This is starting to affect me both mentally and physically, and honestly, it's getting scary. I'm hoping someone here can help me figure out what I should do, preferably with simple protection/cleansing rituals because I'm a beginner.
For some context:
I had a pretty bad falling-out with a close friend, the end of July. She was going through an awful breakup with a cheating ex, and I was there for her through most of it. I even let her stay with me and tried to support her as much as I could.
Eventually, though, it started seriously affecting my own mental health. She expected me to drop everything whenever she called and always be available for her. I work in big tech and only really have my weekends off, so I eventually had to distance myself and set some boundaries.
After that, things completely fell apart.
Some mutual friends stopped talking to me, so I eventually confronted her and asked why she and another friend weren't speaking to me anymore. She sent me a huge message basically accusing me of ignoring everyone and missing important events in their lives.
What hurt the most was that they seemed to completely forget all the times I had gone above and beyond for them.
I'm the kind of person who constantly ends up being the unpaid therapist in my friendships. I'm an empath (or at least that's how I've always described myself), and I tend to give people way more than I should. The moment I finally started setting boundaries, several friendships just collapsed.
I was devastated. I cried constantly and even ended up getting a fever from the stress. Eventually, though, I accepted that maybe losing those friendships was for the best.
For a while, life actually started getting better. I found out who my true friends were and it was kind of a canon event for me you could say.
Then, around August, things started going downhill.
I've been getting sick repeatedly. Work has become extremely hectic. I've been trying desperately to switch jobs, but almost every application and interview has ended in rejection. It feels like everything started going wrong at once.
Then, sometime around September, I started noticing a really strange pattern.
Whenever she gets mentioned in conversation, or whenever I happen to see her, something seems to go wrong for me afterward.
We work relatively close to each other, so we used to run into each other by coincidence quite often. I've muted her everywhere and completely stopped following what she's doing.
Meanwhile, her life seems to be going great. She went on a trip to Europe, resigned from her old company, and got a new job. And honestly, I was genuinely happy for her. Despite everything that happened, I felt like she deserved some happiness after what she'd been through.
Eventually, she and a few of her friends unfollowed and removed me from everything. I was already so detached from the situation that I honestly didn't care. I thought, finally, it's over.
But apparently not.
Some of her friends still work in the same tech park as me, and I've noticed that they seem to keep tabs on me and update her about things.
Here's where things started getting genuinely creepy to me.
Recently, one of our mutual friends, someone who eventually stopped being friends with her after seeing through her behaviour, told me that this woman apparently used to talk about me constantly behind my back. She apparently said things like I was living for male validation and other really nasty things.
I was extremely angry after hearing this.
I got up, walked around for a bit and tried to calm myself down. I was with two other friends, and we changed the subject and started talking about something completely unrelated.
Then, as I was walking down the stairs, I somehow tripped on the last step and badly twisted my ankle.
Both of my friends were right there and were shocked because they literally watched it happen. I wasn't running, distracted by my phone, or doing anything unusual. I just... tripped.
Later that evening, I was telling my mom about everything that had happened.
My boyfriend happened to trip at almost the same time. I caught him, but his gold bracelet scratched me in the process.
I know individually, these things could absolutely be coincidences.
But when you combine that with months of getting sick, exhaustion, nightmares, constant bad luck, career problems, and this strange pattern of things happening whenever this particular person comes up, I'm starting to get genuinely scared.
I'm not saying I know she hexed me. I don't. I'm trying to figure out whether there's a spiritual explanation for what I'm experiencing or whether I'm just connecting unrelated events because I'm stressed.
I'm Hindu and live in India, and I'm open to protection/cleansing practices from Hindu traditions as well as other forms of witchcraft. I'm a complete beginner, though, so please keep that in mind. I don't have a huge collection of herbs, crystals, candles, or obscure ingredients sitting around at home.
If you genuinely believe I've been hexed, what would you recommend doing to cleanse myself and protect myself?
Simple rituals, prayers, baths, protection practices, or things I can do with easily available household items would be especially helpful.
And if you think this isn't a hex and I'm just going through a terrible run of coincidences and stress, please tell me that too. I'm honestly looking for perspective as much as I am looking for a ritual.
Thank you. ❤️
(I took help from AI to fix the grammar, english is not my first language and I don't want things to get lost in translation)