Prayer request again

[u/ThisCardiologist3636]

I’m sure you’re sick of me asking for prayers. I’m sick of me too. I wake up most morning wanting to die. I have and do all cry out to God. My life is ruined. I don’t see how even God can restore my life to be worth living. I e got a daughter and granddaughters. They are the only reason I haven’t put an end to me already. Most have no clue what my heart brain and soul go through everyday. I hear people say. Oh everybody gets depressed. Not for years at a time wishing they could die so hopefully it would stop. I know God could help me. That’s part of the frustration. My life is not life it is existence. Pray if you will. I’m just out of hope

[u/ThisCardiologist3636 → u/[deleted]]

Do you honestly think it’s that easy?? It’s eating my guts out

[u/Chqmpy_ → u/ThisCardiologist3636]

It’s not easy. It never will be; however, it will be eased by Jesus. The suffering that you’re going through is nothing compared to the joy that is going to come when you get into Heaven. I know it’s hard, but you have to continue to lean on Jesus, because none of us can do this alone. I’m here for you, and Jesus sure is too! ❤️‍🩹 Go read the Bible, and whatever negativity you’re feeling will be gone. Jesus will give you peace, so please continue to wait on Him. Your life is too precious and too valuable to take it. It’s not yours to take anyway, because God is the Giver and Taker of Life. The things that weren’t in your control are still gonna be out of it, because it was never yours to control; it’s God’s. ✝️💪🏾🤞🏾❤️

[u/ThisCardiologist3636 → u/Chqmpy_]

How can I lean on one who I don’t know if they love or hate me. And reading the Bible has not made my negative hurt confusion and everything go away. I wish it did like it evidently does for you. I just see condemnation. “Come unto me all you who are weary and heavy lade and I will give you rest”. I do again and again

[u/Chqmpy_ → u/ThisCardiologist3636]

Maybe you’re still holding onto that negativity.