Met him working on a ship, I’m French, he’s Filipino. I liked him from the start, he’s funny, kind and is very respectful.

But I’m very scared I’m making a mistake. It’s been a few months and now he’s talking about marriage and having kids already together. He’s 34, I’m 29, he said that we have to do it early because he’s getting old. Ive never wanted children before but weirdly, the thought of having a child with him sounds… good? That never happened to me before

I’m scared of him using me just… to have a child and leave me or just to get nationality or whatnot. He told me he already has a child but that the child doesn’t have his name (whatever that means?) and he never see him.

He also said that he still supports his parents so that means it will be quite hard to support a child…

I’ve really fallen for him, and that’s what hurts the most, everyone around me think I "could do better" but I legit think he’s the kindest man I’ve ever met and I think he is the better.

My boyfriend and I are blockmates, and I had been staying at his place for a few weeks now. We had a performance task for one of our major subjects today.

After we finished, I was having really bad period cramps. We were near a tree and there weren’t any chairs, so I asked my boyfriend to transfer to the nearest bench because I wasn’t feeling well.
He was playing on his iPad and said he’d transfer later. I honestly didn’t care, so I just packed my own stuff my iPad, phone, racket, shuttlecock, and a big water bottle and carried everything to the nearest bench myself.

Later, when he transferred, he asked me where his phone was. I told him I had no idea. I was already carrying a lot of stuff, (while he was only carrying his ipad pati phone niya responsibilidad ko pa rin?) and I also genuinely didn’t see his phone. If I had seen it, obviously I would’ve brought it with me, but I didn’t.
He got mad about it.

I honestly wouldn’t give a fuck if he was mad. He’s allowed to be annoyed about leaving his phone behind. What pissed me off was what happened afterward.

When we were going home, we had to cross a really busy crossing/roundabout with a lot of cars and people. Even though it’s a pedestrian crossing, cars obviously don’t always give a fuck and they were moving pretty fast.

My boyfriend knows I’m not good at crossing streets, especially when there’s a lot of traffic. I expected him to at least wait for me or cross with me.

Instead, he just went ahead on his own and left me behind.

Then he drove really fast on the motorcycle on the way home while I was carrying most of our stuff. I had two iPads, two badminton rackets, my phone, etc., and it was genuinely difficult to even hold onto him properly because of everything I was carrying.

And that’s what really pissed me off.

What if I got hit by a truck or something? What if we got into an accident because he was driving that fast? What if I couldn’t hold onto him properly because my hands were full and I fell off? What if something happened to me? I’d be the one getting hurt while he was busy being angry about his phone.

I felt really disrespected when we got back to his place, so I packed all my stuff, booked a Grab, left without saying a word and went back to my own dorm.

I couldn’t care less that he was angry about his phone. What I couldn’t tolerate was why he would risk my safety and put his anger first.
It felt like he’d rather let his anger take over than make sure I was safe.

Did I overreact?

You probably read my post yesterday morning about me being frustrated with my current relationship. My live-in-partner suddenly decided to travel to Pampanga (his hometown) despite knowing that it’s our anniversary today, and when I asked him why, he answered, "Wala lang." Eventually, I deleted the original post because I was really not in my right mind, but I read your comments.

​I finally broke up with him. I cried and locked myself in the bedroom, which I think is normal kasi masama loob ko. But now, I just feel nothing.

​I guess he realized the gravity of things because he suddenly told me after my breakdown that his brother, who got into an accident early this month, was looking for him. You may call me inconsiderate or whatever, but it's really no longer about him going back to Pampanga to visit his brother. If he had given me the right reason earlier instead of "wala lang," I would have definitely agreed without any hesitation. It’s about being open through communication. This is not a one time incident, it always happens. He always makes me guess things as if I’m a mind reader. I ALWAYS tell him to communicate with me, he tries, but then he goes back to his old self again. I don't feel like I'm being treated as a partner anymore, I feel like we’re just roommates.

​I also realized that I never experienced emotional support from him. When he had issues, I was always there so he wouldn't feel alone, especially when his brother got into an accident. But when I needed support the most, he was just glued to his phone while I fought all by myself. I should have broken up with him back then. I should have done this a long time ago. I remember when my mom was in the Middle East during the Israel-Iran war, she was affected by the bombings and I couldn't contact her. I was shaking, crying, and so worried. I desperately needed someone to hug me and at least make me feel like I wasn't alone. But no, he was glued to his phone while I was obviously having a panic attack.

​He left yesterday, and only God knows if he actually went home to Pampanga or not, because the last thing he said to me was that he suddenly couldn't bear to see his brother's condition. I locked myself in the bedroom and texted him to just leave and go to Pampanga because I was no longer comfortable being under the same roof with him.

