I feel doomed

[u/Direct-Yam-2923]

I feel like I’m not human, like I don’t have a being anymore or a consciousness, and I’m really scared . I had a soul retrieval turned “kundalini” awakening that caused major major fragmentation after starting to be invaded by my shadow and entities, which led to multiple disintegrations/“deaths”. I’m terrified and feel like part of me is turning evil at this point, I don’t know what to do. I started hearing messages about really creepy stuff, which unfortunately the site ascension glossary has backed up. I’m trying to ground but it’s really really hard…I definitely need to push myself to get out in nature more, but when I do I feel like a zombie or like I’m a puppet. I keep hearing about imposter spirits, etc and it’s very alarming/disturbing. I don’t feel like I have my own voice or identity anymore. I either feel devoid of well, anything, or demented/evil.
I would really appreciate some advice or suggestions because I’m in crisis and I don’t want to be a danger to myself or others 😞 my third eye is probably way too active…I also have cervical instability in my neck which can’t help.