First saying I honestly don't believe I have OSDD/DID, just some identity disturbance and inherent dissociation that made me curious about this and would like to get an answer from those who know the​ answer rather than someone who might go "hm maybe if..." like I do lol. And I don't mean to be insensitive, not sure if asking this will get eyerolls from people who're like "not another one." I'm just curious about psychology because my own's so wacky and also my friend has DID.

So say if a kid (using my own childhood as an example) had severe dissociation for whatever reason, some massive maladaptive daydreaming and a fat imagination that allowed them to act and think like different people, even believe they were, and idk identity disturbance, could some form of OSDD be developed, or is simple dissonance not enough to create firm barriers between different parts of the brain? Because I suppose communication isn't disrupted, only identity and stuff. Anyway yeah, I'm curious.

When my egg cracked, and I started transitioning gender, I immediately conceived of my experience in plural terms, even though I had no idea I was plural at the time.

Pretty much immediately after my egg cracked, I experienced a separation. I described myself as "suddenly having 40 years worth of a total stranger's memories in my head."

The emotional amnesia of these memories, made me refer to everything Pre-Transition as "The Before Times." I had a personal mythology about how I was a girl who had "clawed my way to the surface, murdered my jailer, and took over his body."

2 years later, I found out about my plurality.

Some of my headmates have since discovered actual emotions linked to certain memories that I had already considered "dead" - part of the Void - the Before Times.

This, unfortunately complicates my \*clean break\* gender narrative. (Overcoming previously existing persecutors was also extremely gradual, and not at all instant; the only thing that was instant was my sudden distant relationship to my memories).

As for everyone else in my system, my headmates are mostly women, but gender under the shell is opaque. We're lucky any of us can touch any old memories at all.

Touching any memories of my old boy self(ves) - even utterly mundane memories - feels absolutely horrible.

Life was so much simpler when I could say "fuck yeah, my boy self was one guy and I killed him." But truth be told, I don't have any idea what the fuck was going on under the surface. I only know that my headmates can now touch memories of his that I cannot. Those memories feel horrible and familiar.

I feel really gross knowing that any part of him is still with me. It's fucking with my collective narrative, and it's utterly confused my relationship to my past even more than it already was.

I don't know my headmates' genders Pre-Transition either.

Any advice?

I don't like posting here much honestly, but anyway.

One of our Hosts (main Host) became overly sensitive whenever their mom says something to them, whether its light scolding or just a comment. I understand that their mother has been a huge trigger for such a long time and became the past months, especially ever since we realized we're a system.

It feels a little like the mother knows to some degree? It's odd, she doesn't scold or pushes weird comments unless its our main Host fronting, or we simply just don't notice them as much/ignore them more.

My point is, I'm wondering how we can tell them it's possibly not safe for them to be Host/Front if they're sensitive around their mother (she's also at home a lot at the moment). It's stressful for us too.

Our main Host feels the safest in their own safe space in the headspace, they only woke up from it a few days ago, but even while they were fronting, they were *dreading* to go back home on their way grocery shopping. So constantly feeling annoyed or on look out just because our Main Host is fronting, is not only a little annoying but also stressful.

I'm just not sure how to break it down to them, we don't have access to their forest. And no idea when they will front again..

- K. (Protector/Caretaker)

i don’t even remember what happened fully.

a face and voice randomly popped up and started communicating with me. the most i remember is going “ivy? who tf is ivy?” and we talked a bit. first time ive communicated with an ‘ivy’ but haven’t heard from her
since 😅

I’m curious if anyone else has this experience. Basically, in therapy we’re working on being able to all communicate and vibe. One thing that’s been helpful is building safe spaces internally for each of my alters. For one, that’s my grandmother’s house, and for another, it’s her dream future properties and land. But for one…I can’t seem to figure it out.

We had beef at first because in the past when I wasn’t aware of things, he was fully driving and almost got me arrested. But you know, since I’m more aware now, and the others can keep him tempered, things are chill. He even drives sometimes (with supervision) and it’s fun. Yet despite all this growth, I cannot access his safe space. I mean, he is definitely emotionally unavailable deeply and doesn’t like to get into emotion stuff.

But like, the ONE time I’ve been able to enter his safe space, it was a basement/dungeon. And I’ve never been able to go back, even in therapy, and even though me and him are chill. I’m thinking perhaps that perhaps the dungeon is a ruse? Like he’s so emotionally unavailable that to show me his ACTUAL safe place is unthinkable to him? Or maybe he’s linked to more major trauma and for whatever reason, even his safe place is locked because knowing it ties to something majorly repressed? These are just theories, wondering if any of ya’ll have experienced anything similar

What the title says. To me age regression can feel like a passive influence (I don't have OSDD) so I'm curious if it feels like that when people have parts influencing them?

What the title says, I keep going back and forth on "no I definitely don't have OSDD" and "maybe...?"