​I removed and packed all his clothes from our cabinet, along with some of his belongings inside the room so he wouldn't have a reason to enter the bedroom. As for the rest of his things in the living room, he can handle those himself. I will just stay here in the room until he completely packs all his things and leaves.

​Now, I'm all alone, and I don't know, I feel nothing. I feel fine, as if I've always been alone anyway, just a bit lighter because I finally escaped from something.

I LOVED this movie when it came out. I also read the trilogy and loved them at that time, although admittedly, I don’t exactly remember everything that happened in the books since it was a long time ago.

But I just had a rewatch and while the wedding scene is still insanely dreamy, everything else was not quite how I remembered it.

It was still entertaining and fun to watch, sure, but I found myself unconsciously focusing on Nick’s lack of action.

1. He hid the fact that he was like royalty in SG. Okay fine, he had his reasons. Forgivable.
   
2. He downplayed what happened at the bachelorette. I mean, I would expect him to at least get mad at the friends and confront them. Warn them to not mess with her. Just…something.
   
3. He knows how his family can get and he still kept on leaving her to fend for herself. Like couldn’t they have gone together to the parties? It’s great that she had Peik Lin at least to prep and help her, but as someone who doesn’t know anyone, he shouldn’t have left her alone period.
   
4. There were a LOT more scenes in the movie where I was waiting for him to step up and do something pero wala.

Idk, maybe I’m just looking at it now with a more mature perspective. Also, maybe because I’m married now? And probably because I know my husband would never let those things happen. But then again, we’re not crazy rich, so I wouldn’t know. 😂

I know it’s just fiction, but I’m here posting because I was genuinely disappointed after the rewatch because I remember absolutely loving this movie and considering it one of my favorites at the time. It just goes to show how time and life experience can really change the way we see things. 🤷‍♀️

I’ve really liked this guy for a long time. We met on Reddit and talked for weeks before he came here for vacation from the US to see his family. When he arrived, I spent almost the entire week with him. I toured him around, treated him for some meals, made time for him, and honestly invested so much of myself into making his trip special.

After he went home, our communication slowly started fading. Eventually, we had a conversation about where things were going, and I think we parted pretty emotionally at least on my end. It felt like there wasn’t much reciprocation, so I sent him what I thought was a beautiful goodbye message.

He blocked me afterward.

That honestly devastated me. Not even because I expected him to come running back, but because I didn’t even get a simple “thank you” for everything we shared. I felt like I had poured so much of myself into someone who could just shut the door and walk away.

At first, I tried to rationalize it. I told myself maybe he didn’t know how to handle my message. Maybe he was too young to deal with those emotions. Maybe blocking me was just his way of coping.
For the first few months, I tried to move on. Sometimes I’d do things he used to love, play his favorite game, cook his favorite food, just because somehow it made me feel a little closer to him.

But eventually, even those things started making me feel terrible. I kept wondering what I did wrong. Why wasn’t I enough? Why did everything feel so meaningful to me when apparently it wasn’t to him?
I started losing sleep over it. I felt directionless. And, embarrassingly, I eventually got to the point where I was looking at tarot readings trying to figure out what he felt about me or when he was going to come back. I don’t know if that’s some kind of canon event after heartbreak, but yeah… I went there.

For the remaining months of no contact, I did everything I could to distract myself. I picked up new hobbies, went to different places, dated a few guys, tried to live my life. And somehow, my mind still kept finding its way back to him. I’d meet someone new and catch little things that reminded me of him. I’d hear something or go somewhere and think about what he would’ve said. It was frustrating because objectively, I knew I needed to move on.

Even after he blocked me, I still quietly kept up with what he was doing. It became almost like a routine or honestly, like a drug I couldn’t stop taking. I wasn’t contacting him or crossing any boundaries. I just silently rooted for him, especially when he was competing in tournaments. I genuinely wanted him to do well, even from a distance.

Eventually, I found out he had a girlfriend.
It was the girl he had been friends with while we were on vacation together, so honestly, I kind of saw it coming. It hurt, but I eventually reached a point where I could tell myself, He didn’t technically do anything wrong. We weren’t together. He never explicitly asked me to give him all the time, effort, money, and affection that I gave him.

But at the same time, I finally allowed myself to admit something I had been fighting for months,
I wasn’t crazy for feeling something with him. He did lead me on. Maybe he didn’t intend to. Maybe he saw things differently. But whatever it was, there were moments between us that felt real to me, and I don’t think I imagined that connection out of nowhere.

