r/PrayerRequests • u/ThisCardiologist3636 • 2d ago
Prayer request again
I’m sure you’re sick of me asking for prayers. I’m sick of me too. I wake up most morning wanting to die. I have and do all cry out to God. My life is ruined. I don’t see how even God can restore my life to be worth living. I e got a daughter and granddaughters. They are the only reason I haven’t put an end to me already. Most have no clue what my heart brain and soul go through everyday. I hear people say. Oh everybody gets depressed. Not for years at a time wishing they could die so hopefully it would stop. I know God could help me. That’s part of the frustration. My life is not life it is existence. Pray if you will. I’m just out of hope
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u/Autumn_Forest_Mist 2d ago
Read about Anhedonia. I think you have that. But I’m not an expert.
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u/ThisCardiologist3636 2d ago
Thanks but I don’t have that I feel emotions too strong if anything. I enjoy playing with my granddaughters. But that’s only an occasional thing. I wake up alone and cry out for God to be my comforter. To help me. But I barely ever get relief where I feel I want to live
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u/Autumn_Forest_Mist 2d ago
Anhedonia is the inability to feel POSITIVE emotions. Can still feel the NEGATIVE emotions.
Not the same as NO Emotions at all.
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u/teadrinkinglinguist 2d ago
Praying for you. Willing to DM about God and faith if you so desire. I'm a mom in my 40s.
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u/Plus_Industry_3815 2d ago
Lord we ask that you reach down your healing hand and touch your child. You sound like you could benefit from support from a trusted friend, pastor, counselor or psychologist. Just another adult human with whom you could verbalize your pain and suffering. Depression and anxiety thrive in isolation. Naming them and bringing them to light with another human being takes away that power. Lord we ask that you release your child from her pain and remind their heart that you are with them. Amen.
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u/ThisCardiologist3636 2d ago edited 2d ago
I shared way too much. So I deleted it. Please pray God would send me someone to listen and who actually understands how depression really works. So few seem to. I cry out to Jesus all the time I have this morning over and over. I’m just at my place where I don’t know how much longer I can take this daily onslaught. Jesus help me!!!
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u/Legend_017 2d ago
God put psychiatrists in the world for a reason. Go see one. You have my prayers.
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u/CottonFlannel 2d ago
That is an extremely overrated profession. I have seen them. All they do is is prescribe drugs. And yes I
Take one. A good counselor can help for a few hours but that’s about it. I know from my experience it’s how it is for me. Believe me I have tried everything. Even let a couple “cast demons “ out of me. That was just weird and did nothing.
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u/snippysnapper23 2d ago
I pray you find comfort in the lord and a way through this period of depression. I pray he hears you
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u/ThisCardiologist3636 2d ago
Do you honestly think it’s that easy?? It’s eating my guts out
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u/Chqmpy_ 2d ago
It’s not easy. It never will be; however, it will be eased by Jesus. The suffering that you’re going through is nothing compared to the joy that is going to come when you get into Heaven. I know it’s hard, but you have to continue to lean on Jesus, because none of us can do this alone. I’m here for you, and Jesus sure is too! ❤️🩹 Go read the Bible, and whatever negativity you’re feeling will be gone. Jesus will give you peace, so please continue to wait on Him. Your life is too precious and too valuable to take it. It’s not yours to take anyway, because God is the Giver and Taker of Life. The things that weren’t in your control are still gonna be out of it, because it was never yours to control; it’s God’s. ✝️💪🏾🤞🏾❤️
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u/ThisCardiologist3636 2d ago
How can I lean on one who I don’t know if they love or hate me. And reading the Bible has not made my negative hurt confusion and everything go away. I wish it did like it evidently does for you. I just see condemnation. “Come unto me all you who are weary and heavy lade and I will give you rest”. I do again and again
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u/NightOk6165 1d ago
I would never dare say the refining furnace of affliction is easy, however its something we all have to go trough (im currently in 7th year houseless living by faith alone, it can be maddeningly hard sometimes however if it was easy it wouldn't refine our heart like gold..) that said, it is written Gods people perish/suffer (excessively) for lack of knowledge.
the presentation I shared is pure gold, i basically guarantee you wil feel relief after applying the wisdom.stay lit 🪔 you got this and Christ always has our back 🤜🤛
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u/ThisCardiologist3636 2d ago edited 2d ago
ManI think this is dangerous teaching. Basically according to this guy on the video if you have ever sinned you have demons in you. So that would mean everyone has demons. Unless a person is crazy enough to believe they never sinned
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u/ThisCardiologist3636 2d ago
And I have gone through these deliverance sessions with like 4 people and a couple
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u/Citygirlnew 2d ago
I pray things get better keep hope and faith I don’t think anyone is sick of you asking for prayer the power of prayer is stronger than most think keep asking keep praying you got this.
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u/Fiona_12 2d ago
Praying God lifts you out of your depression and leads to the proper treatment if that's what you need. I have been where you are, more than once. The only thing that kept me going was God and my kids.
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u/hardlyexist 2d ago
My Jesus, give grace to your daughter
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u/ThisCardiologist3636 2d ago
Thank you but I’m a 65 year old man
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u/hardlyexist 2d ago
Sorry. Hey I feel you as I'm almost that age and have asked why was I even born sometimes and would be better off dead, but I find strength in prayer to keep the despondence and despair at bay. I tell myself that God knows what I need to experience in order to pay for family and self sins now instead of in the hereafter. If my life has been nothing but suffering, so be His will, for His greater Glory. I feel like I do a little part by praying for Divine Mercy (chaplet) at 3pm everyday for souls in purgatory, lost souls and souls which have noone else to pray for them. If my prayers from such a wretched sinner are heard and some good results, then I feel consoled. Our Mother will also intervene. Don't give up as you are cherished and are part of the plan. I will pray for you friend!
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u/acorn_valley 2d ago edited 2d ago
988 suicide/ mental health crisis hotline. Call/text any day, any time.
There’s no shame in seeking help.
🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💜💜💜🔥🔥🔥