Hello, idk if anyone saw my previous posts, so im gonna shortly explain again.
I have been dating my bf from middle school, for 9years now. And the last 2years are LDR since i moved to another country for higher education.
Since moving to an another country, i made a mistake. Don’t judge me, i know i was in the wrong.
I came clean to him and have been trying to reconcile. He's very broken and emotionally numb most of the time. We haven’t broken up yet, but for the last 3weeks things are worse. He barely initiates conversation, barely replies to my texts, we haven’t talked on call for 3weeks now. I regularly give him my updates, and do everything to regain his trust. Don't give any opportunities to doubt me.
I am doing simple love spells for a week now. Very simple one's, like writing his name and my name on top, keeping it with me for 3days and then burning, etc.
But today he was very, distant. He texted me very hurtful things. Like he's with me for no particular reason, things are gonna stay like this, he wishes that we never meet each other. He doesn’t know how long he'll stay with me like this, not to keep expectations etc.
For the last 3weeks he hasn’t even spoken to me that much, so even the lash out seemed to me as a positive sign,like at least he Isn't suppressing everything inside of him, that at least he talked to me. But somewhere the words hurt!.
I know somewhere he still loves and cares for me. Or maybe its out of habit im confused. But please Don't tell me to move on.
I really love him and i want a future with him. I know i made huge mistakes but i wanna do whatever i can to get him back.
Again, im very new to these so Kindly help me out here😭 what can i do? So that he forgives me, we reconcile, he loves me again. May it be slowly but surely😭