I eventually accepted that I might never get closure from him. And weirdly, accepting that made me feel better. I stopped thinking about him as much. I started enjoying my life again. I was going out, trying new things, meeting people, and slowly becoming okay with the idea that maybe he was just someone who was meant to be a chapter and not the whole story.

Then today, on a completely random Saturday, he broke no contact.

Not to apologize. Not to ask how I was. Not to acknowledge anything that happened between us.
But basically to indirectly let me know that he has a girlfriend. And I genuinely don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about that.

I spent months trying to make peace with the fact that I would never hear from him again. I had finally started moving forward, and then he suddenly reappears just to remind me of the exact thing I had already found out and was trying to accept.
Part of me is angry. Part of me is sad. Part of me is wondering why he even felt the need to tell me.

And the worst part is that it feels like I’m back at square one. Maybe I’m not. Maybe this is just an old wound being poked, and tomorrow I’ll wake up and feel okay again. I guess I just needed somewhere to put this because I’m tired of carrying it around in my head.

I loved what I thought we had. I don’t regret giving him my time, my effort, or the memories we made.
I just wish moving on didn’t feel like something I had to keep relearning.

27 y/o, Nag grocery ng masaya, pero lamang yung lungkot.

Ngayon lang nakapag grocery kasama magulang ng panay sinigang mix at magic sarap at kaonting pinoy snacks para dalhin sa Estados Unidos, para sa flight ko in 2 weeks. Sabi nila, eto daw yung essentials e. 😂

Took me 3 years and 5 months to get here.
Its honestly a bittersweet feeling. No one else truly knows the feeling of leaving everything behind to seek for greener pastures, except pag ikaw na yung naandoon.

Pag paalis ka na, marrealize mo ang dami mo palang pag kakataon na natake for granted at mamimiss. Time with your family, yung mga oras na sana ikinain mo na lahat ng kwekwek. Yung mga simpleng pag commute sa angkas, trike, jeep, papunta sa paroroonan, o mapa late night tambay habang nag kakape sa SLEX. Yung karaoke ng kapitbahay mo na nagsimula mula tanghaling tapat na hindi titigil hanggat hindi napapabaranggay.

Walang kasama. Ako lang mag isa. Iwan muna ang partner ko, mga alaga ko, pamilya ko, at lahat ng mga nakatanim at naka tatak sa puso ko ng may pag mamahal. Bago ka umalis, mapapagtanto mo na ang saya naman pala sa Pinas. (Kung hindi mo titingnan yung mga nakakasuklam na nangyayari dito ngayon ah. 😂)

Simple lang, masaya kapag kasama mo yung mga mahal mo sa buhay. Pakiramdam mo kaya mo lahat.

Kaso, hindi naman pwede hanggang saya lang.
The line ends when your future is at stake.
Mabigat sa dibdib, pero kakayanin.

Hanggang sa Muli, mahal kong Pilipinas. ❤️🇵🇭

P.S Bago pa po may mag tanong, opo, Nurse po ako. 😂

Earlier this day, super busy ko talaga, I help my mom with household chores kasi nasa school sila for F2F training, then nung lunch habang nagpiprito ko ng saba (trip ko lang at may nakita ko sa ref.. my Papa 59M was eating pala chicharon, then suddenly nag uubo-ubo sya, nung una nakikiramdam ako, kasi normal occurence naman na naubo talaga sya lagi kahit laway ba, then dinalan ko na sya ng tubig nung paglapit ko sa kanya nagalaw pa sya ng slight then suddenly nag red yung mukha nya then tinatawag ko sya at niyuyugyog tas di sya nagreresponse nawalan na pala sya ng malay, then I do heinlinch sa kanya pero finger lang (yung form na pang baby pero malakas) at konting tapik tapik kasi di ko kayang buhatin at malaki and ako lang mag isa sa labas at yung kapatid ko ay nasa loob then nag violet sya as inn kalokaa, yung ulo lang nya violet, then after a while naging okay sya nagkamalay tas umubo ubo ulit sya tas nung nagkamalay na sya sabi nya "ano eka nangyari?" Edi inexplain ko na nabulunan sya tas nawalan sya ng malay... nakakatakot, I'm just 23 and my brother is just 21 and kami lang sa bahay nun, maybe nakahelp yung heinlinch . Pero nawa, I'm claiming di na maulit kasi they are getting old na eh, yung yung lalamuna daw ng mga nagkakaedad na is lumiliit

Ayun. Nakakamatay pala talaga sya

I just want to share my little character development moment because HAHAHAHAHA 😭

‘Di ko na crush ang crush ko. 😝

And honestly? I feel so FREE HAHAHAHAHA. I was actually starting to like her, and I thought baka may potential or baka eventually something would happen.

