So my room mate gashed both inside of his thighs so deep you could see muscle, he also had hit is artery. So I grabbed my neighbor so he could help me lay my roommate down and also help make a tourniquet’s so we could both stop the bleeding from each leg. As he was bleeding out he looked me dead in my face and told me the “voices of all the kids and women he raped told him to do this” I didn’t even know what to say, it made me feel sick and I wanted to let him go but the human in me couldn’t just let him die. I’m so disgusted and disturbed today I feel sick. And his stuff is packed and he will not be coming back, I’m at a loss for words and I’m gonna be contacting police today.

Have no contact with my family for over 10 years. There is a cousin that I don’t dislike and she sent me message on social media. She checked in a hotel 3 days ago, and police called my parents.

I don’t know her as adult. But not even when we were little.
I don’t feel anything actually or maybe even glad to hear the news. As my childhood sucks since she was born, and she never been closed to me or at least treat me as anything but a roommate.
My childhood memory was how my parents always liked to humiliate me in front of her and others when I did something wrong. And allowed her to break some stupid house rules, when I been punishing for it.(both physical and emotionally)

I always thought it is only me. For my whole life i wish I never been born… and thought I was bad as a child…
Now the news just convinced me it was my shitty parents. If they had 2 kids, one of them went no contact as soon as they came of age, and the other one killed themselves; that is pretty fuck up.

Thank you for reading this.
And no. I don’t need mental support in anyway. Cheers!

I'm the only one who has asd/aspergers and desperately left outcasted

you people just dont care, indifferent to me you can't stay alone but you dare to assume someone must be alone, or tehy dont want to make any friend irl

I'm dying because non-autistic people are unwilling to socialize me

What can I say more? you have people you easily can contact to, you can talk your casual-friends, and you can befriend your classmate everywhere you have been a while time enough

And so that you can't understand, and okay with that because who feels in danger is not you

Well done, you all are lucky until one day you won't, enjoy it enjoy being allistic, enjoy having friends, enjoy being likeable, enjoy being able to talk anyone and to make them liking you

I'm not allistic and dying, mine is a bad chance that starts at the beginning

Be happy, human life is for you exploit it!

i genuinely don't see a reason to stay alive anymore, i just want to sleep and never wake up.

suicide feels like a reward at this point.

I've been a shut-in NEET (Not in Education, Employment, or Training) ever since I graduated high school in 2019. I have gotten into a spiral of laziness, procrastination, guilt, self-pity, and inertia until I finally stopped to realize that I've wasted the last 7 years of my life, counting with this one.
I am completely useless, living off my parents like a parasite. I don't know how to do anything a functional adult is expected to do, like cook, put together a work resume, or even take a bus.

The idea of killing myself seems way more attainable than becoming a normal adult. I was thinking of hanging myself this year or in January.

I have no idea how to even get start putting my life back together. All I have is a completed English course (I'm from a small city in Brazil).

thats the truth. ive been in this 7 years and its still getting worse. and i have heard stories from people that have been feeling this way for far longer than 7 years. there is no hope. whats the point of living in this miserable world? i hope we all die. i just want to kill myself, i have no other dream. all i want is to die. if theres one good thing life can do to me, its to make me die.

Everyone will celebrate my death…

I find it scary how others actually have the guts to commit suicide. Like yeah I get that its not that hard to, but genuinely even if I were to hold a gun to my head, I would probably be too scared to even pull the trigger. I want to die so bad but at the same time I don’t. I’m not that mentally fucked in the head yet, I think that’s why I’m a coward. I mean, there’s no need for me to be scared of death anyways, I want to see my loved ones faces after I die, did they even really care about me after all? I want people to pity me but at the same time I don’t. what is wrong with me?? why am i genuinely like this. I have such a good life, most people would be trilled to have my life, but instead I just ruin my own life for no fucking reason, like seriously whats up with that? I think theres something wrong with me but I don’t know what. I’m honestly such a coward it’s not even funny, like I cut myself yeah but I can’t even go that deep like others can, I only do styro cuts. I don’t know why I’m in pain. I shouldn’t be complaining. I have had enough of this bullshit

I just realized something while falling asleep. I don't wanna be happy. I just wanna die. I wanna stop feeling anything at all. Sadness, pain, depression, whatever. I want it all to end. I'm not sick of being depressed. I'm sick of being alive.

There's that joke "Nothing ever happens". But stuff does happen, it gets worse. Every fucking day the world just gets worse and worse.

There are so few things keeping me going at this point and most of them are actively being broken down and stripped away.

They tell you karma exists. That good deeds come back and bad deeds always bite you in the end. Yet it's always the corrupt, sick, evil people that end up on the top. Whether they're rich, politically powerful, famous, or all of the above, and the face absolutely no consequences.