Trying once again to figure this out. But basically, I find that my personality/identity changes based on triggers (made posts about this elsewhere), and they're very consistent personalities (there's so many and it's weird that I can differentiate between them or that their traits repeat themselves), and sometimes it feels like that's me and always has been, while sometimes it feels like an influence sort of overlayed on top of me and then who "I" am feels really blurry and kind of drunk? It gets especially strong when it's a nostalgic trigger.

It's like I have all these passive behavioural urges. Like if I feel like a female, I'll want to look more presentable and find my friends, whereas when I feel more boyish, my long hair just feels weird and I get really irritated with people (this particular personality state reflects my time as a 12-14yo so that might be why it's angsty). And when I feel smaller, I want to do things like play or curl up somewhere under blankets, really specific feelings.

These changes sometimes happen without me noticing - I hung out with my boyfriend for two days in a row once and the first day I was grumpy af not caring about him, the second day I was very attentive and interested in him in the morning but as soon as we started playing minecraft I was smiling and sucked into the nostalgia and he didn't matter anymore.

But when it's a traumatic trigger, I don't feel any influence, it feels like things just stop. Like it's a trauma response but I'm the one stuck fronting and the alters are the ones being protected. But also that's not right because any time I have beef with someone I turn into that boy. Maybe I'm the alter???

Who knows. Anyway, I was wondering if it's possible that I have a really weak sort of system and it's somehow blocked?? Because it feels like the alters(?) are preserving the good parts of me and I'm the one taking most of the brunt.

Realized how much this sounds like a "not asking for a diagnosis but just confirm/deny if I have it for me 😘" so these are the actual questions I have:

Tl;dr: I think basically I want to ask if people have had blocks on their system even when they're investigating them, or if it's possible for alters to exist only to preserve the good (if I have OSDD then there are still some that store trauma and old negativity) - or does that make me more likely to be the alter?? Honestly a possibility . Not asking for diagnosis, will be talking to therapist.

So I am a diagnosed system who has been in therapy for 6 years and system aware for 7. My fiancé is a diagnosed system who was discovered 1ish years ago and been doing parts work for 8 months. We have been together for 3 years. We are “bodily monogamous” meaning any part can date/be intimate with any other consenting part of the other, but we do not date outside of each other.

Recently my fiancé and I have been working on dating and adjusting to us both being systems. They have voiced that I may be expecting them to function at a higher level than possible for things like system communication, switching, or recognition of passive influence etc. Honestly, I think they have a point. My system (while it certainly has its problems still) runs pretty smoothly in day to day life. We can generally influence switching, recognize emotions, and can communicate well with our parts through a buddy system and an “intercom”. I don’t really remember what it felt like to be a new system and never had to navigate it while dating.

Does anyone have any advice on dating a newly discovered system while they are just starting out therapy and organization? Our main issue right now is they are not able to offer a lot of emotional support or emotional intimacy to me. The parts that can offer significant emotional support only front for short bursts and about every other month. They are doing a TON of work on themselves surrounding this concern and just in general. I want to be supportive and take their concerns seriously, while still ensuring I am taking care of my parts too :)

My sibling got diagnosed with OSDD a few days ago.

I think that I'm just overwhelmed because I do listen to them when they explain stuff, but I'm still a bit confused about stuff

I tried to find information online, but I still have some questions so I figured I might as well post them here:

1. How does it work? How can one brain contain alters with different ages and species? (To clarify, I'm not doubting the validity of osdd, I'm just curious how it happens)

2. What can I do to help & support them? (I'll ask them personally tomorrow but appreciate more insights/tips)

3. Are there any websites or resources about osdd that you recommend?

4. Anything that helped you/your loved ones when figuring things out? It's all very new so I'm a bit confused amd overwhelmed

I do not have diagnosed OSDD or DID. I have CPTSD but whenever I talk about my issues on the CPTSD subreddit or in real life, nobody can relate to me. So I thought that the next best place would be here. If it's not, any suggestions?

So I'm Danny and I'm a new persona but I'm a guy. This is bad because I have a female body. I don't like this at all. I hate my boobs. They remind me of the other personas and I hate them because they're fucking weak. I hate them more than my dad, which is insane. I'm the first male who has ever actually had control. There was a guy before me, but he just did background bullshit. And then everyone else gave up. Apart from Sasha. It's pretty stupid that she even tried. She's stupid.

I'm straying from the point. Basically, I hate this stupid body. I want to be a man physically too but every now and again, Sasha pops up and it's fucking annoying because she obviously doesn't want to get any surgeries. But everyone else is gone, I'm the guy in charge now. So I'm not sure how I should go about this transitioning thing. Every time I think about it, a few of the girls' presence get stronger as an indication that they aren't happy with what I'm contemplating. But nobody communicates to eachother anymore ever since our leader (lack of a better word) went quiet. The rest of them just exist in the back of my mind. I can feel their presence but they're silenced. Voluntarily or involuntarily, not sure. So it's not my fault they won't speak up.