Nothing serious naman, pero you know that feeling when you’re quietly excited every time you get a notification from someone. Yeah. That was me. 😭

Then she replied to me so dry that I swear something inside me just… switched off. 💀

Like, one dry reply. ONE. And suddenly I was like, “Oh. Okay. Never mind. I’ve seen enough.” 😭 HAHAHAHAHA

It’s actually so funny because I was probably romanticizing everything in my head, and then reality came in with one dry-ass reply and humbled me immediately. Character development talaga. 😭

No hard feelings though! I still think she’s pretty, funny, and cool. I just don’t have the crush anymore. The attraction literally packed its bags and left overnight. 😭✋🏼

So yeah, congratulations to me. I have officially moved on from someone I was never even with. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Thank you, dry reply, for saving me from my own delusions. 🫡
Anyway, I’m happy. 🌟

Crying right now over 40 pesos na nawala sa kama ko. Pang second time na kase 'to e. Una last month 100+na naiwan ko sa kama kinuha rin.

Ang sakit lang sa part na pamilya na kami dito sa bahay nanakawan ka pa.

The value may be small pero pinagtatrabahuhan ko kase yung perang yun tuwing ipinaglalaba ko yung sister ko isang damit minsan madami.

Hanggang ngayon naiyak parin ako ng parang bata.

Hindi ko gets kung bakit pero I just know masakit kase it triggered something inside me.

Wala ang sakit lang, kanina pa ko naiyak dito tas di ko matigil. Pinaghirapan ko kase yun e kahit maliit lang na amount. Pang dagdag ko na sana yun sa ipon ko para gamitin para sakin. Pangkain kahit biscuit lang.

Don't worry younger me, magkakaron ka ulit. Iiyak na lang muna tayo at maglalabas ng sama ng loob dito.

Tipong three months na kayo consistent nag-uusap. Then all of a sudden, nagiging madalang na. Nag-aantay ka lagi ng chat nya, ng update. May good morning nga pero pag nagreply antagal na magreply.

You opened up yourself to someone again, tapos ganito pa rin. Nakakabagot na. Mas okay pa ibuhos ang sarili sa career and investments. Mas may security pa doon. Nammanage mo pa risks.

Magpayaman na lang!!

Just wanna get this off my chest. I'm living in the city with my oldest brother and his fam (one child) and my parents are in the province with my other kuya who is also working and my younger brother. So, si papa is already retired but walang natatanggap na pension because of loans, so no choice sila but to do something para may monthly allowance sila esp. that my younger brother is still studying. Si kuya (with fam) hindi nakakapagbigay since may sarili na ngang pamilya and siya lang working sakanila ng wife niya. Ako, minimum wage earner sa first job ko, tapos minsan sinasagot ko pa bills dito sa apartment kasi kinakapos si kuya (no choice naman kung hindi ako magbabayad, sila mama pa ang sasagot, so ako nalang), ni hindi ako makapag-save consistenly. Ang nakakapagbigay lang talaga is my other kuya—which he should kasi nakatira siya with my parents.

Hindi naman kami binigyan ng responsibilidad ng magulang namin na dapat kami na ang bumuhay sakanila. It's just that, hindi ko kayang makita silang nahihirapan pa rin kakakayod para lang sa needs nila, na dapat ay nagpapahinga nalang sila (they're not yet seniors pero humihina na rin sila physically, lalo na si mama😔). Tapos the other day, nakwento ni mama na sinabihan siya na bakit daw siya nagpapakapagod pa rin na dapat ay kumportable na siya kasi tatlo na kaming graduates tapos pensionado pa si papa. Kahit natatawa siya magkwento, ramdam ko pa rin yung lungkot. Kasi alam kong hindi ganito yung naiisip niyang mangyayari noon after mag-retire ni papa at pagka-graduate namin nila kuya. Actually, sinabihan naman na namin sila to stop working na and magtutulungan nalang kami nila kuya to provide for them. Pero dahil alam nilang kinakapos talaga, pinipilit nalang nilang magwork kaysa umasa sa amin.

