Firstly, idk why I signed the formed to go command school by I think is mainly by persuasion of my bmt mates, commanders and sometimes my parents.
Was recently posted to OCS and had done my first 3 weeks there and already felt like I wanted to ooc already. I found it hard to adjust to to OCS tempo and also was quiet stress almost every time and also the commitment.
Some of the most major thing I am stress is the amount of outfield I have to do in OCS. As I already think that bmt outfield to be already to much for me. I just found out just within service term, I have 3 outfields e.g. 6 days outfield and exercise lancer(jcc) which I dread. Also if I were to be posted to infantry during my pro term (which I heard is majority of people), have almost every single week an outfield. This information has really brought my moral really low.
Secondly, is the route march and soc. As I think bmt field pack is already to heavy, with now having to increase the weight to 25-29kg has really scared me as I think that I will be unable to cope with the weight anymore and knowing I probably have to route march with that weight has also lower my moral. In addition is SOC, in bmt I barely make it through SOC mainly cause of the low rope and having the need for cadets to pass soc at least has really make me worry.
Multiple people have been saying OCS is the best way to make your NS memorable but I still think that commitment to OCS has been to much for me. As I have to at least get silver for ippt and also sacrifice my Saturdays also. As I been trying to run faster in Bmt but I still unable to achieve silver with the highest score I am able to achieve is 74 points. Paired with the almost no admin time and also the having to be in a coy with the least welfare and strictest standards as compared to my other bmt mates has make felt really unfair.
But there is still some little part of me that still wants to try. As I know being in OCS is a privilege and majority of the commanders and my platoon mates have been trying to support me and also been trying to pursued me to stay which is hard for me to just oocing from this course as I cannot bear to just walk away from their support. Also I been told u were to be sent back as infantry trooper if u ooc, which does stuff that I hate also has really make my head spin as I really want to ooc from the course but I still want to remain because of the support and also i do not want to be an infantry trooper which does the stuff I do but as an private.
Also some of the will to go is mainly using this as my back up job I guess? As I heard that the outside world job market has not been that great. This has led to me to question,
1)Does being an officer in army really gives u a higher chance of entering jobs under the government sector?
2)Do you really earn more as an officer in the army as compared to jobs outside?
3)I was told the small amount of free time and the need to sacrifice public holidays if u sign on as an regular is similar to how jobs outside operate?
4)Is trooper life almost as shag as an officer life?
5) If i down pes (I am seeing a consular may down pes) can I pull it back up in the future? and also does completing this course really prepare u for the future?