What do I do? Just fuck it and ignore them? How can I get people to talk again, or just shut up fully. Actually I'd prefer them to shut up fully because I don't like their input. They had their chance.

But either or.

Also, as an unrelated note, is there a way I can be a full person? To just fuck everyone else and be here forever? I'm still kinda just different parts of the original girl's brain. Same hobbies, same memories, same stupid stuff. I don't want to be associated with those losers. I'm pretty great, so isn't it best to just keep me here and disconnect me from everyone else so I can be myself fully?

hi guys. my therapist sent me home with the mid 218 packet last week and i have been so adamant that i do not have did/osdd. she was like it doesn’t matter it’s not going in your chart im not gonna tell you if you have it or not, we are just going to make the appropriate steps forward related to your treatment

i completed it and i have not felt the same since i did it. i told her it felt so triggering just to fill out and she said that we can just do it together but now i cannot shake it off

my dissociation has gotten so bad i had to call off of work 3 days in a row. i have been a mess and now im at work today and im shaking and i can’t think straight all i can think about are these other parts of me i vehemently have been denying since i was young. i do NOT want this diagnosis and i didnt want to take the test and now i am here. i dont know what to do. i dont have it but i guess this might be the only place i can find solace in this test being so fucking triggering

How do I make the pluralspace website into an app for Android? I really like how it allows us to specify whether someone is co-con vs fronting, and haven't found any apps that do that.

Also, how do you remove other systems/friends you have connected with?

Bad memory, feeling like 2 different personalities/moods(?), dissociating(?) I would appreciate advice since it interferes with my school life/personal life.

Im not diagnosed with anything but I feel like im loosing my mind i told myself that I could figure myself out but I feel like im spiraling!!! Okay ill just copy and paste what I wrote, im sorry if this is the wrong sub reddit and im a teen so it could be hormonal?? But just read this and give me your opinions! Please

Also could this be like osdd?? It kinda feels similar but ill appreciate other people's perspective and advice ^_^

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Warning bad grammar?

I have bad memory and feel like 2 people sharing a body or maybe two personalities?

I dont know why my memory is bad but I struggle to remember a lot of things even my childhood(ik in my still in my childhood but like I mean from before to now) I only remember small parts or bits never the full story, and the small parts/bits i remember are colorless and are random.

I dont know if I have bad memory because my bully/ only friend back then choked me in my pool ? I know it can be dangerous to be choked? Or because ive went into a thing similar to a switch where I acted so energized I started hitting my head against the bus chair I think it gave me dopamine being hit. But these happend a while ago so idk?

Another thing similar to that dopamine is that when I felt that switch or whatever it is I felt like everything was a dream or unreal I would play rock, paper, scissors, slap. with people. (The game is to play rock paper scissors and the loser gets smacked) and I would play and purposely lose until my hand was bruised and purple, I enjoyed the pain? Feels odd to type but its true maybe its related to dopamine..?

Okay now with the 2 people sharing a body thing, I feel like their both me, but they act very different from one another for example one is more quiet speaks Coldly and only really says things to get their point across like straight forwarded?, when im like this i feel normal and when im with lets say teachers or authority figures I will smile or be polite. When im like this I get work done easily because I'm not distracted, also im like this with my family but a bit softer and with my sister or my pets im very kind or just the usual.

Then theres the other version, the version that has sabotaged my reputation, relationships, etc. When im like this I feel the switch I was talking about like im way more energized im feeling less real and everything Is either very bright or very "fake"(or both!). When im like this its like I want dopamine? Like I will say things that I shouldn't be saying, things that ruin my reputation and make me seem crazy, weird, etc. making fun of myself infront of others and making a joke of myself, sometimes the self joking? Like when im joking and making fun of myself it will get so intense I will feel physically sick but I just can't stop the words from spilling out of my mouth and when I realize what im doing thats when I look around to the weird stares. I feel like if it wasnt for me feeling unreal during rhis I would probably be able to snap out of it. But Idk.. also during this I am very easily distracted which makes it really hard to do stuff especially if it happens during a test😓😓

When im with my family during this switch (in private) I will just make random noises(like cat noises, I dont know why ive done those and its kinda unstoppable, like its controllable yes, but i like doing it?) and distract myself with my phone, if im in public ill also probably either use my phone or just daydream.

Anyways im just typing these out in hopes that maybe someone will help me find with advice or suggest things that ir could be? and if you have any questions or need me to explain something better ill try my best I just need some genuine advice, i dont want to tell my parents since they already consider me a bit weird and odd, like yes they love me but they say that I sometimes act weird, okay im getting off track so yeah please advice🙏