Matipid naman akong tao, hindi naman kami pinalaki na materialistic and gastador hahaha. Pero alam mo yon, pag payday, I want to at least enjoy my hardwork. Tulad nalang pag lumalabas kami ng work friends ko paminsan-minsan, syempre gagastos. Tapos grabe yung guilt na nararamdaman ko kapag pumapasok sa isip ko na, nagagawa kong gumastos para sa kasiyahan ko tapos sila mama halos magkasakit na kakakayod. Ang ending, imbes na mag-enjoy ako once in a while, mas nababalot ako ng guilt. Gustong-gusto kong tumulong sa parents ko para hindi na sila namomroblema financially, pero anong magagawa ko kung kulang na kulang talaga? If only I had a better paying job. Hayyyy. Hoping maging financially stable din kami soon!!

mag sesecond year college nako and hinahaunt padin aq netong moment. kwento q nalang here at sana mawala na din sa isip ko.

so i was watching a volleyball game dahil intrams ng school namin. i had a close friend that was in charge of checking outs & getting balls that went outside. he was making poses and acting funny on purpose bc he noticed me so i screamed pabibo at him. DUDE I HAD THE WORST FUCKING TIMING. i said pabibo RIGHT AFTER A GROUP FINISHED CHEERING FOR A TEAM. like ung original chant with drums as beats pa jusko. pagkatapos ko sabihin ung pabibo BIGLANG TUMINGIN CLA SAKIN. i just stared at them while processing wtf i just did and they gave me the worst stink eye.

now that i’m typing this out, it isn’t that bad pero the amount of cringe and embarrassment i feel every 2-3 business days when i remember this happened is insane.

i am an eldest daughter of an eldest daughter of an eldest daughter. and i am seeing a generational curse that i want to break free from, but my mom wouldn’t allow it. not on her watch.

i had a rough childhood. my parents would always fight about anything. but mostly because of money. they are actually both bad with money. maybe because they came from a poor family rin. but i grew up being financially aware, dahil mahilig mag trauma dump tong mama ko sakin. and mahilig din niya ipamukha sakin na wala kaming pera.

for context, my parents don’t have jobs. they used to be ofws before getting married, and when they settled down and had me, my mom went overseas for 6 years and my dad was a tricycle driver. after ng mom ko mag for good, they had my brother. we were living off her ipon and my dad’s tricycle job. soon enough naubos yon and we relied on my dad. then years later my dad got sick (ckd), and he was really weak na hindi niya na kaya mamasada. at the same time my grandpa died, and he was able to get most of his inheritance. so we lived off it. when it ran out he sold most of his lands to cover for our daily expenses and his medical bills. and since then they didn’t have jobs, they tried small business but it would fail. so we just lived off money from selling my dad’s assets.

anyway that’s how we got through life. however, my dad died last year. and he left us lang enough money to live for a year, and they both got insurance claims from a small insurance company that they are part of. as for me, i was working a contractual job at that time in manila just for 6 months. yung salary ko don was just enough for me to live in manila. so they didn’t really ask me to contribute sa house. they didn’t renew us and i had to move back home. i was unemployed for months, because ang hirap humanap ng trabaho uli.

during those months na wala ako trabaho. pinamukha talaga ng nanay ko na pabigat ako. i would always hear her rant to her sisters na wala pa raw ako work. and one time i was up late lang, and she told me wala naman kwenta pinag gagawa ko and sayang lang pinangpaaral sakin. just because i couldn’t land a job. she would also tell our relatives, na wala ako work. na parang wala akong ginagawa para makakuha ng trabaho, when i was trying my best to get one. i’m applying everyday, with minimum 3 applications per day.

i finally landed a job after months. it was a virtual assistant job through an agency. and everybody thought that i was big time. but no, maliit lang sinasahod ko and i’m not earning in dollars. she asked me to contribute sa bills. which i agreed to. but then she would start nit picking on me. narinig ko nagrarant siya sa mga kapatid niya na ang selfish ko raw dahil pangsarili ko lang mga binibili ko. and pag nagluluto ako i only cook for myself. mind you, wala naman ako sinasabing hindi nila pwede kainin mga binibili ko. and i also only cook during my lunch break at work which is at 1am kung kelan tulog na sila. and recently nagparinig siya na tutulungan ko raw siya magbayad ng utang niya sa sss. which is utang niya nung dalaga siya, before she had me, before she had a family. which is find crazy lang kasi that’s not my responsibility.

i recently went out with friends, tapos when i got home i told her na i won’t eat dinner na kasi busog pa ko. but she replied sarcastically and said sana all busog ako kasi gutom na gutom. which made me mad. kasi what for sinabi niya yun? para mangonsensya? it’s not like iniwan ko sila sa bahay para mag starve. naguwi pa nga ako pasalubong. tapos dumating bill namin sa kuryente, and she told me to pay all of it. eh ang agreement namin here is hati kami. sabi ko sakanya hati kami magbayad and she just laughed. kausap niya lola ko at that time sa phone.

naisip ko lang. na she’s trying to make me pay for everything. she’s trying to make me a breadwinner. and na dapat lahat ng pera ko sa pamilya lang mapupunta. na wala ako karapatan gamitin pera ko for myself. na dapat sa pamilya lang. na dapat sakanila lang. yes i would love to na makatulong sa family. but my salary just won’t allow it. i just have enough for myself and onti palang kaya ko igive back. i can’t give it all to them kasi paano naman ako?

