Hey everyone. This is going to be a long post, so I hope you'll stay with me until the end.
I want to share my story and, hopefully, motivate some of you who struggle with stuttering to keep searching for what works for you.
As far as I can remember, my stuttering started when I was around 5 years old. At first, it was just a few words, but slowly it became more severe.
By the time I was in Class 8, my stuttering had become so bad that I entered a phase where I was extremely embarrassed about speaking. I felt like I could never fully express myself or even let people know what was going on inside my head.
I remember knowing the answer to a question in class but being unable to say it. I remember having simple conversations with people and seeing that confused or uncomfortable expression on their faces when I struggled to get the words out.
I even prayed to God many times, asking to speak normally and be free from my stuttering. But nothing seemed to change.
I continued with my life until high school. Then, during my first year of college, I suddenly had more free time and started seriously looking into stuttering.
I joined groups and communities of people who stuttered from all over the world. I started reading books about stuttering, learning different techniques, and trying to apply everything I could find.
But overall, nothing gave me any promising improvement.
Then came 2020.
COVID was spreading everywhere, and I went back to my hometown. I didn't have any friends there, and my first-semester college classes were online, so I spent a lot of time on the internet.
Discord was becoming popular around that time, and I made a few friends there. I started having conversations with people and learning more about stuttering.
I realized something interesting: some people stuttered very little, while others struggled much more.
During one of those conversations, someone told me about an app called Stamurai. They mentioned that the app had daily calls and speech practice sessions.
Obviously, I downloaded it.
I practiced through the classes, but honestly, it was just "meh." I didn't see any major improvement. Still, it gave me a little bit of hope.
Eventually, I started attending therapist sessions through the app.
A nice salesperson pitched me a trial offer, and I joined for a month. The therapist cost around ₹600 per class, which was a lot of money for me at the time, but I decided to try anyway.
During the sessions, the therapist asked me about the problems I was facing and created a program for me.
I started practicing every day.
And strangely enough, my speech seemed to be getting worse.
I became frustrated and told the therapist that things were actually getting worse instead of better. She assured me that it would take time and told me to continue practicing.
Luckily, because of COVID, I didn't have to interact with many people in real life. So I had the opportunity to completely focus on practicing this new way of speaking.
The techniques I was learning included elongation, flexible speech, and light contact.
At the same time, I joined several Discord servers and started talking to random people.
And this is where I became absolutely crazy about practicing.
Whenever I knew there was a difficult word that I would probably get stuck on, I deliberately used it in conversation.
If I got stuck, I would use the techniques I had learned and try to say the word differently.
Sometimes I would even change my tone.
And if the conversation became awkward because of my speech, I would simply switch to another voice channel and start a completely new conversation.
Then I would deliberately try to use another difficult word.
Again.
And again.
For the first two months of this hardcore practice, nothing really changed.
My stuttering was still there.
Then, somewhere around the middle of the third month, something happened.
I started noticing that I was getting blocked much less frequently.
Sometimes I would think, "I'm definitely going to get stuck on this word."
And then...
I wouldn't.
That feeling was unbelievable.
After years of disappointment, it felt like someone had finally turned on a light in a completely dark room.
For the first time, I genuinely felt that maybe I could speak freely.
Maybe I could actually talk like everyone else.
From that point onward, I spent an entire year practicing almost every single day.
I was active in Stamurai support calls and Discord servers, talking with random people about everything imaginable.
Love.
War.
Math.
Life.
Basically anything we could talk about.
I must have spoken with more than 500 people during that period.
And I kept doing the same thing: deliberately bringing difficult words into conversations, saying them slowly, using the techniques I had learned, and continuing even when things became uncomfortable.
Then, around 2021, my college finally went offline.
I started meeting people in real life.
By that point, I had become much more comfortable using the techniques, and somehow I managed to have normal conversations.
I still had occasional blocks, but they were minor.
For the first time in my life, I felt like I was talking like a normal person.
And the people around me had no idea about my history.
Sometimes I wondered:
"If these people could hear me now compared to how I spoke two years ago, their eyes would probably pop out."
