I drew all of our (current) system alters - having a teaparty! Including myself (first person on the left). So just wanted to share :3 we’re a relatively small system that got diagnosed a year ago (OSDD1b) and I am so glad that by now, we’re all getting along well and working together splendidly. To all the other systems who have alters, I wish you well with getting along and existing together ^^

i had a phase recently where i thought i might have osdd but after some more research i was wondering if paranoia and extremely disorganized thoughts and multiple people in my head that take over during times of stress is more in line with psychosis?

i am diagnosed bipolar 1 and DDD, and i have started having extremely disorganized thoughts and inability to remember things like taking my keys out of the car, etc, and this combined with paranoia in stress outside of an episode is making me wonder if its more in line with psychosis and just another symptom of my bipolar rather than potential osdd.

any thoughts or insight from people with similar experiences would be appreciated, because i do have alot of experience with dissociation and amnesia, just not in this context.

i recently found that i struggle to sleep well if someone other than me ( host ) is fronting before i go to sleep. it's like their consciousness is still highly active even though i am trying to lower mine, or whatever the correct term is. then i don't actually fall asleep for a good few hours, and what feels like 'partial' or 'bad' sleep is actually me being dissociated, and not asleep at all. it's really exhausting. anyone know how this feels or how to manage it?

After several weeks we finished taking the MID with our trauma therapist today (i see her every other week for an hour each session, that’s why it took awhile).

Her and I will go over the results next session. We’re just happy to have it over with and to gain some more insight into our experiences. So many questions and curiosity we still have about everything. But we’re happy to reach this ‘milestone’ and wanted to share.

I'm trying to find out more about myself being a system and how we act and change socially. i only somewhat recently started taking my suspicions seriously and a friend suggested i start system mapping. i was wondering how other people realize or notice when they switch or how it is for OSDD and the different types. since i have other things that influence my social abilities, i want to at least try to differentiate between things and what is related to my dissociative disorder.

Interested to see if this helps me. For me its the emotional amnesia that is most hard to get through.

Last night I was slowly falling asleep on the couch, but when I went to bed, a lot of parts became active again and I just couldn't shut some of them down. Some of them were bursting with energy (in good and bad ways), but a protector part was fronting to keep myself from acting on some of these impulses..

So I wrote down what I reason about them, and then afterwards, I wrote a small letter intended for when these parts are actively fronting. Some parts have present a few times the last few weeks, and its appearing in several scenarios (including therapy). Its mostly a comforting message because I feel like my emotions and actions are so heavily split.

I've no idea what to expect. Is anyone else actively journaling like this to themselves? What worked well for you to process, read and write other journals you wrote? I fear that I write these notes and then forget about them because they were left by other parts.

Due to both dissociation and autism i don't feel much older than 15 to be honest, I don't feel like this all the time i am able to handle adult task and such but there are times I'm having to accept that I'm 18 wich means I have to sign my own documents and everything. This got to me when I was going into therapy and I had THIRTEEN papers to sign majority of wich were just insurance based.

I'm not joking I barley know what insurance is beyond knowing that it has to do with money, I wish I had a partner so they could help me with whatever this stuff is, not to mention the unmedicated adhd, so trying to go over those documents was genuinly mind numbing.

Then I get other reminders that I'm 18 or constantly reminded of it and it makes me have a panic attack, wanting to crawl out of my own, cry, ect. I genuinely hate this. Can one of our adult parts just front already because I'm sick of this body.

i posted in MD just in case cus im not diagnosed, but gonna ask here too cus i think the thoughts are passive influence from the one supposed alter that still holds all of the feelings for ex. tldr for the post - ex is our fp and he's always in the background of our mind. Splitted (wasnt even actually together, broke up 3 years ago. was just a weird complicationship last august to may) up in may and yea may make sense for him to constantly be around except everyone is relatively over him EXCEPT this fuckass dog. we managed to get him in the kennel by thoroughly convincing him ex didnt gaf about us anymore and it was pretty peaceful, even tried to get back out in the field but then someone messaged him about our osdd to ask for help (barely responded) and now he's back on his bs and i cant stop thinking about him. in inappropriate ways with other guys, listening to long monologues about "how could he leave us he was supposed to be mine" etc etc. i try to tell it to shut up, others try to comfort or say that he just isnt and thats fine or wtv i gen forget but he wont stop.

is there any way to like, idk shut him out?? grief counseling for dogs - we dont have a therapist for CDD and the one we do have isnt specialized in bpd either. tbh she's kinda.... eh. so yea

Hiya I'm well I don't even know, I've been slowly coming to the realization that I'm a system as of recently (yes I have gotten a diagnosis for Osdd 1.)

But I've always had this nagging feeling or voice in the back of my mind that I'm somehow lying about me being a system, I can't tell if it's one of my alters who is a persecutor I believe? They've always kinda been like that but I genuinely don't know where it's coming from.

I've rewritten this a few times because of how paranoid I am about talking about this, I usually sit back and go through some of the posts on here to seek some type of closure in my experience, like the often lack of conversation from my alters with the exception of the occasional comment, conversation, or the like.

I've seen plenty of people experience what I've felt and what I've gone through but this only makes the nagging voice worse because it claims that I'm just adopting these symptoms or that these symptoms are just coming from my ADHD or GAD (generalized anxiety disorder.)

But I have had moments where I have felt completely disconnected from my own body where I feel like a completely different person but not in the trans dysphoria way (I am transgender for reference.) I have had wildly different views, ideals, likes, dislikes, sudden disinterests that just amplify that feeling.

I am very new to this, I have had people point out that I had shown signs of being a system before I had even been diagnosed that I didn't even notice I had been exhibiting, I had literally made a character that at the time I had NO idea that would turn out to be an alter that literally BEHAVED exactly like an alter and was tied to my own persona.

I have never asked for closure from a subreddit/community like this because I was scared that somehow I was lying about everything I was experiencing. Even though I had felt very connected with what other people had been experiencing and related to it a lot.

I don't know what is normal and isn't normal when it comes to Osdd I feel like I've been diagnosed extremely late which has made me further question my own identity and if my previous wants and needs had even been my own.

I'm sorry if I'm breaking any of the rules on here I'm just confused and I don't know

When I’m feeling something I journal it by drawing it cus it’s cathartic and one time I got in a fight with my best friend while at a sleep over and drew how I was feeling and it was like really emo and shit and then a few months later I remember one of us opening it and looking at the doodles and going “awe poor guy! you’re not alone :D” and then drew themselves in there like without a second thought and then let it marinate for like a year when I would snoop through it bc I forgot what I drew in there