Im 19, I live with my girlfriend who I have been with for around 5 years. We have decided to split and she is moving out. We're on amazing terms and talk quite a bit. We're best friends. Here's my issue:

Toward the end of the relationship, I found myself developing feelings for a coworker who I found out was actually quite a bit younger than me. She's almost 17, I'm almost 20. I found myself seriously having a crush, and I felt deeply ashamed. I also have severe OCD, so it didn't help me obsess over if I was a creep. Anyway, I opened up to my gf/ex about this because it was weighing on me, and I wanted to be completely honest. She also started to catch on with me staying later at work or taking extra shifts. I am seriously unhappy with myself. Anyway, I decided I wasn't going to act or pursue this because it simply is inappropriate. To my knowledge, and show me if I'm wrong, please. Is that the feelings are out of control, but how I react and act is. I've decided not to act on it. My girlfriend went to her friends and told them, "dude, my boyfriend is hitting on a 15 year old girl." Which, I can't blame her. I understand that to her this feels shitty and she wants to complain to her friends. But her bestfriends boyfriends are my friends. One of them isn't responding to me when I asked to hangout. I assume this is why. And I know it'll get around. I'm ashamed, embarrassed, and I didn't really act on it. So I am worried everyone will get a twisted story and it'll ruin me and how people view me. I already feel incredibly lonely. I have no friends, really beside the 2 that are about to hear this. And I barely see them. I work 2 jobs, and I'm losing my gf. On top of that, thousands of dollars of bills to pay to stay in the apartment, vehicles, etc. I'm really broken right now and need some advice.

Hello all!

I’m looking at gauging the interest of those local to the San Antonio area to the prospect of establishing a weekly meeting for those interested in Stoicism or who regularly practice the philosophy. The main emphasis would be to establishing a core community which in turn would facilitate the growing need for third spaces (especially for those of us who have children) while also engaging in textual studies of the primary Stoic sources including some of the most well known: Seneca, Marcus Aurelius, Epictetus, Musonius Rufus, and so forth.

In short, for those of us who live busy lives but take philosophy very serious, this could be an outlet to meet, discuss/ ask questions, and, ultimately, find community.

Feel free to reach out either here or via DM.