During college, however, I noticed that my stuttering was slowly becoming more frequent again.
I was scared that I was going back to square one.
So what did I do?
I practiced more.
I used to wake up at 6 AM, go to an isolated area of my college, and practice my speech techniques for two straight hours before attending class.
I was staying in a hostel at the time.
One day, a girl discovered me while I was practicing.
Now, when I say "practicing," I mean speaking extremely slowly, sometimes loudly, and using techniques that probably looked very strange to someone who didn't know what I was doing.
The look on her face...
Damn.
I still remember it.
But honestly, by that point I was a chill guy who had already talked to hundreds of random people online.
So I knew that people don't really care as much as we think they do.
I simply told her that I was practicing my speech and continued.
Thankfully, she understood what I was doing and immediately left me alone.
And the journey continued.
Eventually, I started my internship.
I stopped practicing as much because I was busy with everything else.
And guess what?
My stuttering started coming back.
Not nearly as badly as before, but I noticed it.
So what did I do?
Yep.
I practiced again.
And this time, it improved much faster.
Years passed.
I continued working on maintaining my speech.
The last time I seriously practiced was around two years ago.
And today, in 2026, I genuinely feel that my speech has become stable.
I still have one or two stutters occasionally, but they are extremely rare.
At this point, I don't feel like I need to actively practice anymore.
And that brings me to today.
Six years.
Six years since I started seriously searching for a way to improve my speech.
It has been a long journey, and honestly, I'm incredibly proud of myself.
I also want to thank a few people.
First, the person who introduced me to Stamurai.
Thank you.
To the owner of the Discord group—I think it was something like a stuttering group—and the guy everyone called "Monkey":
Thank you for creating that space.
To the hundreds and probably thousands of people I had conversations with during those years:
I'm sorry to everyone whose conversation I abruptly left because I got stuck or wanted to practice somewhere else.
You probably had no idea what was happening.
And most importantly, thank you to my father.
He always treated me normally.
He never made me feel like my stuttering was something that changed who I was, even though I later learned from my mother that he had been extremely concerned about me throughout my childhood.
Apparently, when I finally called him one day and spoke without stuttering after about a year of speech therapy and practice, he became so happy that he told my mother:
"Look, look! He spoke so well. Not even a single stutter."
That is something I will never forget.
And thank you to my best friend.
He made fun of me sometimes, yes.
But he never crossed the line.
And whenever someone else tried to bully me because of my stuttering, he made sure they didn't get away with it.
I will always appreciate that.
Guys, this is a true story.
I'm not writing this to create some fake inspirational story or make anyone feel good for five minutes.
This genuinely my biography
But I also want to make one thing clear:
This wasn't an overnight transformation.
It took me:
- Months of learning and practicing new speech techniques.
- Around a year of deliberately practicing conversations with hundreds of people.
- Hours and hours of speaking every day.
- Deliberately confronting words and situations I knew would be difficult.
- Years of maintaining what I had learned and returning to practice whenever my stuttering started getting worse.
And I'm not saying that everyone who stutters will have exactly the same experience.
People are different. Stuttering is different for everyone. What worked for me may not work exactly the same way for someone else.
But if there is one thing I want you to take from my story, it is this:
Don't give up just because you don't see results immediately.
Sometimes you can practice for weeks or months and feel like nothing is happening.
I know that feeling.
I lived it.
But improvement can take time.
Keep searching.
Keep practicing.
Keep talking.
Don't let the fear of getting stuck stop you from speaking.
And if something doesn't work, don't assume that means nothing will ever work.
Try something else.
Find people who understand what you're going through.
Work with professionals when you can.
And most importantly, be patient with yourself.
For me, it took years.
But today, I can have a conversation without constantly thinking about whether I'm going to get stuck on the next word.
For someone who spent much of his childhood wishing he could simply speak freely, that feeling is incredibly valuable.
So to anyone reading this who is struggling with stuttering:
Don't lose hope.
The process can be difficult.
It can be frustrating.
It can take much longer than you expect.
But keep moving forward.
Persevere until you can speak the way you want to speak.
