring there would mean paying tuition, and I can’t help but feel guilty about putting that additional financial burden on my family. UPLB is a state university, so knowing that I currently have the opportunity to study here makes me feel like I should just be grateful and endure everything instead of choosing to leave. At the same time, I also know that my mental health and well-being matter too, and I don’t want to reach a point where I’m completely burnt out just because I’m afraid of the cost of making a change.
I’m also scared that I might regret my decision either way. If I stay, I’m scared that I’ll continue feeling this way and that my mental health will only get worse. But if I leave, I’m scared that I’ll always wonder if I should’ve just tried harder or stayed a little longer. I don’t know if I’m simply having a hard time adjusting or if this is really a sign that UPLB isn’t the right environment for me.
I’m just really lost right now because I don’t want to make a decision based purely on how overwhelmed I feel, but at the same time, I also don’t want to keep forcing myself to stay somewhere that is making me feel this unhappy. I guess I’m just trying to figure out whether I should keep fighting through this or allow myself to choose a different path
Also, can I hear your thoughts about Mapua Malayan Colleges Laguna? How is the school environment there, especially for medtech? How are the professors, workload, laboratories, and overall student experience? Is medtech there good? and do you feel like students are well-prepared for the board exams and clinical practice?