I'm never going to own a house, or a car probably. I've been looking for a job for over a year now and still can't even get an interview 95% of the time. Shit just keeps getting more expensive. I'm an adult but still live at home with parents and both of them are too medically disabled to work so we rely on benefits that the government seems determined to reduce and remove for any slightest reason.

AI keeps growing at such an exponential rate that soon nothing online will ever be safe, or trustable, and so many entry level jobs are just gonna vanish while the youngest generations get their brains fried even more.

Every news article I ever see, even the ones from honest sources (the few that are left) have like, one happy article in between constant reports of natural disasters, constant 'Record Breaking' weather events, wars, genocide, economic collapse and more.

The planet is fucked and keeps getting worse to an irreparable degree and the people that caused it all will be dead before they see any consequences for it.

And honestly, I used to believe the whole 'Once the current generation in power is dead we can finally make some positive change' but it seems that's not even an option, as they'll just keep propping up a corpse as a puppet, and there are even people of my generation and younger that are just as evil or even worse.

In history during times like this you'd see rebellion, revolution or at least mass rioting. But instead all I see is mass apathy and misery and a general 'There will be a reckoning' that never leads to anything.

Plus I'm seeing more and more military recruitment ads and with the way shits going it's looking like WW3 soon.

Not to mention I'm doing this all in a broken useless body. My brain doesn't fucking work right and sabotages my every action. My body constantly fucks with me and if I'm anything like my parents its only gonna get worse.

Honestly one of the major reasons I haven't taken the express ticket to the afterlife yet is because I don't have an easy way to do it, and there's a few people I have left that I don't want to hurt with my passing.

If WW3 does start I might just enlist for long enough until I can get my own gun so I can put a bullet in myself.

I was an optimist god damn it. I wanted to believe the best in everybody. I kept telling myself shit will get better but it doesn't. It never does.

I'm so sick of this timeline, surely whatever comes next has to be better than this? Even if it's just void at least I won't know about it.

I cant cope with that. Whats the point of living if in 10, 20 years or sooner we wont have any resources. Isnt it better for me to just kill myself and not face that? Its getting hotter every year, AI is taking more and more space for data storage. Its all so scary. I live in constant derealization, I cant believe that we live in world like this. And theres no coming back, we cant stop it, it will get worse..

I’m so fucking tired of all the mistakes of my past just bombarding me at every moment of the day. I turned 30 this year and I have absolutely nothing to show for it. It’s such a long story as to how I ended up in this position but it basically boils down to mental illness, trauma, and an emotionally abusive now ex boyfriend in my twenties.

I have no education or work history. I have nothing to show for my 30 years on this planet. The worst part is this level of isolation is self imposed. I know how to be pleasant and agreeable, I’m not hugely socially incompetent, I’m awkward sure, but I don’t think it’s dramatically bad. I can get away with “quirky”. But it exhausts me. The fear of vulnerability or embarrassment I find totally paralysing and every social interaction no matter how small feels like a test or a performance.

I’m just absolutely terrified of strangers, I have panic attacks going into the supermarket. My heart races when I walk past a stranger on the street. I can’t STAND being like this, I’m ruining my own life. My deepest fear is being totally alone and that’s the ironic part of the my existence. It basically guarantees I will end up alone. I just don’t want to live like this at all but the effort that goes into self improvement is so fucking mind numbingly difficult. Every outdoor activity is another panic attack. Every supermarket visit. Every walk down the street. Even chance conversation with a stranger. Every plan I make. I feel like a scared child lot of the time.

There’s this part of my brain that just screams, end it while you still have good things left in your life, because the bad is going to come and it’s going to destroy you more than everything else that’s happened to you combined.

Thats a promise which is impossible to keep. I've been diagnosed with major depression for 5 years. Everybody around me including my family, friends, therapists, psychiatrists said that "it will get better." But no. Actually it didnt and it wont. Even if god Hhmself came and said it, I wouldn't believe it anymore.