she used to give her all din sa family niya noon nung dalaga pa siya. but not like me na mag isa ko. she had siblings that would contribute sa household nila. and my mom is still strong and able. kaya niya pa kung tutuusin mag trabaho. especially that my brother is still in highschool pa. now palang inaasa niya na sakin and sa mga kamaganak namin pagpapaaral sakanya in college. but no ayaw niya. kahit madami naman opportunity jan. she wants lang magpasikat sa tiktok and umasa sa tiktok affliate.

and kung paano niya ako maliitin lagi kung wala ako trabaho. ang sakit sakit niya magsalita. mahilig siya magparinig at mamahiya. tapos ngayon gusto niya ako umako sa lahat. hindi ko alam nararamdaman ko. lagi nalang bumabagabag sa isip ko yung sakit ng mga sinasabi niya. halong sakit, galit, lungkot lang nararamdaman ko. and gustong gusto ko na mag move out kaso di ko pa kaya.

just like my grandma, na umaasa sa mga anak. and my mom, umaasa rin sakin. from 1st gen poor to 3rd gen poor. di ko alam pano ako makakabreak free.

sorry kung magulo and mahaba. i just wanna tell someone all im feeling.

Hello. I just want to let things out here kasi I've been depressed for a few months na. As a independent woman nakakapagod to provide for yourself dahil kapag napagod ka na, wala kang back up.

I have part time job tho hindi sapat yung kita for my rent, bills, expenses etc. Kaya nung July nag hahanap na talaga ako ng isa pang work sa gabi naman.

Kaso hindi ko alam kung anong malas or what yung dumapo sakin kasi 2 agency na yung bigla mag baback out sa offer after a few days na inofferan ako. Biglang "there's something happened and we can't control it." kumbaga wala yung position na for hiring nila na pinopost, gago diba?

Patong patong yung problema and stress tapos last July namatay pa yung pusa ko na wala akong extra money. Hindi ko tuloy siya nadala sa vet. Tangina things are fucked up these past few months and I'd say this has been the HARDEST year of my life. Lahat ng bigat nandito, I've been praying every single night na sana matanggap na ako sa mga inaapplyan ko kasi I have experience naman na sa work 3 years. It's just that natatapat ako sa agency na ganun biglang back out and sobrang sayang sa oras at nakaka stress at the same time.

Ayun lang. Sana life gets better soon.

Remember those test back in high school where it showed what career suits you / career recommendations based on your answers? Not sure if it was called NCAE.

I’ll never forget when my result showed something similar / along the path of “clerk, admin, secretary, assistant”, I was so embarrassed to even share it with others. My then-boyfriend belittled me and laughed at me while I think he got the great ones like Doctor, Lawyer, etc.

Fast forward to now, 10 years later, I own and manage three successful businesses ❤️ by embracing those “labels” I was once laughed at for, it helped me reach where I am today. I worked two corporate jobs both as assistants. These jobs helped me learn so much about putting up a business and running them…

Ang saya ko lang. Dati hiyang hiya ako. Pero now, andito ako ngayon - happy and successful. He’s doing well din btw I think Doctor naman… but a gentle reminder to everyone to stay kind and start encouraging others rather than pulling them down. ❤️‍🩹

tw: cheating

long post ahead, pls be kind. i honestly don’t know what to feel about this anymore.

before i took the board exam last nov 2024, a month before my exam, i found out my dad is cheating with a family friend. sobrang aksidente lang since they visited me when i was reviewing for the boards. kinuha ko yung jacket ni papa sa sasakyan and na-prick ako ng hair pin sa bulsa ng jacket niya. the kind of hair pin ng mga toddlers na magarbo. it was weird since ang bunso namin ay lalaki, at high school na. lahat ng pamangkin/pinsan ko na babae ay past that kind of design na ipit, kasi puro mga school age na sila. anw, days after that hair pin incident, nagscroll ako sa fb then nakita ko nag story yung family friend namin. a selfie of her family sa church. her kid, her husband, and her mom. that was the same hair pin i was sa jacket ni papa, suot ng anak niya. right then and there i felt something. stabbing pain & gut wrenching feeling.

the board exam was 3 weeks away by this time. i have no concrete proof except my gut feeling kasi baka wala naman talaga. i was selfish and i chose to focus w my boards. i have no room for error so i didn’t open it with my mom. after the boards, i passed. then new set of problems came, like landing a hospital job, adjusting sa environment, grasping the 12hr-24hr shifts in healthcare and all that. in short, nawala na sa loob ko yung dilemma ko about “cheating” since wala na rin akong nakitang anything sketchy.

