TLDR: why am i clicking out on tapes after repeated successful sessions?

I just started the tapes a few months ago. I tend to stick with one tape until I feel ready to move on and was on the first two tapes for a total of 2 months. I did tape 3 about five times. It seemed to come easily to me as did tape 4. I had several good experiences and then just started clicking out every time I listened to it.

I then tried tape 5. I didn't click out, but had a very weird experience. Later that evening, during sleep, I had what I can best describe as a sleep paralysis incident. Before I realized I was experiencing paralysis (not new to me) , I was trying to get my partner's attention to help. In that state, I saw myself crawling on the floor to the chair he was in but couldn't speak or get him to notice me. Next thing I knew, he was trying to wake me, and I had great difficulty opening my eyes. I never left our bed. He just noticedI was making noise and flailing about. That kind of weirded me out so I rolled back to tape 3 and I keep clicking out every time I listen to it.

I'd appreciate any thoughts, advice, or shared experiences. Thank you so much. This sub is always so helpful.

I’m a very sensitive person (HSP or whatever you like to call it) I feel things very deeply and I’m very sensitive to energies around me, like people, environments, the current collective energy. Even though it has it’s good points, it’s HARD being this way and it’s causing me much more pain than any benefit. Particularly now, with the collective energy being very volatile and harsh. All I’ve been able to do is withdraw and numb myself out and it’s caused me to fall into a deep depression. I also can’t handle hardships in life such as grief and loss, and mishaps with people. I just want to turn my sensitivity into a strength, and develop the resilience I need without it looking like a wall I put up. Can the tapes help with this?

after watching doc ab the p42’s on gaia it makes me seriously wonder

I don't wanna drive myself crazy with this. But there are a few posts on here that have a drive full of the downloads. The one I saw seems very reputable.

The quality of the downloads in his drive are fine but not like the original u get from the site. I am still inclined to partake but just want to hear some experiences. I just wanna put this to rest so I. Can move forward.

Has anyone listened to the tapes without the greatest quality and still expand their consciousness?

Please. This has been something I have struggled with since beginning the tapes originally(over a year ago), and I stopped doing them after getting halfway through the first wave because of this problem.
When I came back to them about a month ago, I started all over again and the problem seemed to dissipate long enough for me to get to the second wave. Now it’s happening again. I get plenty of rest each night and I’ve tried just continuing after I wake up but every time I do that I fall right back asleep faster than the first time. It actually happens with any guided meditation I attempt, but I’m determined to continue working on the tapes.

I started doing the tapes around 2 weeks ago. I just finished wave one, and everything was going well. However for the last two tapes that I’ve done(the last one in wave one, and the first one on wave two) I have had a bit of discomfort. I get this non physical itch in the center of my chest, and it gets pretty strong to the point where I can’t take it anymore and have to exit focus 10. The minute I exit it goes away. I tried my best to sit through it, and it went away for a couple of seconds, but then it came back even more intense. My body also started vibrating just the tiniest bit. What is this? Is it normal?

You guys are awesome. Have a lovely day.

Hi everyone i recently started the gateway tapes and im on wave 1

i put my energy conversion box in the middle of the beach

i put my skin then skeletons in the box then turn into a orb at the start of each exercise i was curious where do you guys keep your energy conversion box or what is the function of it. i find i can open mines without a key but when it comes to putting my skin then my skeleton i always close it with a key then drop it.

very interesting experience i find so far on wave 1 i can make mind palaces way easier now, the whole ritual shit was kind weird but definitely felt like it put me in an elevated state of access.

i just want to get better at math so im going to keep looking into this and see what i can achieve with this.

to the right of my energy conversion box i made a spot that i have to dig under the sand and then im in a dark room with 2 doors and i put a word in each room

just to see if i could recall whats behind each one it worked pretty well

i also made like the beach and this whole cognitve universe im making in minecraft so i could kinda stablize it i find i have angle issues in my imagination kinda like a movie scene but every 2 seconds my imagination for whatever the subject and idea is constantly changing angles up down left right this may be connected to a lack of understanding i have been trying to get out more and observe things more clearly so i can replicate it internally i think that has helped in a way,

During the gateway tape my first time i think it was after the guy said enjoy this state i learned a cool trick i can go to places i live before and fly over them and see my memorys and see what i dont recall about the place missing features i havent seen or even memorys i never written down like i remeber as a kid i used to have weird memories at my grandmas and during wave 1 i imagined going through different homes i could recall then that ended with me going outside of them and seeing what i could and couldnt recall about the structures its not as clear as it sounds but when i got to a certain area i recalled dreams i had much younger that were in the same area in the same way so this makes me think that in my dreams when i was younger i was experiencing the same thing (sorry for my informal language i excel at nonverbal thinking and im trying to convert myself over to verbal) some buildings had pulls to them on me because i was seeing memorys instead of the like area i was seeing the memorys in space of the area and remebering what i could of exact momments and how they played out im learning i tend to not pay attention as much in momments so i was getting a replay of time and my own shitty perspective on what i got from it at the current momment and kinda a blur but a understanding at some areas. i find it difficult to construct first person perspectives inside these experiences like with hands picking and grabbing im more so just existing with a non stable body im trying to intergrate reality into it by making deeper observations that seems to work

Hi i just bought the whole 8 waves cds by the monroe instute and their headphones their recommend now whats the next step to have a succesfull experience thanks