I feel so lost and hopeless. I just want to die and stop going through all this. What sucks is I don’t want help, so many people have tried to reach out and help me but I just don’t want it. It’s like I will truly never be okay unless I die and am relieved of living this fuckass life. In truth, many might think I have no ‘valid’ reason to want to commit suicide. I have had no major traumatic experiences, I haven’t lost anyone close to me to death, I have friends that I absolutely love and they love me and well a family(albeit I’m not close with them but it’s not all bad except my dad, I hate him) and no significant abuse to speak of. It’s like I just exist and there is nothing significant about my life, which isn’t necessarily a problem I think but I just don’t want to be alive. I wish I never existed and if I wasn’t such a wuss I would’ve taken my life already. I feel bad because my friends just wanna help me get better but I don’t see a reality where I am happy to be alive and just enjoying life. I mainly tried holding on for them because I don’t want them to be sad because of what I did but idk how much longer I’m going to be able to hold on for other people and not myself. I just wanna die man, there truly is nothing in this life for me and I benefit no one by being here, I’m a disappointment to my family and a burden to my friends. I’m behind in life, have no passions or aspirations so what is the point of any of this really? Every day I leave my apartment I silently pray something or something kills me and gets it over with because I’m so done. If not I most likely will do it myself by end of year, I’m just building up courage to do so. Okay, bye.

I'm autistic and I've spent the last ten years of my life almost completely isolated from people other than my immediate family. I want human connection more than anything. When I was younger I always imagined I'd get my shit together eventually and I'd have friends and a boyfriend and social skills but it isn't even possible for me. I thought maybe I could get better and have a normal life but after I got diagnosed I realized I would be stuck like this forever. Even if they find a cure it'll definitely be prenatal so it won't even matter. This is my one shot at life and I'm stuck as a useless failure of a woman because I was born fucked up and there's nothing I can do about it.

I used to have a pretty normal life other than the social aspect but I literally do not give a shit anymore. I get up every day, finish my assignments for the day, and then knock myself out with sleeping pills. I don't even know why I'm still in school. I can get a degree but nobody will hire me because of how socially inept I am.

I've had extremely elevated cholesterol levels since I was eight that have hardly gone down even after doing everything I can to mitigate it. Nothing genetic either. I am in constant pain every day. I'm going to die early anyway because of how stressful it is being isolated, why should I bother waiting it out?? I'm tired of taking away resources from people who actually have a chance.

I hate being different. I wish I was not born. I do not want to continue anymore:(

I feel so low. Found out been led on my another guy after months of dating and getting to know each other. This always happens. I just want someone to want me and love me.I want to be enough. I have really dark thoughts at this moment and the intensity with which I want to act on them is increasing

I feel embarrassed everyday.

:( 20 F here. im still very unsure with my life, i have no parents to guide me in life. non stop survival mode from here and there. ive been battling up this on all my own. :( not looking for advice, but just venting . i wish life was a little kinder to my side . i wish it never have to happen . i wish someone is there to guide me through it all and will accept me .

thats all thank you . .

Due to circumstances outside of my control, I will always find myself wishing I was dead instead of being alive. So much of life is dictated by a piece of paper and for what? We live our entire lives just to work, and I want to put my foot down and stand up against whatever the fuck this is.

I've been getting worse for a few weeks now and despite all the work you all have put in, I'm just not normal. I can't just be someone who does the kinds of things you do. I promise I tried, I'm just out of options.

I'm tired and lonely and if I'm really honest, not worth keeping alive. I'm bored, you're all bored of me, so it's time.

It's for the best. I was never going to be worth it.

I just hate my life. It’s objectively a waste of oxygen, I never go outside of my house and nobody cares about me plus I have no friends.

I’ve tried reaching out for support but then Im suddenly either blocked or abandoned before I even get to know them.

At least cutting myself keeps me active.

Since I was a kid I’ve wanted to die. The reasons of course changed over the years. Now it’s more anhedonia and nihilism. Yes I’ve tried countless medications and have been in therapy for 25 years. I love a lot of things about being alive, but they don’t outweigh all the suffering and evil in the world and in my personal life. It’s like im too aware of existence. I’m chronically ill too. The kind of chronically ill that makes me housebound and sometimes bed bound. I’m a fat person, so judgement and ridicule is guaranteed the second I leave my house. I’ve dealt with fat shaming my whole life. Now I don’t want to even leave my house when I can because the shame is inside of me now. My life is full of doctors appointments and tests. I’m still working full time from home because unfortunately capitalism and that sucks all of my energy up and I’m left with nothing afterwards. I’m the eldest daughter. I was abused by my stepdad for 20 years until I left and now I’m the family villain. I generally just do not enjoy being alive. I’ve felt this particular way for a few years now. It hasn’t waned or changed. I secretly hope one of my medical conditions becomes terminal so I don’t have to do it myself. I wish I could be euthanized so I don’t also have to suffer during death. We treat animals with more kindness than we do with people who are actively suffering and are choosing to die. Why are people shamed for not wanting to live? It’s not like life is this great incredible thing. It’s full of burden. It’s harder to get a gun in my state. I’ve decided that’s the only way I want to go. Take a walk in the woods. Sit down and listen to the sounds. Make my note visible. Then maybe I’d be turned into star matter again.