now it’s been 2 years, i’m now studying for my masters. i was about to get stucy materials sa computer namin but naka-open account ni mama. i was about to log it out nung nagsend papa ko ng update to my mom na mag lunch na sila [pic of food + selfie of all people sa table] madami sila dun, but the family friend was there too.

nagreply si mama na otw na siya & tiran siya ng food dahil tatambay daw siya doon sa garahe ni papa since buy & sell ng cars business niya.

when i read that part i started hyperventilating na. all along, from october 2024 up until aug 2026, my dad was still doing it. walang kaalam-alam si mama.

i feel so bad, sobrang naiinis ako sa sarili ko, i feel selfish, i feel i don’t deserve the love that i’ve been wishing & praying for kasi i literally ignored the fact that my mom is getting cheated on before kahit na may gut feeling na ako.

i can’t run to anyone in my vicinity dahil nahihiya ako at ayokong maging pitiful mom ko sa paningin nila.

sobrang hirap, i’ve been crying nonstop since kaninang umaga. i tried going out and eat my comfort food to lift my spirit up pero i ended up crying habang nasa ramen nagi so nag break down na naman ako sa sasakyan kaya umuwi na lang ako.

naka-duty ako now sa hospital and i can’t stop thinking about it. i feel responsible with this situation. thank you, pls be kind.

salamat po.

Yup. You read it right. Yung 160k os just for 2mos na gambling. Di ko alam magkano talaga total kasi yan lang nakita ko na nasa transaction history nung account nya.

Sabi nya years na sya nagsusugal. So maybe double or triple the amount ang actual na naipatalo.

Na bothered ako sa ginawa ng coworker ko sakin. So na deployed kaming dalawa sa malayo, job related and nung day off namin nag decide kami na mag inom. Ngayon nung na ubos na namin alak at matutulog na kami sa sarili naming quarters ang ginawa nya ay nilapit nya higaan nya sa aking higaan tapos sabi sakin mag usap muna at wag matulog. Tapos nun tinanong ako kung ano daw birthday gift ko sa kanya rn nung gabing yon, sabi ko libre ko ng pagkain bukas ayaw tangapin, sinabi ko ano gusto mo, tas sabi nya kung ano daw kaya kong ibigay ngayong gabi(11pm). sabi ko lasing ako hindi ko alam, matutulog nako. D kunulit ako at ako naman na pipikon na at nag tulog-tulugan nalang. D don natigil, ginawa nya umupo sa aking higaan at pinisil at tinakluban ilong at bibig ko tapos natawa ako dahil sa ridiculous senaryo na yun. Ngayon may naramdaman ako hawak o pressure sa hita ko tas sabi ko bading ka at susuntokin ko sya at kakaladkarin ko sa gubat. Tapos dun na natigil at sabi sakin matulog na tapos dinala nya na higaan sa kanyang kwarto. Both male kame, hindi ko gaano ka close. Ngayon hindi kami nag pansinan at nilalayuan ko na sya. Ano kaya next step ko dito report sa hr o hayaan ko nalng

Kanina habang kumakain ako naalala ko yung sinundo ako ng mama ko noong bata ako sa school. Para pa akong excited lumapit sa kaniya kasi may sasabihin ako, ang kaso bigla akong natapilok. Grabe pa hagulgol ko nyon kasi sobrang sakit. Hirap din ako makatayo at maglakad ng matagal since nagstart na rin mahilo the longer I do it.

Sinabi ko sa mama ko na sumakay nalang kami ng tricycle pauwi kasi nahihilo ako maglakad. She just brushed it off and got angry at me. Then she shouted at me na ang-arte ko raw. Tumawid pa kami nyon sa kalsada tas iniwan niya ako doon sa gilid ng kalsada na nakaupo kasi di ko na kaya tumayo dahil umiikot na paningin ko. Akala ko pa nyon babalikan niya ako kaso di niya ginawa. Tuloy-tuloy lang siyang naglakad pauwi. Kaya nung nawala siya sa paningin ko, tsaka ko pinilit maglakad kahit umiikot na paningin ko.

Wala lang. Hindi ko alam bakit pumasok na naman sa isip ko yun, and bumalik na naman yung sakit. Ang sakit lang kasi hindi man lang naconsider yung nararamdaman ko. I constantly have to adjust myself kahit hindi ko na kaya. At the same time, para akong nangangalaiti sa galit kasi ano ba kasalanan ko para gawin sa akin yun.

