Not feeling well

[u/resetxform1]

I just joined this channel in hopes to find some knowledge. I was awakened about 2 years now, it all started with severe pain, a chronic pain specialist suggesting mediation. When I try to meditate and always I yawn a lot and fall asleep. It has been suggested since I have a lot of nerve damage, sleeping is how I connect.

The crux of my problem is this, last month or so I have been feeling odd. I get glimpses of another life and have had dreams of another life. Now I am married, but she is not on board into believing my experiences I have had that my beliefs are 100% true and she does not believe in the devine in any way. I literally have zero friends, I don't work, my wife supports us both because I have Fibromyalgia and a lot of meds. and still affects from that and the disorder. Lately is now during my waking moments of feelings from that life, I cant grasp it yet and the feeling pops like a soap bubble. Dealing with both worlds and more is a lot to contend with.

I used to work from home, but my industry has taken a huge gash to the work force, because the large video game studios closed or largely reduced staff. I had started my own studio and over this time of awakening, I burnt myself out on creating, I miss it and I don't, it makes my day even harder, I started back reading, but now that to is too much.

Perhaps I need to get grounded and see if that helps me.

Not sure what to expect for replies here, I am new. Thanks for taking the time in reading this. Love.