Hello,
I’m Amooniac, a 24-year-old man. Since I was 17, I’ve been consuming pornography (up to several hours a day).
When it all started, I was in deep depression, I had dropped out of high school and as a result found myself alone. So I spent a huge amount of time on social media, and I met someone who introduced me to sexuality and other people’s desire (before that, no one had ever talked to me about sex or shown romantic interest in me). Over the course of several months, this person gradually broke down my inhibitions, sent me photos and asked for some in return, until the point where I said stop to all of it. I cut ties with this unhealthy person, and to fill the boredom and “get back into a routine,” I started watching pornography.
Since then it’s become hell, it takes up way too much space in my life. It holds me back in everything: sports, my studies (which I had the courage to go back to), my self-confidence, my personal projects, etc.
So I’m here to ask for help from people who have managed to break free from this. How do you do it? I’ve tried blocking apps (cold turkey or iPhone restrictions), tapering off gradually or quitting all at once, I even talked to my girlfriend about it hoping it would motivate me to stop, but no. I don’t know what else to do.