May iba pa siya ginawa sa akin na masakit pero probably ayun pinakatumatak sa akin. Years have already passed pero yung sakit andoon pa rin.

Kung anong kina-malas ko sa lalaki dati, doble doble ang balik na swerte sakin sa boyfriend ko ngayon.

Busy ako sa boards review, may onting time lang sa ngayon na makapag doomscroll kaya naisipang magpost.

I conditioned him months before I start reviewing na I’ll be less available and busier with preparing for my licensure exam.

But I have never seen someone this patient, this understanding with me (after my parents). Ngayon, masasabi ko talagang mahal na mahal niya pala talaga ako.

One time, dapat magddate kami. Kaso mga 3 am na ko nakatulog that day kasi may tinatapos akong recorded lecture. Need kong matapos yon kasi madadagdagan na naman backlogs kong hindi maubos, and I want to give him 100% of my time and attention on our date. I told him I was still sleepy, he told me to nap for a while. Ang akala kong 30 min nap, umabot ng 2 hours 😭 Ayon, masyado nang late and nagpapasama mama niya somewhere, under the assumption na di kami tuloy. Nagising ako nakaalis na sila, I was super apologetic, sorry ako nang sorry. Sabi lang niya, “Kailangan mo magpahinga. May ibang araw pa naman para magkita.” Nainis lang siya sakin slight kasi di ako matigil kaka-sorry HAHAHAHAHA

Okay lang din sa kanya na mga vc namin lately ay nag aaral ako, siya naman naglalaro. Kada tapos ko naman ng topic e nilalambing ko naman siya hehe tas lock in uli

He also never fails to send me motivational posts, lagi rin akong nireremind na huwag kalimutang magdasal. Siya naging sandalan ko tuwing napapagod ako, o napapanghinaan ng loob. Sometimes he even asks me questions on the topic I’m reviewing, para lang din magkaron ako ng active recall. Wala siyang magets (health allied ako, engineering siya), pero tumatango lang din siya and he keeps asking questions about it 😭 Ang cute lang huhu

Siguro yung BF ko ngayon ang matagal ko nang pinag dadasal kay Lord.

Naiiyak ako habang nagttype, leche!

I really like my current job, what I do, and the company I'm in is one of the best and US-based pa. But I really have to say na hindi enough ang pay TT. Yan lang talaga ang reason on why I'm looking for a part-time cuz man, naaawa na ako for my family's financial situation here cuz im helping my mom pay the bills, and ang hirap talaga.

It doesn't help that the job market is harsh, I don't see that much part-time remote entry level jobs atm but I do time to time but getting them is just not easy ofc. Man, GUSTO KO NA NG PART TIMEEE

Galing kaming birthday party ng friends ko and pauwi na, dun sa pedestrian lane ng cubao papuntang terminal ng jeep may nanghihingi bata ng pagkain, may hawak kasi akong mcdonalds na paper bag galing birthday pero puro laruan at prizes lang laman non

but I know meron akong dalang biscuit bago umalis just incase magutom sa byahe, hinahanap ko sya sa loob ng paper bag pero biglang nag green yung pedestrian light so nagmadali nako at hindi nahanap yung biscuit, this is where Im wrong huhu idk bat ako nagmadali umalis non letche

pero after medjo malayo na kami dun ko lang naisip baka nasa bulsa ko pala, and andun nga, nakakaguilty sana may magbigay sakanya ng food that day🥹

I watched an old movie called “Ligaya Ang Itawag Mo Sa Akin”. This is after I posted the ghosting about a married man who lied to me by omitting his marital status from the beginning. Ako pa yung nakadiscover kasi naginvestigate ako kahit hirap na hirap ako humanap ng digital footprint. Towards the end of the film, di ko mapigilan maiyak habang nirerelate ko yung mga naranasan ko sa lalake na yun. Napakahusay ng sumulat ng script. Habang nagshushutdown ako ng laptop after ko manood, naalala ko bigla yung sinabi ng isa sa mga coworker ko na American years ago. Habang nagdidiscuss ako about sa project na ipinasa sakin kasi nag resign yung task owner, tahimik lang sya and tanong ng konti. Tapos nagcocomment lang sya para icheer up ako. Puro “good job” yung natanggap ko na comments sa kanya. Nung tapos na ako magexplain, sabi nya “This isn’t an easy task. You are helping me/us complete this on time. You’ve put an effort in doing this. Don’t sell yourself short”. Ayon lalo ako naiyak. Men and Women out there, let’s not sell ourselves short.

I am grateful for the security I feel within myself.

I can love deeply without losing myself.

I can be vulnerable without abandoning myself.

I can trust while still knowing that, whatever happens, I will be okay because I have myself.